I have died a thousand times
I have died a thousand times before I dived into this sea and I burn myself on this path. The path that led me to God burnt me but still I am here the only beloved to me is Allah he is the one in my mind , my heart , my blood and even if nothing goes my way then by Allah , His plan is better, God says he is closest to the broken hearted does he not, Death , world and all this illusion is a test for you do not fall astray , Alhamdullillah I may burn now so I become one with my beloved in the Akhirah and my soul yearns for him in this dunya. This path to God has many thorns , fires and barriers but eventually we will overcome these one by one. The viels of the heart are dropping one by one eventually and the nafs is the one who is dying not you so accept the invitation which is being heart broken for some as some this path is repair for some it is the path of loyalty and for some it is the path to becoming one with the beloved.Why do you cry when God is taking the dust off you didn't the great poet like Mevlana Rumi and even What I epeated that the aim of the person is not to destroy the rug but to take the dust off it that is why the person beats it so do not complain when God is beating you taking the dust off you. Did I not say mein khuda se dawaat maangi thi badlay mein mera dil toot gaya. I asked God for the invitation and I have been invited. Dive into this sea with your heart not your nafs. It is all alright we have overcome this test and we have broke our chains and have died and we have came to this thresh-hold. I have died a thousand times and will die a thousand more times to get rid of this "I" this nafs and we will trust in Gods plan do not worry
