Chapter 1 heart to heart
Sincere
I woke up aroun' 9 dis mornin', an' everybody was still sleep.
I laid in bed scrolling through my phone, when it dinged, flashing a number I ain't kno'.
5044267579: congratulations baby! I miss u!
Me: who is dis
5044267579: oh so u dnt kno' nobody nomo
Me: quit playin on a nigga line ya heard '
5044267579: ain't nobody playin on yo fuckin line lil boy. It's me Marlae
Me: how ya get dis numba'?
Im pissed na.
5044267579: I saw Big Sin roun' da way, befa' he left fa ya graduation.
Me: well check dis out. U cool or whateva, but I dnt stay in Louisiana and Big Sin kno' I gotta wife, so I dnt kno' why he gave u da numba' but please lose dis hea' numba'.
5044267579: wife??
Yea ok.
I tossed my phone on da couch, aggressively, irritated den a fuck na.
Wazzam woe? Nier holla'd, coming roun' the couch, dappin me up.
Dis bitch ass nigga Big Sin mane! I say shaking my head.
What his ass do na'? He asked, ready fa da bullshit.
Nigga passing out my line to dem hoes, like candy ya heard.
Fool stay trippin ya heard! he said, shakin his head, reading the texts I showed him.
His ass doin hoe shit on purpose. He thank a nigga ca' be persuaded by dem hoes.
Talm bout Yah got a nigga nose open. I say, thinkin bout how he keep tryna play in ha' face.
If anythang, he should be glad lil sis holdin u down. he say, shaking his head.
I'm finna call dat nigga mane. Den I'm changin my numba' again. I say, as Yah walked in.
I held my arms out, an' she came, getting in my lap, laying ha' head on my chest.
What's wrong? she asked, looking up at me, concern lacing across ha' sleepy features, an' Lanier handed ha' my phone.
Dawg what's wrong with him? she asked, sittin' da phone on the table.
Nigga stay on hoe shit! Nier said.
Nigga tryna bait me back ta Baton Rouge. I say, shakin my head.
I think y'all need to talk. Like a real heart to heart, cause this don't make no sense! she said, pointing at the phone, getting irritated.
U straight sis?
Dnt pay dat shit no mind, bruh ain't stuttin bout them hoes! Nier said.
I ain't worried bout him, and no girls, it's just crazy, that his daddy is being spiteful, and weird. My lady say, looking me ova, knowing dat shit was bothering a young nigga.
Cus he tryna make ha' da reason i'on wan come back, but I tol' him befa' I left, when maw maw called fa me, so he jus on His bullshit as usual.
Yah was curled up in my lap, an' I wrapped ha' in my arms, pecking ha' face, an' lips. Calming us both.
Just den B, an' da girls came in.
What up doe' my baby? What's on da flo' ? B asked, crew shaking wit us
Shid! we on whateva. I gotta go check on my babyeh, an' lil sis, an' dat nigga gotta talk ta his pops! Nier said, pointing at me.
Why don't we drive to Kalahari?, and you can bring my niece and lil sis. Yah suggested.
Awe shit! Bet! That's what's up. They say getting hype.
We mayaswell invite everybody, cus it was a nice lil bit of kids last night ya heard! Nier doubled down wit ha'.
Hell yea! everybody chimed in.
U hungry? I whispered in ha' ear, blowing on ha', makin' ha' giggle.
Hecky yea! starving! She mumbled, closing ha' eyes again, makin' me cradle ha' into me more.
Dawg, this nigga and His damn baby! B ass joced, making dem look at us, and laugh.
Boi fuck ya! She prolly be holdin' u like dis! I say, pointing at his girl.
She laughed, trying not to look at him.
AHA lil bitch!! Yah yelled from my chest, makin' everybody weak.
Nigga! u kno' she dnt miss! She light yo ass up every time! Nier holla'd between laughs, makin B flip us tha bird.
We put the calls out bout da lil trip, tryna get our day set, an' those who wasn't getting on da road today agreed.
Taking my lady's advice, I called my pops last, an' he agreed, afta I tol' him we really needed to talk.
We left my house at 12, getting thea' by 2. I decided to get some rooms, to spend the night.
Da girls wanted to ride All the rides, but I wasn't feeling it.
I needed to find my pops. And I did. Him an' his lil family was at da lil funnel cake stand, by the smaller kid rides.
Hey Sen!! Sup big bro! My lil brotha an' sister holla'd,runnin up to me.
Hey lil Sen. Leecha bad built, bent buick body ass spoke dryly, an' I ignored da fuck out ha' as usual.
Y'all havin' fun?? I asked da kids, smiling.
Yes! Yep!
Good! Be good ya hea'. I say, making dem nod at me.
Say Pops lemme holla at u real quick. I say, walking off. We found a lil bench an' sat down.
Wazzam Sun? My pops asked, actin like he ain' did nun wrong.
Pop what u on? Why u give dem ho.. girls my numba' mane?
U kno' I'm with Yah, so why do dat? I asked irritatedly, an' he laughed, thanking shit a game.
I ain't thank you'd mind. She said y'all was like dat, befa' ya left. He said, Chuckling, like dat excused him.
Say mane! stop dat, cus u gave it ta Diva too. I'on wan dem girls pop. I got who I wan, an' das Yah. She gon be my wife. I spoke plainly, definitively, looking him dead in his eyes.
I ain't comin back to slang, or building no Empire. Be my dad, or leave me alone.
Top an' Maw maw already raised me, so ya kno' I'on mind. I tell him straight up, tired of his shit.
So what u gon' do? He asked disapprovingly.
Me an' my lady finna travel. I say nonchalantly, really tired of talking to dis nigga, cus he stay wit dat fuck shit
Wit who's money! He questioned me, indignantly.
U'on work, u'on eat roun' hea'! he said looking at me, like I was crazy.
U can't hang yo money ova my head nomo. I'm straight, my money long enough.
Oh so u don't need me nomo huh?? He said smilin', but dat shit ain't reach his eyes, an' I gave him one dat tol' him i'on give a fuck, bout nun he talm bout.
So u just gone take dis li girl roun' tha world spendin yo money on ha'?
Is she worth it? Is she loyal?
U Too young ta be talkin' bout marriage boy. He ranted.
Mane I ain't Neva needed u, an' u kno' dat, an' anyway, She got ha' own paper.
My paw paw met maw when they was young, he married ha', an' stayed wit ha' til he died, so what is u saying??
Anyway I'm good on relationship advice, especially from u!
I'm gon marry ha', because she is loyal, an' definitely worth it!,
An' if u wan be anywhea' roun' ta see it, or in my life period, u need to let dis go, let me go.
Only reason u'on like ha', is cause u thank she da reason I ain't comin back, but she not!
I was ready, waiting to get da hell up outta thea'.
I'on need alotta of advice from u, I had my paw paw fa dat, but I'm tryin to let you be a part of my life, so I'on gotta X you of it completely.
I luh' ya, but i'on wan be nun like u. I tell him truthfully.
So what? U betta den me? He asked, slightly offended.
Dat ain' what I said, an' u kno' it, come on nah pop, but u should wan dat fa me. Wan me to be betta den u.
Ya son. Ya first born son! I say, ova da whole conversation, cus ain't no winning wit dis nigga.
Das why u sposed' ta be wit me. He said, totally missing da point.
Say! I'm sorry, but dat ain't fa me, give it to Smooth, he been up unda ya, since a jitt, but I can't do it woe. I say, giving up on da whole conversation, standing up to leave.
Thank ya' fa comin, an' supportin me. I luh' ya pop. I tell him shaking my head disappointedly.
Luh' u too sun. he said behind me.
I walked, til I found Yah dem sittin, eatin pizza, an' I sat down.
Hey bae, you ok?
How'd it go? she cooed, facing me, kissin my lips, makin' a young nigga smile, like I hit da lotto.
I'm coo luv! I can't make dat nigga do right, so he just gon get left behind. I say lowly, pecking ha' nose, an' lips.
I got you some pizza and wings. I figured you might be hungry. she say, smiling up at me shyly, pulling stuff out of a bag, laying it out in front me.
Thank ya' mamas, cus I'm "starving like Marvin", whoeva da hell he is! I say, laughing.
Marvin is you apparently! she said joining in laughing.
I ate my food peacefully, feeding ha' too, ignoring ha' protests, bout how she bought it fa me.
Once we were done, we decided to go back on da rides.
We rode til 9, den I bought my li' baby ha' funnel cakes, before heading back to the hotel.
We took a showa', an' she washed a nigga, relaxin my body, my mind, massaging my scalp.
She jus do sum'n to me mane, I can't even explain it. She jus always kno' what to do.
She a beautiful soul mane. I'm always in awe of ha', an' da fact dat ha' li tiny self possess sum'n so big, Soo Powerful.
Ha' spirit Pure,- strong, but still so soft. Gentle.
Ha' energies is healing to me.- Like, Jus' ha' presence alone, makes my spirit man stronger.
I grabbed ha' sponge, an' began washing ha', mesmerizing myself, as tha suds ran down ha' body, while she leaned back into me, relaxing completely.
I neva had a girl like ha' befa'. I don knocked down plenty broads, but I ca' Neva do ha' like dem.
Cus even tho I wan ha' body, I'a ratha Feel an' Love on ha' Spirit, til she ready fa me, cus das what my heart luh' mo den anythang.
I washed ha' til she was covered in suds. I started squeezing an' rubbin on ha', just da way she like. She melted into me, as my heart liquified right along wit ha', pouring ova ha'.
I massaged ha' scalp, as I kissed ha' lips, an' she deepened it, sticking ha' tongue in my mouth.
Making me pick ha' up. She wrapped ha' pretty legs aroun' me, grounding me, making me feel whole.
I wispered my love, an' affections in ha' ear, rubbin ha' body softly, holdin' us unda the wata. She felt so good on my skin, an' I needed more.
I lifted ha' up, steadily, putting ha' legs ova my shoulders, ha' ass in my hands', an' ha' luv in my face.
I immersed myself in ha', knowing it was long ova due, even tho she wouldn't jus come out an' tell me. She was ova due, an' I received ha', as she came apart, right in my hands.
When it was finished, I brought ha' back down, washing ha' again, but she had other plans.
She went to ha' knees, taking me in.
She poured ha' love fa me, wit dis act of service, an' it made me fall deepa fa ha' right thea' on da spot, jus cus she wanted ta please me.
She continued ta love on a nigga, bringin me to the edge of da cliff, as my heart raced, drumming loudly in my ears.
An' upon falling off, she milked me fa my worth. I stood ha' up, bringing ha' into me, kissing ha' wit everythang else I had.
I turned the wata off, after rinsing us down. I wrapped ha', den myself, scooping ha' up, takin ha' to the bed, laying ha' down softly.
I climbed into ha' open arms, pulling da covers up ova us.
You love me? She asked, kissing my lips.
Mhmm!
Say it! she wispered, making my dick twitch.
I luh' u Yah babyeh. I say, quietly, kissin' ha' deep, squeezin ha'.
I kno' u feeling a way. I say, hovering ova ha' now, making ha' smile.
I whispered my feelings fa ha', in ha' ears, as I kissed all on ha', as she moaned softly fa me, rubbing on my body.
Sen baby please! she whispered, breathily.
What babyeh? I said lowly, as I found my way between ha' thighs, rubbin my thumb ova ha' luv.
She was soakin' wet, an' I licked ha' clean, an' made love to ha' wit my mouth, til she couldn't take nomo, falling asleep on my chest exhausted, an' satisfied.
