Chapter 1
As the days go by, I find myself increasingly tense, struggling to understand who I am and what I truly want to become. I'm often misunderstood by those around me, and this weighs heavily on me—so much so that I sometimes feel I'm on the verge of losing my sanity. I wonder if this is simply the reality of the world or just my sensitivity speaking. No matter how hard I try, I seem trapped in a cycle of disappointment.
My dream has always been to help others and show them the different sides of the world—not in a negative way, but through the understanding of how the laws of nature work. I believe that anything can be changed, that everything is possible. We just need minds that can grasp this truth and souls that are willing to explore it. Not everything needs to be processed consciously; it's often better to accept how nature operates with our subconscious mind.
We are not losers—we’re simply different. We feel more deeply, see more clearly—not with our eyes, but with our souls. When I think about myself, I realize I’ve always preferred avoiding crowds and enjoying my own company. Yet, I've come to see that I am my own best friend. That’s a lot for me to process—how lonely I can feel at times—but deep down, I know I must face this reality.
