CHAPTER 1: āToo Close to Stay Safeā
I never noticed when it started.
Maybe because it didnāt come all at once.
It came in small moments⦠dangerous ones.
Like when he laughs too close to my face and I forget what I was saying.
Or when his hand brushes mine and neither of us moves away quickly enough.
Or when silence between us doesnāt feel empty anymore⦠it feels heavy.
Like something is waiting to happen.
Weāve been best friends for years.
The kind people call āinseparable.ā
The kind people swear will end up together.
But they donāt understand what that does to a personās mind⦠hearing it too many times.
It starts planting ideas you never asked for.
One evening, we were sitting together outside.
Streetlights were glowing softly, and the air was quiet in that way that makes everything feel closer than it should be.
He tilted his head and looked at me.
āYouāre quiet today,ā he said.
āI always am,ā I replied.
He smiled slowly. āNo⦠not like this. Youāre thinking too much.ā
I rolled my eyes. āAnd you think you know everything?ā
That smile again.
The one that always makes my heartbeat act stupid.
āI know you better than you think,ā he said softly.
I froze a little.
Because the way he said it didnāt feel like a joke.
It felt like a warning.
A breeze passed between us, but I swear I still felt his presence too strongly.
Too close.
Too familiar.
Too dangerous.
āStop looking at me like that,ā I muttered.
āLike what?ā
āLike youāre about to say something you shouldnāt.ā
He leaned back slightly, eyes still on me.
For a second, he didnāt speak.
Then he said it quietly:
āMaybe Iām just waiting for you to say it first.ā
My breath caught.
And I hated that my heart reacted before my mind did.
Because suddenly, I wasnāt sure what scared me moreā¦
What he was thinking.
Or the fact that part of me wanted to know.