One Last Goodbye
Formatted like a 2010′s IM conversation.
Trigger Warning: Off-screen: domestic abuse, child abuse by parent, murder. On-screen: grief, vague speak of legal system
[July 5, 2011 5:16pm] tinyowo: hey u
[July 5, 2011 5:20pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: hey
[July 5, 2011 5:21pm] tinyowo: u no ily right?
[July 5, 2011 5:23pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: ofc ik ily2
[July 5, 2011 5:23pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: u ok?
[July 5, 2011 5:23pm] tinyowo: yea I’m good. Just wanted u2 know
[July 5, 2011 5:26pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: ok lol
[July 5, 2011 5:29pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: dad started screaming n throwin shit 2day
[July 5, 2011 5:29pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: said he didnt want me anymore
[July 5, 2011 5:30pm] tinyowo: thats fucked up
[July 5, 2011 5:31pm] tinyowo: mom stand up for u?
[July 5, 2011 5:32pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: ofc
[July 5, 2011 5:32pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: he got me in the head w ashtry lol
[July 5, 2011 5:32pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: ashtray
[July 5, 2011 5:32pm] tinyowo: what?!
[July 5, 2011 5:33pm] tinyowo: the fuck u mean ashtray?! He hit u?
[July 5, 2011 5:34pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: not on purpose
[July 5, 2011 5:34pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: came out of my room at the wrong time
[July 5, 2011 5:34pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: u no how it is
[July 5, 2011 5:36pm] tinyowo: doesnt make it ok fuck
[July 5, 2011 5:36pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: its whateevr.
[July 5, 2011 5:36pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: whatever
[July 5, 2011 5:37pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: nothing new
[July 5, 2011 5:40pm] tinyowo: mom needs the phonebrb
[July 5, 2011 5:40pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: ttyl
[July 5, 2011 11:57pm] xxrawr_dinoxx: I miss u
[July 6, 2011 12:02am] tinyowo: miss u2. Wuts up?
[July 6, 2011 12:05am] xxrawr_dinoxx: parents r being stupid
[July 6, 2011 12:06am] tinyowo: yelling again?
[July 6, 2011 12:08am] xxrawr_dinoxx: yep
[July 6, 2011 12:08am] xxrawr_dinoxx: mom might leave this time
[July 6, 2011 12:10am] tinyowo: srs?
[July 6, 2011 12:10am] tinyowo: leave like last time?
[July 6, 2011 12:10am] tinyowo: or for real?
[July 6, 2011 12:11am] xxrawr_dinoxx: for real
[July 6, 2011 12:11am] tinyowo: fuck
[July 6, 2011 12:12am] xxrawr_dinoxx: yep
[July 6, 2011 12:15am] tinyowo: wru gonna do? who you gonna live with? u cant afford ur own place with starting college
[July 6, 2011 12:16am] xxrawr_dinoxx: dont think i have a choice
[July 6, 2011 12:16am] xxrawr_dinoxx: u no dad doesnt want me
[July 6, 2011 12:16am] tinyowo: he’d prolly still fight for u for rent $
[July 6, 2011 12:20am] tinyowo: right?
[July 6, 2011 12:25am] xxrawr_dinoxx: prolly nto
[July 6, 2011 12:25am] xxrawr_dinoxx: not
[July 6, 2011 12:25am] xxrawr_dinoxx: idk
[July 6, 2011 12:25am] xxrawr_dinoxx: going to bed. Just heard dad say hes cutting wifi
[July 6, 2011 12:26am] tinyowo: kk. Message in the morning k?
[July 6, 2011 12:26am] xxrawr_dinoxx: k. Luv u
[July 6, 2011 12:27am] tinyowo: luv u
[July 6, 2011 10:41am] tinyowo: u up?
[July 6, 2011 10:59am] tinyowo: Tar?
[July 6, 2011 11:23am] tinyowo: gettin scared her
[July 6, 2011 11:23am] tinyowo: here
[July 6, 2011 11:30am] tinyowo: where ru
[July 6, 2011 11:35am] tinyowo: Tar ur scaring me
[July 6, 2011 1:02pm] tinyowo: pls
[July 6, 2011 1:16pm] tinyowo: Tara im abot to call the cops dude where ru
[July 6, 2012 12:01am] tinyowo: I miss you.
[July 6, 2013 12:00am] tinyowo: I miss you. I’m sorry.
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[July 6, 2014 12:00am] tinyowo: I miss you. Love you <3
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[July 6, 2015 1:38am] tinyowo: I miss you. I can’t wait to see you again.
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[July 6, 2016 12:08am] tinyowo: Your mom called me today. She said they’re not doing your celebration of life this year. I may or may not have screamed at her and hung up. I’m still doing it with Jake though, don’t worry.
[July 6, 2017 1:51am] tinyowo: I wish you were here. There’s so much I want to share with you.
[July 10, 2018 12:15pm] [email protected]: Tara,
They shut down the IM service. Can you believe that? It took way too long for me to realize what was going on, but I decided to start sending my check-ins here instead. Better than the letters I burn every few weeks, right?
I miss you. A lot. I don’t think I’ll ever stop. You’re the best friend a girl could have ever asked for.
I never did tell Dominic about your crush on him. He started going out with Shelly West after graduating with his BA though, can you believe that? He’s kind of a man whore now.
I’m still doing your celebration of life every year. This year was kinda special though, because they announced your dad’s sentence the day before. He’s getting life in prison for what he did to you, and there’s no chance of parole. Mom said that means he’s not going to get out of prison ever, and since he hurt you, he’ll probably get killed in there by the other inmates. I hope he does. Staying alive at all is too good for him.
Jake and I went out partying in your honor. We even had a bunch of tequila bombs, just like you used to make. Got wasted as fuck but it was kind of great. I haven’t let myself let loose since you died. Not like that…
You knew I loved you, didn’t you?
Not like a BFF or like a sister. I really loved you. I’ll always love you. Jake called me out for it today and I completely broke down on him.
I miss you.
I love you.
Talk to you soon <3
