Chapter 1
I don’t remember alot. All I remember was being drunk and dancing like a wild horse making my hair flip left and right while on the dance floor not even paying attention to anyone near me. Then I danced with a random guy, not even remembering his name or his full looks. But for a fact I know he was as drunk as me if not even more. And then… then I remember being on his bed both of us naked. Oh god Y/N.
I was standing with my panties in the bathroom, my jaw almost falling off as tears slowly building themselves in my eyes. I stared at the test I had in my hand. Positiv. Fucking positiv. And I didn’t even know the father. I glanced at the test for more than 5 minutes. Knowing this is my 6th positiv test, I can’t say that it might be fake. I am pregnant. I slided down the bathtub edge crying my eyes out. How can I be pregnant? I’m only 22! I still go to the university. All that happend because I caught my boyfriend sleeping with my best friend. How childish of me thinking he’ll regret it if I’ll party hardcore. But how will I tell my parents? Maybe I should abort it?…
Knock Knock. »Y/N is everything alright honey?«My mom. »Huh-oh yes! I’m almost done!« I stutterd to her. How can I tell her?? I will first tell Jiwon and ask her, she knows better for sure! I got out off the toilet sending my mom a small smile before rushing in my room to get dressed. I have to do something!
»You are what?!« Jiwon stood up from her comforting posture. I told her everything and the only thing she did the whole time was just a face with wide open eyes and a long stretched mouth. She was seriously no help at all, cause she then asked me what I’ll do as if I hadn’t comen to her for her to help me. We both started walking in circles not knowing what to do. Then I broke the silence »I’ll just abort it!« Jiwon suddenly stopped. She slightly turned to me »I think so too. But if you do that, do it before you feel any bond to that baby or else you’ll end like me.«. Jiwon got pregnant in highschool and at first she wanted to abort her daughter but the moment she saw her thru the ultrasound she couldn’t bare to abort her and just took the risk. Her daughter Jina is cute, not like it was a mistake to keep her. Sadly Jina grows up without a father because her coward so called dad left Jiwon as soon as he knew she wanted to keep her.
»Bond? Pff you know I hate kids!« I joked so that the akwardness disappears between us. She only giggled and nodded. Few minutes later Jina came to the living room running towards her mom to jump on her making them lose balance. »Eomma! I’ve slept with teddy just like you said but I’m not tired anymore, I wanna play eomma!!« How sweet she is. »Jina-ah we can play but look who’s here today.« Before Jina could even move I quickly and hugged her thight as I pulled her out of her mom’s arms and spinned rounds with her. »Y/N Nonna!!«
- 6 days later -
I took an appointment for the ultrasound before offically abort the baby. I still haven’t told anyone besides Jiwon about my pregnancy since I thought it will end soon. Today was the appointment so I woke up extra early to not miss my bus or my train. I grabbed my bag and headed off without even making any noise that could wake anyone up. Now that I am infront of the clinic I started getting nervous. What if I actually wanted that baby all of a sudden?.. No! No I have to walk in there confident. I fixed my posture and walked in the clinic. The secretary told me I could already head to the room since the doctor is waiting for me.
I knocked the door and opend it letting my head appear first then my body. I greeted the doctor wich I still couldn’t see since his face was hidden behind the computer. As he finished his typing he stood up and woah. He definitely looked good for sure. His handsomeness wasn’t something you can’t notice directly. He greeted me kindly and told me to lay down on the table and lift my shirt up. »Careful, it’ll be a bit cold!« He warned me before putting a ice cold gel on my stomach. He started rubbing the scanner in a circling way on my stomach and then he stopped moving his hands as he looked on the screen. He pointed out »Look, that there is your baby« I turned my head to see a big point in the middle of my stomach. I giggled asking if this really was a human being. He just smiled and said it is. As he kept showing me parts I snapped and asked »Do you guys also do abortions here?« Hearing this he clearly got shocked and just nodded.
As he was cleaning my stomach with some tissues he said »Ms.Y/N I know it’s none of my business but I think you should keep the child. I think You would make an awsome mother« He shocked me with this sudden statement. »Sorry Doctor what was your name again?«
»Kim Seokjin or Mr.Kim, as you prefer.«
