THE BALCONY THOUGHTS
CHAPTER ONE: THE BALCONY THOUGHTS
The balcony was the only place that felt quiet enough to carry my thoughts. I stood there without saying a word, watching the world move like nothing was wrong. Cars passed in the distance, people went about their day, and everything outside looked normal—but inside me, nothing felt normal at all. The wind brushed my face softly, but even that comfort couldn’t settle the noise in my mind. I just kept staring outside, watching everything move slowly like the world was not in a rush except me. My thoughts were heavy, and I couldn’t even explain why. It felt like something inside me was unsettled, like I was waiting for something I didn’t understand. I sighed and lowered my head. Confusion filled my mind, like my thoughts were fighting each other. After all the reading and all the effort I had put in, things still didn’t go the way I expected. My mind drifted back to my past experiences. I remembered my first SSCE exam—the pressure, the anxiety, the way I sat in the hall trying to act calm even when I wasn’t. Those memories stayed in my mind like they were happening again. I stood there for a long time, silent. The wind was still blowing, but I wasn’t really feeling it anymore. My mind was too loud. “What am I supposed to do now?” I asked myself quietly. For a moment, there was no answer. I slowly turned away from the balcony and walked back into the room. The silence followed me, heavier than before. I sat down on my bed and stared at nothing. But deep inside me, something small refused to give up. I didn’t know what the next step was… but I knew this wasn’t the end of my story.
