Prologue: Before You knew Me
As I look out and watch the sun rise, I know it’s time for another day of coffee. Not that I’m complaining—I do enjoy it. Being part of someone’s morning, as if I’m the reason behind their first smile of the day.
Oh, how I wish I was.
The coffee machine hisses, swallowing the quiet hum of conversations around the café.
“Mara, wakey wakey! Stop daydreaming and make a flat white for Daniel,” Joan calls from the register as the docket prints.
It jolts me back. I dip my head in a small apology, already reaching for the cup. The rush is coming in. And I haven’t even taken a sip of my own coffee.
It’s going to be a long day.
“Flat white for Daniel,” I call out, steady—like I’ve said it a million times.
Which, I probably have.
As he takes his drink, he pauses.
Just for a moment.
He looks at me.
It feels longer than it should. Then he turns and leaves.
Most people don’t really look at me when they grab their drinks. Or maybe they do, and I just don’t notice. But that pause—something about it sits wrong.
Was I unkempt today? Did I mess something up?
Probably not.
Just a guy who looked.
Still, even if it was only a second, it lingers longer in my head than it should.
I’ve been working here at Rosetta for a year now. Long enough to memorise faces, routines, orders. On slower days, when regulars walk through the door, I start making their coffee before they even reach the counter.
And I’m always right.
So far, no one’s changed their order.
Or maybe they have—and they’re just too polite to say anything once I’ve already started.
Most days, it’s just me and the machine. I spend so much time with it, I could probably marry it.
But there are moments—like earlier—when someone pauses after I call their name. Their eyes linger, like they’re trying to place something. Like there’s a question they can’t quite ask.
And then, like everyone else, they just leave.
It’s that second that stays with me.
Sometimes, I wonder if they can tell.
Not from anything obvious. Not from anything I’ve done wrong.
But just… tell.
I’ve spent years perfecting this. Learning the dos and don’ts. Learning how to be seen the way I want to be seen.
Most days, I think it works.
Most days, I think I pass.
But then there are moments like that—when someone looks just a little too closely—
and I remember…
I’m not just any barista calling out coffee orders.
I’m a woman.
I just wasn’t always one.