Fade to Black

Fade to black

Part one

Isn’t that what they say happens when you try to forget something so poignant so soul rendering. You you need to run, hide, and seek solace. Well that was me where I am right now. Maybe I should start from the beginning tell my story from all perspectives who was wrong who was right. It doesn’t matter really in the grand scheme of things as I lost the one thing that kept me sane. The love of my life. Now I question how do I get him back.

Well my name is Selene and I am 27 years old I am somewhat successful in my work and ambition. I met Dale when I was in school we were 11 and 12 respectively. We didn’t know how much we would mean to each other and where life would take us but we were friends first and foremost.

Dale was a dark haired, blue eyed god. Well he was a god to me. When I first met him he was a scrap of a boy. Dark and intense his quiet strength even at that young age drew me in. I just wanted to be his friend his one and only. I had my work cut out for me as there were others who saw his outer packaging and wanted him for their own.

How we met: Walking through the halls of beechwood academy with Reena my best friend in fact my only friend I don’t make friends too easily you have to know who to trust in this dog eat dog world.

Reena suddenly stops her walk and I slam right into the back of her so hard that my back bag I was carrying falls to the floor expelling all the contents in one fell swoop.

“Ree what the hell?”

She doesn’t even turn to look at me while I pick my shit up from the floor.

“Well I never.”

“Ree your not making any sense” I say to her as she whispers under her breath.

I swear she has forgotten I am in her presence but I don’t take much notice or offence as Ree does this quite a lot she is often in her own world that only I can penetrate at times.

She reaches a hand behind her and grabs my head trying to pull me up “bloody hell Ree stop that hurts”

“ Selene you need to see this right now” she whispers.

“Alright just let go of my hair I don’t know what has you in a tizzy but just slowly let go and I will take a gander ok” I do this slowly because when I lose my friends attention she doesn’t really see what is going on around her I need to make sure she is still with me.

I stand up slowly after gathering my things to see what has Rees attention so clearly.

I look over her left shoulder and see in my line of vision a dark-haired angel. He seemed to be so perfect with the light shining at the back of him through the entrance doors to the corridor. He had a devil may care attitude, there was no smile on his full lips and his skin was tan in all places like he had been blessed by the sun kissing his skin a thousand times.

He was not dressed in the normal school attire of shirt, tie and trousers he was dressed in black jeans, biker boots a white t shirt that oh my god showed off every delicious curve of his muscles. I mean they can’t be that big right as we were young.

But he was a little slice of heaven in this hell hole.

When I looked at him time stood still... I did not know what this feeling was... Ree was talking to me, but I had tuned her out to concentrate on this specimen before me.

He must be new as I had never seen him before in my life and I would have remedied that if I had.

He took a slow (well in my mind it was slow) walk to the reception area I slowly noticed I wasn’t the only person noticing girls and boys alike seemed to be drawn to his magnetism.

I don’t know what happened next but it was like a surge of jealousy had me acting quickly to be noticed and be seen by this boy.

I do often think back to this time and say to myself I should have left well enough alone. Yes, I made the first move through the use of one emotion, jealousy needing to shoot my shot first. My feet seemed to have an entity all to themselves. It all seemed to happen in slow motion until I shuffled and stopped right next to him. Looking back, it may have been classed as stalkerish the way I looked at him, but it couldn’t be helped.

The next thing I knew I reached out my hand and I said, “hey my name is Selene”.

DALE

What is meant by fade to black I’m sure Selene would have told me in many ways why we just faded to black. I loved that girl with all the breath I had in my body. I don’t know how something so right could just go so wrong. I don’t know whether I can go back to where I once was. All the questions but no answers. She says she wants to see me and meet with me. She says to talk to me. What happens if all the old feelings come back. Do I take what she says and make a go of things again but there is too much water under that bridge.

My mind calls her name over again like a siren’s song Selene, Selene, Selene then it takes me way back further than I wanted to go but I couldn’t do anything to stop this memory from taking shape.

First day in a new school had to move again. My mother could never stay in one place always running from an unknown foe. We have been on the move since I was young enough to remember. I tried to ask her once and she just looked at me with this blank stare and then she smiled slowly while she stroked my hair and said “my Dale, I cannot tell you everything just now but know that I love you” then she started to sing the song that I took with me everywhere. “You are my sunshine, my only sunshine” then went to make dinner.

The school was much like many of the others. Again, I am having to catch up, but you would think this would be an issue for me, but it isn’t I have learned to be quick when it came to my education and achieving so my schoolwork did not suffer too much from all this running around.

Making friends was not the one for me I was what you would call a typical loner which was par for the course when you have moved as much as I have. Well the school was nothing out of the ordinary same old beige corridors and brown uniformed doors, same type of students that just stare at you like you have an extra head but I just kept my head down and plodded along to the reception desk.

I don’t look left or right I focus straight ahead and make myself as invisible as possible.

I reach my destination and I feel it the eyes on me, I hear the whispering. I look around but under the curtain of my hair which is strategically placed across my forehead to somewhat cover my eyes this makes it easier to stay hidden but see what is going on around me. It also gives an air to others to stay away from me.

When I look through the bangs of my hair, I see the most beautiful girl trying to make eye contact with me. She has dark hair hanging down her back. Her skin is like ebony and flawless, but what really caught my attention were her eyes they were honey and golden almost as though the sun had been captured in her face. It captivated me that I did not hear the lady at the reception desk ask me what I wanted for some time until she shouted, “EXCUSE ME”. I quickly swung around to the interruption I felt my face heat and I wanted to tell this woman to back off and mind her own, but I did not want the attention on me that her shout brought me.

So, I did what I always did immediately reverted to my devil may care attitude and ignored the girl with her outstretched hand called “Selene” and turned my attention to the desk and the haggard woman manning it.

“errmmm… yeah im new here was told to check in”.

I could feel the goddess called Selene still standing there next to me now her hand was by her side but for some reason she did not leave she kept staring at me with her golden eyes. I wanted to turn and ask her what she wanted but I did not want the attention I just wanted to check in and get moving.

“whats ya name” the clerk asked me- “errr Dale miss” … “Dale what.. look I have other things that I need to be getting on with so please what is the rest of your name so we can get you situated. “

“Dale Reigns miss” “ok lets see here you are in class 2D” as she handed me my card and timetable she turned to the girl called Selene who had still not moved from my side now she was joined by her friend who was trying to get her attention. “ahhh Selene as this will be your new class mate would you mind showing him to where he needs to get to”. Selene looked at me and it was like in slow motion I could see every move she made and every thought expressed on her face. She was intrigued by me but as much as I wanted to reciprocate her interest I couldn’t as I knew I would not be in one place long enough to even make an imprint on her life.

Selene faced the desk clerk “yes miss I will take him it will be my pleasure” … there was a definite pause when she said this and the tingles, she created in me were real. very real. She turned to me full face and oh god what a vision she was “come on then I will show you where to go. whats your name” … “Oh Dale, my names Dale”.

That was it the beginning of me and Selene we were inseparable from that day on. However I did not realise that what I had treasured most of all would be ripped away from me in the worst way possible.