GORGEOUS

I always think about write about a story as I introduce a unknown world that I face solely and everyday with a paranormal environment. I have really a quality time to think about my fantasy until it's turn into a real events.

1997,27 December.

I really live in small attic with different time skills where I have been for 4 year to completing my honours. And searching for a job that can be more like me. I ain't a family oriental person. I actually live in a small place and it's really feel me so active in my work. I really live in a fantasy world when I have been taking seep of a coffee. It's my favorite think to do when I have time alone. And have a great fantasy world behind me. I have to visit grocery store. And I will go there till 5:30 PM. I can remember the same person on taking the pamphlet. The person with black thick hair, white shirt cause Maybe it's their icon of grocery store. He make it fold all the time so it don't come near the palm. And a computer on table and a pamphlet machine. It's make sound everytime I stand there. And it's make a noisy environment that's might be too rough to think. I still saw a pen and a paper he always hold on hand. That's like a old pamphlet things. And he give a great PR grime smark whenever I open my wallet." Miss, Here you go". Thanks Mr. Kaysan. He move slowly directing computer as everytime I leave the store. I have rarely have time to spend time whenever I have time to think. My home and my school near. And I have less time today as I have some homework. Suddenly I remember I have a bad things before my 1st semester in college. I was really sick that time. I feel like I have been watching the whole time I stay on my bed which near to window. I used to live in a small place of hostel. Still too wide to stay cause it was too much place to move myself. I have a table and a cabinet near it. I usually have some outdoor books and some academia books and coffee mug and a plate for my meal and a glass. I have some clothes on my drawer. And that's all I have. And a faded white bed sheet on my bed. And a pillow that's have tawel. And I have worse nightmare about my hostel mostly. It's too much empty all the time. And like a big castle all over . And 1994, mid of month I was really sick on my bed. That's my menstruation have been started and so pain on my belly. So I can barely move myself. And I can feel a person around me when it's become deem. And I feel so casual feel about that's I have been seen through a life that's I wasn't dream of. A person without face a force to my body and my belly. And I know it's from a my unknown world. Just like I screams too lightly, " Go away". I feel the presence and it was nothing there. It's just start of a fantasy and that's lead to me leave the castle and live a life in a home. Where I can stay safe and make myself comfortable. And it's was just a start of a feeling a unknown around me. It's too known to me. That's it's push me wherever I must go. And make a horrible day as I go to everyday life. It have appearance of of unknown whisper. That's make roar sound whenever I have to concern about my work. I know it's non other than my fantasy. Still it have so much meaning.

A window sound something fall from outside, " A bird cheering and make himself fine and fly away". I have been thinking about a think that happened 3 years ago. And I feel little unknown till then. And the window have some feather of birds which is blue and white colors. And it been my imaginary world for having bird for a rebel move. That's I have facing so lately. I haven't noticed the window get little strich on there. I have a good humor about it. The bird give me a great thing to focus. So , I feel like I cope with a situation I don't need to think about. And the unknown call from a different world still got me on my life a bit.

I visit grocery store sometimes ago and I feel more like I have some feather around my place and a story that's keep moving me around. And I feel like that everything as same as before. Cause the time and tide never be the same. And I can see the why I have great test of unknown world that's push me around.

I know there something I have been dealing that a soul always searching for a soul. And I was the soul that been chosen.

( Like a time has it's tide )