Samantha's Story
I couldn't help feeling nervous anxiety as I waited for the cue to go on stage. After all the years of practice, struggle, and hard work, it was finally MY show. My name was on the marquee outside and the private changing room inside. It was as incredible as it was scary. I felt a lot of pressure conflicting with my confidence. I knew I could do this. I just hoped Ryan would be there to see it.
Ryan has been my friend for years. We met in middle school when I was still a shy girl trying to figure out the world. We bonded instantly and he seemed to take me in like he was an older brother. He watched over me, protected me from bullies, and was always a pillar of support in my life. When I reached out to him, he thanked me for the invite and ticket, but never committed either way if he was going to show or not. I was certain he would. He always had, but that little voice of what-if still lingered in the back of my mind.
There was a knock on the door as Tim's voice, the stage manager, called to me. “Samantha, it's time. The five minute warning was given and now the house lights are starting to dim.” I took a deep breath and steadied myself. “OK Tim!” I called back, taking one last look in the mirror, checking to make sure every detail was perfect. Once I knew I looked good, I left the room to head to the stage. A few steps outside the door I realized I almost forgot my hat, and dashed back in to grab it.
From the back of the stage I could only see the curtain. It was closed and hiding me from the house still. I grabbed my microphone and walked forward until I found the slightly glowing piece of tap that was my mark. I gave the sign to Tim, who radioed to everyone we were ready. I prepared myself and stood in my pose: one step out, my hand flat on that leg, looking down at it, and my microphone raised into the air above my head. Adrenaline filled my veins and my heart raced as I heard Tim call to raise the curtain. Darkness fell on the stage, leaving only the faintest glow from the tape at my feet, and a whirring sound whispered behind me as the curtain started moving.
“Curtain up. Standby for spots,” I heard Tim announce in the background. This was it. There was no turning back now. With the curtain up, I could almost feel the audience searching for me, the energy of the room a low thrum. Suddenly the main spotlight turned on and I was illuminated for all to see. Almost immediately the band started with their energetic tune. I counted in my head before starting: one, two, three, four! Instantly all the anxiety and fear melted away as I opened up and sang. I struck my opening note and the show was on. Like a dream the audience already gasped and clapped, but I had only just gotten started. Euphoria washed over me as my muscles relaxed and I started my routine. The crowd was here to see me and I was going to make sure they knew it.
As the band changed songs, I moved in time and changed my dancing to match the style. It all felt natural as the muscle memory kicked in. I gazed out into the audience, making sure everyone knew I was aware they were there. The show was for them, but it was my show.
That’s when I saw him. Although he was mostly a silhouette, I can recognize Ryan’s stature anywhere. My heart skipped a beat as I realized our eyes locked. His posture changed and I knew he was smiling at me. My heart raced a bit faster and I felt a boost of energy. I almost couldn’t believe it. He was here. He showed up. The show felt even more like a dream.
I continued the set perfectly as I performed for Ryan. With him there, nothing could go wrong. When the final song started, I poured all my focus and energy into it. I knew the final crescendo was coming up and I took a deep breath. With precision I didn’t know I had, I belted out the final note, the chord aligning perfectly with the trumpets and saxophones. I looked into the pit and locked eyes with Marty, the director. He held the band on their note while I sang my heart out. With the slightest nod, I followed his hands down and cut off with the band. The theatre was silent except for the blood rushing in my ears and my heart pounding in my chest. I did it.
A moment passed then suddenly the house cried out in unison, cheering and clapping for me. I inhaled suddenly, realizing I was holding my breath, as the euphoria of a perfect performance washed over me like a relaxing heat wave. I leaned forward, blew a kiss into the house at Ryan, turned around, and walked backstage. My hips swaggered slightly with confidence and maybe a bit of teasing too, now that I knew Ryan was there.
I saw the shadow of the curtain closing before I allowed myself to turn around and look at the crew. Still high on adrenaline, I looked for feedback. Tim’s mouth hung open in awe. “That… That was AMAZING!” he cried, coming to meet me on the stage. He gave me a big, congratulatory hug and the rest of the crew in back clapped again for me. I have never been happier or more proud of myself than right there. It was incredible to have the support of those around me and know that we as a team put on such a spectacular show. “Great job, dear,” Tim whispered to me in our embrace. “Go get comfortable and I will clear the stage. Feel free to give your friend a tour. I saw the way you looked at that man in the front row,” he said with a knowing smile. “You’re the best, Tim!” I said as I released him and walked to my dressing room.
Pride filled me again as I saw the bright, bold letters “SAMANTHA” on my door. I thought I would never see it, or if I did it would be disappointing, or my shows would never be popular enough to keep it. All those worries washed away tonight. I watched myself in the mirror as I hung up my hat and took off my gloves. My makeup remained intact, but there were small beads of sweat on my forehead. Grabbing the towel in the room, I blotted my face clean, then put my favorite lotion on my hands, rubbing the smallest amount on my cheeks. I grabbed my phone and texted Ryan, “Hope you liked your show. Stay where you are. I'll be back out for you in a bit.” The app showed it was received and read, so I quickly finished freshening up.
I couldn’t help but think of Ryan as I walked back out to the stage. He might have ruined other men for me, I thought lightly to myself. Though half a joke, it was serious. When our lives began to go separate ways, I tried dating other men. None could compare to the sincere care Ryan showed to me. No one listened like he did, grabbed my hand like he did, or knew just how to help me relax like he did. I just wish he wasn’t so clueless sometimes, I thought, recalling a night a few years ago.
It was after a practice he took me to. I was nervous because it was my first time in that class and the teacher had a tough reputation. It was raining that night, adding to my anxiety. But Ryan was there. His comforting grasp on my hand told me everything was going to be all right. And of course it was, not because Ryan was there, though his support helped. The teacher, despite their firm and strict instruction, truly cared about our abilities and was just holding us to a higher standard. I explained all this as Ryan opened his umbrella and we started walking to my apartment. He nodded, and asked questions about how I did, how those around me treated me, and how I was feeling about everything. In his company, I even felt comfortable in the cool breeze and drizzle around us.
When we made it to my door, we stopped under the overhang. It was a short overhang, more decorative than anything else. I felt so safe with him, but his presence that night made me a bit wet in a way different from the rain. I knew he had feelings for me too, so I leaned in close to him, his storm grey eyes analyzing my face, trying to read my emotions. “Thank you,” I whispered to him, as I fought my body to not surprise him with a kiss. His lips twitched and his eyes flitted to mine. For just a moment I thought he was going to finally show me his true feelings. Then he looked down, so I pulled back. I turned to unlock my door. Once open I stood in the doorway and turned around, hopeful he would ask to come in. He didn’t say anything. He didn’t approach. I wanted to ask him directly, to tell him how much I wanted him right then, and how ready I was to give myself to him if he would have me. I was embarrassed at how sensitive my body felt at that moment, a heat slowly growing in my belly and my womanhood reacting in kind. I felt exposed to him and mentally begged for him to notice.
Just as I opened my mouth to ask, I stopped myself. I couldn’t do it. He was always like a brother to me. Would taking it a step forward ruin that? Instead I felt like a coward and said, “I suppose our night should end here.” I tried to read his emotions. He seemed to swallow hard but not otherwise move. Did I already ruin our friendship?
“I suppose so,” he said, and my heart sank. The heat turned cold and I felt like I was about to cry. I knew that was the likely outcome but I couldn’t help feeling disappointed and rejected. Quickly I thanked him again and went inside, closing the door and fighting back tears. Once inside, I let loose. I cried the entire time I was getting ready for bed. Tears still stinging my eyes, I eventually fell asleep. I hated that night and still do. That was the first time I felt vulnerable and weak because of him. I knew he loved me, but it felt like rejection from the one person I cared about the most. It took time to get those demoralizing thoughts out of my head.
My body was on autopilot as I joylessly remembered that night. The lighting changed and I realized I was on the stage, the house and the stage fully lit up. There, in the front row, just off center, sat Ryan. The bad memories slipped to the back of my mind and my heart raced as I approached him. He seemed lost in thought, his stormy eyes unfocussed. His brown hair was tousled in a deliberate, stylish manner. He wore a brilliant blue patterned shirt with pearly buttons, the colors only highlighting the uniqueness of his eyes. I felt my underwear get damp as I walked up, my body betraying my unspoken desires. This didn’t slow me down though. Nothing could possibly ruin this night for me.
Finally in front of him, I couldn’t believe my eyes. Beneath his black belt and grey trousers, a bulge twitched slightly. Without warning or control I laughed out loud. That seemed to startle him as he looked up at the stage, and then specifically at me. I leaned forward with my hands on my knees to be closer to his level. I felt my breasts hang slightly in my bra and I realized the view I must have given him.
“Heh-hello,” he stammered, cute and clueless like I remembered. I laughed again. “It's good to see you Ryan. I thought for a moment you wouldn't show,” I teased him and smiled. His face lit up with a bright, friendly grin before he noticed my position and his eyes left mine to search lower. Laughing to myself, I said to him, “I’m glad you found your seat, considering where your gaze seems to keep resting now,” a hint of humor in my voice.
His face turned red as he stammered, “I’m s-s-sorry. I, uh, don't quite remember a, uh, outfit quite like this before.” I almost giggled again. He was acting so cute and sincere. I realized how much I missed him. My body ached for his touch again, and my skin felt tingly as I realized just how much and where I wanted him to touch me.
“Oh, Ryan, where's all that confidence I remember? You're stammering like a school boy! Come up here with me! My treat! I'm so excited you're here!” I exclaimed. He stood up and approached the stage. Once at the edge, he started to climb up and I reached down to help him. As he stood up, he shuddered slightly, as if he was hit with a long forgotten sensation. His eyes flit down to my chest quickly before returning to my face. I couldn’t help it. I looked down too and saw the bulge was still there, taunting me beneath the fabric. Fighting the urge to kiss him right then and there, I decided to distract myself.
“Oh! I need to show you the theatre!” I reminded myself. I grabbed his hand and started pulling him to the back. “Let’s go backstage!” As we moved past the curtains, I started pointing out my favorite things about the theatre. He nodded along and looked genuinely interested when I started explaining the ropes and pulleys. He glazed over slightly when I mentioned Tim and the rest of the cast, but he didn’t complain or show any annoyance. I’m not sure he noticed at all when I talked about my fellow singer and how much she helped inspire me, but he could have been overwhelmed with everything going on around him. As we talked, I guided him back to the dressing rooms where we stood outside of my door.
I was beaming with pride as I showed him. “Ryan! Isn’t this the coolest? I finally have my star room!” He grinned with me, sharing in my joy, making me feel welcomed and a tad warmer. Without thinking I uttered “I almost have everything I’ve ever wanted,” realizing my gaze again directed at his manhood just below the surface. Luckily, he was too enthralled in appreciating my name on the door to notice. Before I was caught, I opened the door and ushered him in. Once we were in, I locked the door and closed it, creating a loud click sound I forgot about.
My room wasn’t particularly large, but that didn’t matter. It had a rack of clothes for the show, a desk with a mirror and lights, a comfortable stool in front of the chair, and it was the only dressing room that contained a large sofa made of the same materials as my stool. The crew let me personalize things some, so I put many of my favorite pictures on the walls from throughout my years. Those seemed to be the first thing Ryan noticed when he entered the room. He took the time to look at each one until I caught him lingering on a specific photo. It was of him and me at my dinner party celebrating my acceptance into college. Someone caught us huggy and jumping giddily like little children. I was just so happy at that moment to have my closest friend there with me to celebrate. I couldn’t contain myself and instead of trying to dampen the mood or keep things calm, he fed into it until we both were hopping around the table and laughing uncontrollably.
We had many more memories just like that, and I smiled thinking of them. Many of those memories, especially the more recent ones, reminded me of all the feelings I had for him, and again my body tried to betray me. I was starting to feel hot in the room, my skin becoming sensitive and a warmth kindling in the bottom of my stomach. I started to ache slightly between my legs, craving him animalistically. I grew impatient at him standing there, his smell filling my nostrils, reminding me of mahogany, rich earth, and rain all at once. It was intoxicating and did nothing to help my body relax. Trying to hide it, I sat down on the sofa.
“You know,” I finally said. “I’m over here if you want to keep staring at something. I’m sure the real thing is better.” When I realized the words I said I cringed. How cheesy could I be…? My mind was definitely being clouded by this growing desire. He turned around and stared at me instead, his eyes noticing my cleavage once more. He smirked without saying something before giving me a silly smile. “Sit down with me!” I said impatiently. He was still just standing there.
To my relief, he started walking towards the sofa and sat down. I let out my mental tension as a joyful laugh, and automatically swung my legs up to rest on his lap like so many times before. He immediately started rubbing my feet, the pressure of his touch fueling the fire now growing inside me. Gently and methodically, he worked the knots out of my feet and released the stored tension from my long day. My veins took on the heat from my belly and my whole body started to feel warm and safe again. With deft expertise, he moved his hands up my legs and began massaging my calves. I wanted him to keep going up and I felt myself become dripping wet. My bottom leg felt something move on his lap. My heart skipped when I realized what it was.
Seizing the momentum, I leaned back, arching my back, intentionally pressing my breasts against the fabric of my dress, and “accidentally” moving my leg to stroke him. He shifted, trying to hide my goal from me. “Oh?” I teased, calling out the monster in the room. “Is there something wrong?” I asked with feigned concern. “What’s going on with your pants?” I asked with what I hoped was an enticing look.
His face grew bright red at my teasing, but his bulge continued to grow. I couldn’t help but laugh at the situation. “You’re more red than my dress, Ryan. Is something bothering you?” I taunted. I pulled my legs off of him and towards me so I could sit up. More upright, I leaned forward, placing my hands on his leg, ensuring one was on his upper thigh, almost touching where I knew his cock hid. Slowly, tantalizingly, I continued to lean forward until my lips were right next to his ear. “You know,” I whispered as seductively as I could. “It doesn’t bother me at all.”
As I said this, I moved my hand over the bulge and finally felt it. Though muffled by the fabric, I felt his firm penis twitch and throb at my touch as I moved my hand around, stroking him as best I could. I couldn’t believe how forward I was being, but I also couldn’t stop, the confidence of the night still rushing through me. I could feel his pulse increasing and smell his glorious, musky scent. Everything only aroused me more. Without realizing it, I went to kiss him, but caught myself. “Are you going to make the same mistake again?” I uttered without meaning to. I didn’t want to bring up that night.
He apparently remembered it too as he gave me a sideways, cautious look. Everything froze for a moment as my brain panicked. I ruined it. I shouldn’t have said that. He will never want me now thinking I hold a grudge. How stu-. My racing thoughts were cut short as his lips impacted mine, passionately bringing me back to reality with an ecstasy I didn’t know I needed. I couldn’t help it. I moaned as my stomach tightened and my back arched slightly. At this point I was dripping and couldn’t fight it any longer. I kissed him back, reflecting his passion and reaffirming him.
Suddenly his tongue pushed through our lips, seeking out mine. It teased and danced inside my mouth, causing my mind to go crazy. Without thinking about it, my hand found its way under his shirt and started feeling his chest. It explored every inch it could, finding the definition of his muscles and tracing out every detail. Before I realized it, he too was messaging my chest, his hands cupping me and claiming me. He found my nipples trying to pierce my dress and took advantage of their sensitivity. Lightning shot from my breasts through my spine as he fingered them above the fabric.
Fully unrestrained now, one hand held his head, not letting him break from my lips, while the other remained beneath his clothes and scoured its way into his pants. My breath caught as he pinched my nipple the same time my fingers found his tip. I could feel a wet, sticky substance leaking from him. He moaned as I rubbed the juices around the head of his cock. I felt awkward as I wanted to grab more of him, to hold all of him, but the pants, particularly the belt, restricted my movement.
Without thinking I took my hand out of his pants and began undoing his belt. “These are in the way,” I said as the belt came loose before I tossed it into the corner of the room. As I rose from the couch I took my underwear off and threw it in the same corner. He seemed to thrum in anticipation as I quickly unbuttoned his shirt. “Samantha,” he gasped as I opened up the cloth, revealing his body, shimmering with sweat and exuding his scent. Desperately, I worked his pants off of him, being sure to grab his underwear as I pulled, catching his socks and shoes as I removed everything in one swift motion.
His breathing became heavier, louder, more urgent. For a moment, everything paused as I sat on my knees, his erect cock exposed and tempting me. I was brought out of it when I felt his arms reach behind me and quickly lift my dress up and over my head. The cool air of the room touched my sensitive skin and made me shiver in anticipation. Just as deftly, he reached behind my back, pressed my bra clasps together, and undid them, tossing the article into the same pile as the other discarded clothing.
Lust overcame me as my mouth moved towards his shaft. I wanted it, needed it to be in me. I didn’t care how. I started licking him, feeling the pulsing heat from his cock on my tongue. My mouth moved up, sliding around his glans and coating his tip in my saliva. I wanted more. Hungrily I finally put my mouth over his tip and slid his cock into my mouth. A deliciously salty, musky flavor coated the inside of my throat as I worked back and forth, my tongue ensuring every inch of his shaft received service. I took a breath and plunged deep around him, his tip hitting the back of my throat and causing me to gag. I pulled back some as I felt him twitch inside me and become even harder than I thought possible for mere flesh.
I took one more deep breath and devoured him as deeply as I could. My jaw stopped at his pelvis as the tip of his cock entered my throat. Without warning, hot fluid exploded into my mouth, gagging me again, but I needed it. I pushed my face harder into his groin as his cock throbbed and pulsated, pouring more and more hot cum down my esophagus. Not letting a single drop out, I slurped up what I could and swallowed the delicacy I earned.
When the last pump was done and I knew I had it all, I pulled back, releasing his cock from my maw. I looked up with animalistic pride to see him inhaling sharply. “Where…” he gasped. “Where did you learn that…?”
“A magician never reveals her secrets,” I replied, again cringing at how ridiculous that sounded out loud. “That was definitely magical,” he replied between breaths. But I wasn’t done. My womanhood burned fiercely with a need so strong I knew I had to take what I wanted. I stood up as I wiped his juices from my face. I put my hands on his shoulders in an attempt to lay him down on the couch, but he didn’t budge. Before I could react, he grabbed my shoulders instead, letting me fall towards him before quickly rolling to the side and laying me on my back.
I squeaked in surprise and gasped as he took control, reaching underneath me, pulling me towards him, and forcing his head between my legs to start slurping my drenched pussy. Each stroke of his tongue threw fireworks in my brain. I could feel each tastebud as he greedily ate me out. He knew just where to lick me, sometimes thrusting his tongue into my folds while other times stimulating my clit. I couldn’t react, my body wracked with spasms and paralyzing ecstasy. Moaning and whimpering in pleasure, I reached for something, anything, and found his head in my crotch. I grabbed at his hair, my fingernails finding his scalp. He ignored it, working fervently inside me, raising my pleasure to untenable levels. I moaned his name, unable to contain my euphoria.
Pressure built inside me. I knew what was next. My mind blanking, only contemplating desire and pleasure, my back arched and I began to shake. My insides convulsed, my legs closed around his head, and I climaxed, a rapture of delirium overtaking every sensation and thought. Something inside me released as I sprayed his face uncontrollably, screaming as I did so. A moment of clarity hit me as my muscles relaxed. I felt his face rub the side of my leg and it felt like he licked me. Next he kissed the top of my opening, sending a brilliant tingle of pleasure. He continued his kissing, working his way up my body, each peck a staccato of sensuality heightening my arousal again, before ending with his lips on mine. They felt wet and tasted tangy as his tongue penetrated into me and danced with mine. My mind became aware of a prodding sensation at my hole, the promise of a void being filled. Overcome by lust, I gasped between kissing, trying to get a word out telling him to finish what he started. “Do it. Take me,” I managed to get out.
I felt his hand reach down and his prodding tip began to put pressure against my folds. Tenderly he pressed himself into me, stretching me in a way I never felt before. I convulsed and shook as he went deeper and deeper into me. His cock pulsed as I clenched around him, orgasming a second time. Just as I thought he reached my limit, I felt his warm, firm, cock fill me more.
Then he pulled back, my inner walls crying as he left a void in me again. Then he pushed in again, the same divine stretching creating bubbles in my brain that popped and overwhelmed me. Instinctively I raised my hips to meet his as he plunged deeper again. My body responded as if it wasn’t my own, selfishly claiming every inch of his hard shaft. I moaned again as the pressure and pleasure grew in my body for a third time. Responding, he moved faster, his hard cock sliding inside me easily as I gushed more arousing fluids. As he sped up, I could hear him grunting like a beast. Our hips collided, creating a wet slap every time we connected and became fully together. Faster and faster, deeper and deeper. I couldn’t let him pull out. I needed his cum inside me. Without my say, my legs curled up and around his hips, collapsing against his back. As he thrust into me, my legs contracted, pulling him as deep as I could inside me.
I could feel it. His cock grew stiffer, harder, larger inside me. It stretched my walls and filled me beyond completion. He was close to his limit and I was close to mine. Each thrust became a deliberate act. He pushed into me with determination as my legs hungrily forced him as deep as they could. As I bucked my hips to receive him I felt a physical pressure deep inside me as his penis kissed my cervix. At the same time his exposed skin rubbed the top of my opening, stimulating my clit. It was too much. My mind erupted in a heavenly light as my climax overtook me. At the same time he exploded into me, his hard cock pumping his hot cum into my womb. I cried out again as my whole body contracted around him. Even my legs found more strength to force him closer, refusing to let him go. He pulsed, and pulsed, and pulsed like a pounding sea as he utterly flooded me. Pressure built inside me until I felt the hot liquids pour out around his engulfed cock. My body convulsed once more as I exploded myself. My juices mixed with his as we drenched the sofa underneath us.
On his last throb, Ryan moaned in exhaustion and nearly collapsed onto me. I could feel him still gently twitching inside of me, leaving me full and content. I sighed too as I felt him soften somewhat and start to retreat from me, spilling some of our hot mixture out. I didn’t let go. I savored the moment our passion became physical and real. He didn’t mind. He laid his head on my shoulder, allowing his full body to embrace me and enjoy the warm contact of my skin.
Finally breathing normally again I spoke. “That…” I paused, still needing some breath. “Ryan, I have been waiting for you to do that to me for years,” I admitted. My legs unwrapped from him and I felt his firm shaft soften the rest of the way as it completely withdrew from me. Unconsciously, my hand went to my crotch where I felt the edge of his still hot cock and warm liquid dribbling out of me. Feeling the sticky substance, I giggled, proud and content of the mess I made.
“Samantha,” he breathed. “I have nothing left in me… I gave you all of it.” Pure joy lingered in my mind. “I know. Finally, Ryan. I’m so happy right now,” I admitted out loud. We continued to lay together, allowing our bodies to keep each other warm. We shifted a bit to be more comfortable and he started tracing circles around my nipples, causing them to perk up again. I was about to grab his hand when we heard a knock at the door.
“Samantha, are you still here?” a voice called. I panicked, recognizing Tim. I had completely forgotten where we were. “Oh! Yes Tim!” I called back. “But I’m heading home soon!” I said trying to sound innocent, in spite of the sounds, smells, and messes we made. “That’s Tim,” I whispered to Ryan. “He’s probably trying to close up for the night.”
“Great!” Tim’s voice replied. “I’ve done everything but lock the door. I’ll leave the key on the table out here for you. Be safe going home tonight!” I heard his footsteps walk away and a metallic sound as he placed the building keys down.
Ryan looked at me with concern on his face. “How far away do you live?” he asked. I couldn’t help but smile knowing he was always thinking about me. “I’m just down the street, about a 15 minute walk,” I informed him. I watched his face, not wanting to get my hopes up in case the incredible evening faded into a single memory.
“May I walk you home?” I heard him say. “I can have my Uber pick me up at your place.” Knowing that was likely the best I could get, I smiled and said “I would love that.”
We quickly wiped ourselves down with the towels in the room. I tried to clean up the fluids on the sofa the best I could. I’m not sure if that was the first time it was used for sex, but I was hoping it wouldn’t be the last. We put our clothes back on and I walked out of my room to grab the building keys. Heading outside, I locked the door as we turned to walk into the warm summer breeze. I watched our shadows in the street lamps grow long as we walked away from one pole, only to shrink as we approached the next, just to repeat the cycle the whole way home. He held my hand the entire time, not that I would let it go. We didn’t speak. Each other’s company was enough.
We approached my apartment, the only one with the light still on, and I took my keys out. I unlocked my door and turned around, hoping to see he was still there. He was. I started to thank him for the wonderful evening but he surprised me with one more kiss. Once I realized what was happening, I returned his passion, our kiss deep and loving. Though I’m sure only a few seconds, it felt like a lifetime that I never wanted to end. I eventually pulled away. “I suppose our night should end here,” I said, echoing the painful memories and longingly looking at him. He reached for my hand and said, “No. I don’t think it should.”
Joy overwhelmed me again as a happy tear filled my eyes. I gave him one more peck on the lips.
“Well, then follow me inside.”