Chapter 1
Chapter 1 :
Introduction of a cursing life
I'm sharing a powerful story about a girl who's faced incredible adversity. Her journey's marked by pain, trauma, and resilience. Let's dive in :
A girl who faced many difficulties in her childhood, her name was Maya, firstly she was living happily and her smile was real without holding any pain in her smile she was real with real happiness. Her story began like when she was just 7 years old, in first grade, her family came from the village to the city and they settled in a house. Just a few days passed in a new town, her parents admitted her into a renowned and large school of the city to make her education better. She takes time to adjust but after a few days passed she adjusted in the environment. When she started school she was confused about what to say and what to speak so she kept silent every time, whenever her classmates asked her anything she remained silent but when she became comfortable in the environment in which she was living, she started participating in all activities around her like asking the questions in class and stay attentive and she also started the conversation with her classmates. In reality, she was very friendly and nice and lovely too so she adjusted easily and made a lot of friends in just a little time, one friend became her best friend, her name was Kennedy. Maya always takes care of Kennedy but Kennedy doesn’t care about her, Maya knows that she doesn't care about her but she never gives up on friendship, she still loves her and always tries to make her happy although she cares about others too.
Maya was a sweet, kind, caring, ambitious, and gorgeous child but no one admired her beautiful heart, she had a pure and kind soul, and she always treated everyone well but she was short-tempered in childhood. Everyone around her just saw her temper and treated her badly although they always degraded her, they all were selfish and wanted their advantage, including her friend and all the people around her, who took advantage and left her alone. Whenever she needed someone they all refused to be with her and always treated her badly. She faced all the difficulty by not telling anyone because she knew that no one would listen to her and no one would understand her she was all alone in the light and dark, in beauty and disgust, in peace and anxiety, in fortune and poverty, in contentment and dejection, in love and hate, in fame and disgrace. No one ever supported her, just her parents but not always, just rarely they supported her.
Maya always changes herself as others want but they are never satisfied. One thing that I also learned from my life is, to be a good person but never waste time to prove it, as she did by wasting her time to prove herself as a good person. Success doesn't come to you, you have to go to it. It’s the moral that I learned from my life. One more thing that I learned is that one lie can end a million trusts. As she grew up she faced a lot of more difficulties but she also learned from them. Let’s get back to the topic, as I am saying This world hates her but despite all of these difficulties she stays positive, she is not disappointed by the world, and encourages herself. She always lend a helping hand to others, and now after spending 2 years encouraging herself in the third grade her new challenge has started, she did not know it from the start but with time she soon realized the change in her life because there was a sudden change in her life, she became happy more then she was, her smile became real and by then she always laughs and smiles. This world meant nothing to her but the coming of just one person in her life, her life was changed, her previous best friend Kennedy left her without any hesitation, Maya felt sad but soon she forgot. Do you want to know who was the person who came to life and made it beautiful? Let me tell you about the person. You will be surprised to hear that the person was a boy. You know this part is exciting, the real climax starts from here. As I told you before, when she came to 3rd grade her new and more difficult life started, but this year was the best in her life. She enjoyed this session. She does not have real friends but the friends she has were amazing. I am talking about her wan mates, she enjoyed it with them. They all were amazing mates she ever met. Especially Amelia and her brother Noah, they both are different and more amazing than others. She got emotionally attached to them especially Amelia because she treated her well and this was the one real friend in her life. Her life was changed by then she felt very happy.
On 3rd May 2018, she slapped the face of Noah, the brother of Amelia, because he did not listen to her. The next day she felt very guilty and apologized to him, by then she started caring for him and she always tried to make her happy and whenever he was sad she also became sad. Now every day she always takes his bag to class and back to the van, and she does not feel guilty about doing his work, she emotionally gets attached to him. By the time she gets closer and closer to him. One thing that I haven’t told you before is that she is a Muslim. Which made her more patient and open-hearted. She has taken much time to understand that she fell in love with him. After a year, she always thinks about why she always takes care of him, firstly she doesn’t know what love is. She always cried in front of Allah almighty why did I care about him, why did I want to stay with him, why did I become sad whenever he didn’t come to school, why did I protect him, why did I stay with him, why I always think about him and whenever she thought about him she smiles. With these questions in her mind, she asked Allah almighty why these all things happen to me. Am I mad? Have I lost my sense? What’s happening to me? Why am I interested in him? Then Allah replies to her ‘O my dear human this is called love’ The girl was extremely shocked but one thing more Allah indirectly conveyed his message to her through his ways.
Allah is the best creator in the world, he created all of us, and he is one god who created this whole universe. If you just trust him then you will never face disappointment throughout your whole life. Maya also believes in Allah almighty, she knows Allah will always protect her. If all leave her he will never leave her. She trusted Allah and left everything to him.
She always enjoys everything by herself, smiles a lot, and grins whenever she sees him, but everything does not stay the same. Everything changes as time passes. Firstly she was not mentally in love, she loved him but not in an extreme way, he was so lucky because a beautiful and amazing person loved him. She prays from Allah to tell him that she loves her, Allah accepts her dua, and through her cousin, Allah tells him that this girl extremely loves him this happened in fourth grade. In her fourth grade in 2019, she was almost 9 years old. A new virus named coronavirus was spread all around the world and this virus caused a lot of harm to people by causing their deaths, so because of this virus the government closed all the schools and other things which were not necessary to use. But soon the schools were open on 10 August and on 10 August it was her birthday. It was her first time when her birthday came in school she decided to give them a treat, she made big bags consisting of food and she added extra food to Noah's bag to make him happy. She enjoyed fourth grade because she made one new best friend and this time her best friend also cared about her by making her laugh and happy. This was the first time someone else loved her from the heart, cared about her, and supported her. She became more grateful to God for giving her a person who made her life beautiful. They lived together for 1 and a half years, but unfortunately, Sara taught her the wrong way and the wrong path. As I told you before Allah always plans something good for you and his decision is always right which benefits the person so Allah intends to remove Sara from Maya’s life. Do you know why? Because Sara was a bad girl who always taught her bad habits. Allah removed Sara from Maya's life to keep Maya out of bad deeds and habits.
When she was a child in 1st, 2nd, 3rd, and 4th grade she has never been disappointed or hurt because firstly she didn't care about what others said or spoke about her, the biggest reason was also that in childhood she could not understand people and their intentions but in fifth grade, Sara, Amelia, and Noah left her alone in anxiety and pressure, this was the first time when she broke from inside and losses her hope to be well, she cried a lot and a lot more than she ever cried. It was about Tuesday when she got two surprises at one time, when she came to school her uncle said Amelia and Noah had left the van, and she entered the class and realized Sara was gone, she immediately began to cry in front of everyone and cried a lot. She became sad, every day when she came to school, she just kept silent, and no one heard her silent screams. Being alone is very difficult, this was the start of her test from Allah almighty. After some time she starts to heal because her classmates were good in this new session and they all made her happy to forget those three. She became more and more depressed.. She became sad, every day when she came to school, she just kept silent, and no one heard her silent screams. Being alone is very difficult, this was the start of her test from Allah almighty. After some time she starts to heal because her classmates were good in this new session and they all made her happy to forget those three. She became more and more depressed.
This poem by Ayesha shahid
In darkness, you're my guiding light
Yet, depression and anxiety take flight
They suffocate the joy, the happiness I hold
Breaking me from within, a soul grown old
They played a twisted game, a test of might
Choosing keys to unlock success and delight
But lies were whispered, deceitful and cold
Leaving stains that forever will be told
In shadows, I'm left to face the pain
A memory that haunts, a heart in vain
Their pursuit of fame, my heart's demise
A wound that remains, a sorrowful sigh
Liars weave, but truth will shine
In the end, happiness is mine
This poem expresses Maya’s emotions because she was going through a lot of pain. Maya thought that she was an unlucky person in this world but it was not true, Maya was a lucky girl because she had his god Allah Almighty, who is most merciful and beneficial. She spent her fifth grade in pain of losing someone she loved. With time she forgets Sara but not Noah and Amelia because she is emotionally attached to them. However, as time passed Maya’s love also grew for Noah. As Maya grew older, her feelings for Noah transformed; from a lukewarm affection in her childhood to an all-consuming passion in her teenage years. Firstly, she was brilliant and the top student in the class, but her academic excellence waned as she became consumed by love. She found herself as an average student, forever distracted by thoughts of him. She became more and more deep in love.
Something that I forgot to mention about her is the unforgettable moments she spent in 3rd grade. Her favorite teacher was Ma'am Emma, she was nice, good, and calm to her. She became happier than ever. Her friendship was real with real happiness. She faced a lot of difficulties but she was delighted and grateful for her god-gifted friends. Lemme me tell you about her 3rd grade more briefly. Firstly before meeting Noah, Maya didn't like boys and wouldn't talk to any of them but when she met him, she talked to a boy with love for the first time. She wouldn't give anything to any boy except Noah. Since childhood, she has been just like a storm for boys but on the other hand, she has been gentle-hearted to girls and Noah was the only boy with whom she appeared so soft and gentle. She enjoyed each movement they spent together. They laugh together, they play together, and they both take care of each other but just difference between them is that Maya loves him and he doesn't love her back. This is a reality that one-sided love hurts a lot. She has a lot of memories with him. You know why she loves him so deeply. Lemme explain to you in this poem written by me.
Poem: i wanna write him forever mine
Forever mine , poet : Ayesha shahid
The love i done the grace he made,
The beautiful butterflies and the light that fade,
To write him mine to make him slayed,
Longing to love him more, to make this world a source,
To make him mine, I’ve done a course
The light that follows and the dream that begins,
Makes me shine more but deeply insane,
His essence shines, a beacon bright,
Purity and beauty, my guiding light,
A heart captivated, soul set free
A love so pure, meant to be,
The courage and devotion in me badly wants me glee
These are her feelings which I have expressed in this poem. You will also think about how it could be possible that a child could love so extremely, but this is true. She also didn't know how much she loved him because her love was infinite. She was an extroverted person and u know it's challenging for me to describe her emotions and her feelings because those feelings were powerful at that young age. One thing more is that it is unbelievable to see real love in this fake type of generation. I think how lucky he was to have a lover like her because she did everything for him.
