December 15th

Waking up from this nightmare.... I keep dreaming of this pretty often... I wanna throw up.. heart racing, brain eroding, I feel like my organs are eating me inside..

15th of December.. The day everything will finally end, I tried multiple times to escape this life, trying to seclude myself away from my family.. asking myself why? Right.. it's always "why?" never any other question... I stare at my calendar hoping that whatever I'm fearing is not gonna happen before the 15th of December..

At school, these faces are unfamiliar to me, it's crazy that any of these people call themselves my friends, and one of them, my lover..... lover?

Too noisy, too vulgar, I'm so desperate to leave... this red mark seems to stay too far no matter how many days pass.. I'll hang on a little longer if I can do at least that much...

"Daryn, that bastard is still shit-talking since the day you ratted his ass out, you're definitely fucked."

My head snapped, I forgot I was sitting with these fuckin bastards..

"Oh yeah? I wouldn't have done that unless it's a place I work in, it's not about that fuckin bastard or now." I replied back, that look on their faces, I'm definitely out of place, I wonder why they keep me around..... maybe I do know, but I'd rather stop thinking about it for now..

. . .

December 3 is when I met Elojin... Elojin Emyre.. he had flashy looks, fair skin, brown hair with cheap curls, with multiple piercings stabbing his ears... tall guy with an expressionless face, a restless vibe, and a gaze referred to no one..

'he looks like a wanna-be punk,'

That was the Elojin Emyre I saw that day..

'Why is a guy like him here in this place? He looks like he belongs in some school show where rich people do anything but school work..?' I wondered...

"This is Elojin Emyre from XXXX, no need for trouble, the semester is almost over, go take your seat." The teacher said that, then proceeded to mutter and trash-talk us and whatever....

It was early September, the semester was ending, everyone was waiting to graduate and leave this shitty place, so I figured this bastard Elojin wouldn't affect shit, maybe get the girls (maybe the guys) to drool over him and boom, that's all to it..

"Oh, look at this fuck-ass, what the fuck is that hair, huh? Screaming city life I see, are you here cause your daddy owns somethin here or what? Why not pull me with ya huh? Pay up some cash and you gon be spared, jerk.." That bastard Jael spoke again. That thief bastard won't ever shut up, I wonder when...

"Bitch who you starin at like that huh?" Jael spat. "Fuck-ass..." "BITCH WHO YOU STAR—"

Boom. Everyone went silent. Elojin smashed Jael's head into the desk. And of course his whole gang and the whole class joined in, of course I got startled, that fight was not like any other fight, I jumped off my seat but then I caught Kael laughing like some TV show, arms folded, what the fuck?

"Dude they're basically killing each other, what are you laughing about?!" I exclaimed, but that bastard wouldn't budge.

"These moron shits are so hilarious." Kael kept that damn smirk plastered on his face. I grimaced... lover.. my ass..

I immediately jumped in and tried to pull them apart. "HEYY!! STOP CHOKING HIM YOU FUCKIN IDIOT ARE YOU TRYNNA KILL HIM OR WHAT?!!" I pulled Elojin off Jael immediately, but then I didn't expect that Elojin would be.... like 'him'

"WHO ARE YOU TOUCHING MOTHERFUCKER? FIRST DAY FIRST SHIT MY ASS, DO YOU HAVE A DEATH WISH OR WHAT—" Elojin yelled, his hands wrapped around my neck... he was definitely like 'that' bastard

I can't breathe... I can't see... I can't hear..

"G-GET OFF!" I yelled helplessly... "STOP IT YOU BASTARD I CAN'T BREATHE!"

All I can see... is different yet familiar eyes, this figure that I'm not welcoming.... I no longer see Elojin, I see "him"

"HEUK!—" I try to catch my breath "SHIT! LET GO YOU BASTARD" "I SAID LET ME GO!"

BAAM!

When I opened my eyes, all I could see were the other guys starin somewhere else. My gaze moved around worriedly, I no longer felt that grip around my neck. Somewhere in the background, Kael was yellin and swinging at Elojin, but my ears were still ringing too hard to focus on any of it.

"WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU HITTING, YOU BASTARD?! HUH?! YOU WANNA DIE OR WHAT?!"

But starting a fight on the first day of school was nothing special.... causing trouble wasn't either, smoking, gambling, students would sneak into anywhere hidden just to have sex, and that's nothing special as well. But no matter how normal it looked, students still got punished, everyone involved in this fight got suspended, even me, though I tried to break everything off... but I wasn't bothered much...

What a day to start, getting nagged by my boss for the suspension, he wouldn't believe that I didn't start the fight, but the nagging session ended with me asking him for forgiveness and trynna make him feel less worried, and I also asked him for extra shifts...

Delivery shift, I headed to the entrance of this cheap inn, asking the guard for room 6, heading there, I saw this bastard Elojin, and he had just passed by me heading out for a smoke, just like that, hoppin on this beat-up delivery motorcycle, I stared at this bastard, genuinely thinking of hundreds and millions of thoughts.

"Am I that handsome? Gaze off, little shit. Who are you starin at?" Elojin spat,

"I'm starin at you, you fuckin bastard, what are you gonna do, poke my eyes or what?" I shot back..

He muttered "shut up" but I didn't quite hear it, but I saw him putting out his cigarette and getting up so I immediately drove off, who the fuck does he think he is, city bastard.

Who even smokes in an inn, who even smokes outside in front of an inn, who even smokes at this hour, weird bastard.