Chapter 4
Not every destruction begins with screams or betrayal. Sometimes it begins with comfort. With a person who unknowingly becomes your safe place. And maybe that is why losing them feels like losing yourself. Before silence took over my life, there was once a person whose presence alone could calm every storm inside me.some meetings do not look special to the world, but they silently change a person forever. There were people around us that day. Some were taking pictures, some were busy talking, and some were lost in their own world. But whenever he came near me, everything around me became strangely silent. I was loud and comfortable around my own people, yet in front of him, I used to get completely jammed. My hands would shake, my heartbeat would lose its rhythm, and suddenly I would forget how to speak.The first time we exchanged our IDs, my fingers were trembling so badly that I could barely hold my phone properly. But then his hand accidentally touched mine for a second... and somehow all the nervousness disappeared. That feeling was strange. Peaceful. Safe. The kind of peace only real love can make someone feel unintentionally.He was never the type to make fake promises or use dramatic words. His care was hidden inside little things. While others casually say,“Be careful or you'll get hurt,” he used to say, “You should stay careful around guys, okay?” At first, I misunderstood him. I thought maybe he doubted me whenever I mentioned my male cousins, but slowly I realized he was only trying to protect me in his own way.Sometimes he created little situations just to test my maturity, and honestly, I failed almost every time. But before sadness could fully reach me, he would suddenly heal everything so naturally that I forgot we were even fighting.Maybe that was the moment I unknowingly started trusting him more than myself.
