Chapter 1
Phone rings!!
baba Enzo calling!!
“sawbona kwenzo” I greet him “yebo mama kunjani” “ngikahle wena unjan” “mina ngikahle ma uphila” mhhh I keep quiet for a bit coz I didn’t call so he must say what he wants. “bengicela ukuthi unana aze kimi this weekend” eyy I was happy he wanted to take her coz yoh i’m tired I could use some time to myself. “ayikho inkinga bhuti ngimlethe noma uzoza uzomlanda” “hay ngizoza mamakhe just get her things ready i’ll pick her up tonight” “ayikho inkinga ke sesizobona ngawe” “usale kahle ngzok’bona later”. I hang up. Yeah neh I start packing izinto zaEnzo and I exract milk from my boobs to the small paper bags I have to write everything down for ubabakhe ngoba uzofona ubsuku bonke… I laugh thinking about last time he came back because he didn’t know how much milk Enzo had to drink and apparently “Enzo unathe amabottles awu3” I laugh harder. because he thought ingane yakhe isizofa.
My name is Bayanda Ndhlovu, I am 21 old with a 2year old baby we live alone in Durban,KZN my family disowned me after I had a baby so I tried to make ends meet (Note I tried) but ubabaEnzo made ends meet. I met Kwenzokuhle Zulu at my best friend’s bbq we spoke and went for dates after that we dated for a year and a half then we broke up when we broke up I was already pregnant with Enzo so it’s just been me, Enzo, babakhe and a few friends who became family. I have an apartment that babaEnzo bought for me as a gift athi it’s for bearing my first baby when you could have aborted but you didn’t” I got so emotional I cried that day no one has ever done this for me not even my parents who threw me out of their house without sympathy so I have been grateful to him since. Kwenzo and I didn’t get back together even after nana has been born we rather keep it to co parenting and a friendship between us because of some reason known to us you might know in future but for now I don’t want to talk about it. We have been co-parenting since she was born.
Door bellrings I open the door “mos you said at night it’s 5pm njena” he looks at me all the way from head to toe and stops at my shirt I still have those extraction cups on my boobs coz the milk is not enough now I find myself explaining to him. “I was extracting milk for Enzo that’s why” he give me a hug and I hug him then he enters the house going to where Enzo is. “can I rest for a bit i’ll leave as soon as I wake up” sure make yourself comfortable” this is not the first time he does this and he knows his way around the house. it’s not really a big apartment just 3bedrooms 2bathrooms a dinning room and a lounge. I make food for us while he naps with his child I sneak a picture of them sana they look alike it’s like im just a nanny coz she looks like her dad she just got my smile otherwise she’s his twin. Enzo starts crying and mmmm that woke him up and “he gave her to me please feed her” I do so while eating my own food “yoh Okuhle man nxx” she bit me lengane ngizoyishaya if it wasn’t for ubabakhe namasiko akubo kube kdala ngamyekisa lento. “ yini ushawuda ingane yam” “iyang’luma nje ngithini” I say now she’s not even sucking she’s playing with my nipples and I laugh. “nakho okwakho bhuti ngathi segcwele” I hand him the baby and collect our plates to the dishwasher ang’nayo I energy mina. I take her bag to the sitting room and some clothes to change her into before they leave. I put her in a cute fluffy brown onesie and a small beanie underneath coz uyakwebha ingwane enkulu kusale indlebe iphandle. I give her back to her dad and I walk them out I help to put the things in his car while he straps her in her babyseat at the back and closes the door now it’s just us I look down iyancibilikisa lendoda plus he’s intimidating so vele yeah. He offers a hug andI hug him then he kisses my forehead how sweet of him. “i’ll call you mamakhe” he says I nod and say bye heading to the house. I lock all my doors and windows one thing about me i’m scared of being alone like why am I alone vele so I lock everything and go straight to my room to rest I wash and head for the bed watched a few tiktoks then I dozed. Kwenzo calls and I answer with a groan “hmmm” I say“mamakhe” he answers his voice low and deep yhoo that voice would make me getpregnant again kodwa chaaa. “hmmm” in my sleep I cant make words so I use what I can. “ bengithi ngikwazise ukuthi sifike kahle” awwwn hes so cute . “ that’s great babakhe ngilele mos min sizokhuluma angithi ksasa” “yebo mama ulale kahle iyak’thanda lentsizwa” I sigh yoh nam ngyayithanda lentsizwa kodwakeee. “ ngyabonga babakhe ukiss unana goodnight” I hang up and sleep. In the morning I wake up fix my self and clean my room a lady comes to clean in the complex but I prefer to clean my room myself . After cleaning my room I wash and get ready I notice by the mirror that im losing weight not dramatically but small small. I am a chubby girl and I like my body the way it is im not about to sit in a corner and sulk because it’s in my genes I have to accept it. I wear mypurple scrubs and head for the hospital im a Paediatrician at Netcare ParklandsHospital.
lets be positive ngan’zakwethu
