YOU LOVE ME LIKE A SECRET

_Shanghai rain had softened into a silver mist by late afternoon, turning the city streets into glistening ribbons of black and neon. _Inside the quiet corner café on Pine Street, the air smelled of dark roast and warm vanilla, the kind of intimate hush that once felt like safety. Our booth—tucked behind frosted glass where the world blurred into soft gold—waited exactly as it always had. The same worn leather, the same candle flickering between two empty cups.

You were never late.

Not once in all the stolen months we had carved out of your impossible schedule. That was one of the rules you kept without ever saying it aloud: you arrived on time, always slightly rumpled from whatever empire you ruled during daylight hours, eyes already darkening with the promise of what would happen the moment we were alone.

6:42 PM.

Twelve minutes past the time you promised.

I sat with my fingers wrapped around the stem of an untouched glass of _Cabernet, the deep red liquid catching the low light like the bruises you once left on the inside of my thighs. _My black silk dress clung to my skin, the one you loved sliding your hands beneath—slow, deliberate, whispering filthy praise in Mandarin against my throat while your fingers found me already wet and waiting.

I told myself it was nothing.

Traffic. A last-minute call from Shanghai. A dead battery in that sleek black phone you guarded like state secrets. Reasonable excuses. Safe ones.

But something in my chest already knew better. _A quiet, creeping fracture.

Every time the door opened, my body betrayed me. Spine straightening. Lips parting on a breath I hadn’t meant to release. The phantom memory of your scent—dark amber, sandalwood, and something unmistakably male—ghosted across my senses. _I could almost feel the way you would slide into the booth beside me instead of across, thigh pressing hot against mine under the table, fingertips tracing lazy circles just beneath the hem of my dress until I was biting my lip bloody to stay silent in public.

The call I made went unanswered.

One ring.

Two.

Three.

Then brutal silence.

I redialed immediately, heart hammering against my ribs.

_This time, nothing. Not even a ring. Just a cold, mechanical voice slicing through the line like winter steel:

“The number you have dialed is not in service.”

The words landed like ice water down my spine. I stared at the screen, thumb frozen, refusing to accept what my eyes were seeing. _This was your number. The one that had lit up my darkest hours with low, commanding voice notes—telling me exactly how you wanted my mouth, my fingers, I clenched tight around you while you described every filthy thing you would do when you finally got me alone. The same number that once made me excuse myself from a meeting so I could lock myself in a bathroom stall and come with your name breaking on my lips.

Now it was gone. Erased. As if you had never existed.

_I opened our chat again. The last messages glowed mockingly in the dim light.

You: 6:30. Don’t be late.

Me: I won’t.

You: Good girl.

Three words that had once soaked my panties in seconds. I could still hear the way you growled them against my ear while buried to the hilt inside me—slow, deep thrusts that stretched me so perfectly_ I saw stars, your hand wrapped gently around my throat as you whispered, “That’s it… take every inch like you were made for me.”

The café began to empty around me. Chairs scraped. Voices faded. The sky outside deepened from bruised violet to full night, turning the windows into mirrors that reflected my own strained face back at me: carefully applied lipstick, eyes too bright with foolish hope, the elegant updo I’d done just for you now feeling ridiculous.

I should have left.

Instead I stayed, legs tightly crossed beneath the table, trying to ignore the low, persistent throb between my thighs—the memory of how full you always made me, how completely you owned every gasp and shiver.

One last time, I reached for the phone.

A notification lit the screen before I could unlock it. Not from you. A social media tag.

_My stomach twisted as I tapped it open.

The post loaded in cruel, high-definition clarity.

There you were.

Bathed in warm golden sunlight on a rooftop terrace I had never seen—glass railings, _sweeping city views, the kind of place power moved and secrets stayed hidden. You weren’t the guarded, intense man I knew in dim hotel suites and the backseat of your Maybach. _This version smiled wide and unguarded, the kind of smile that reached your dark eyes and softened the sharp line of your jaw. The smile I had only ever earned when you were buried deep inside me, forehead pressed to mine, breathing my name like a man drowning.

And beside you—pressed close with effortless, public intimacy—

Her.

Elegant. Radiant. The kind of beauty that belonged in daylight and legacy. Her hand rested lightly on your arm, fingers adorned with a ring that caught the light like a vow. She leaned into you naturally. _Like she belonged. Like she had every right to touch what I could only borrow in shadows.

The caption was devastating in its simplicity:

“Quiet evening with the one who matters most.”

My fingers tightened around the phone until the edges bit into my palm. _The café noise faded into a dull roar. My pulse thundered in my ears while the rest of me went frighteningly still. Heat—equal parts rage and unbearable longing—flooded my body, settling low in my belly like liquid fire.

You weren’t late.

You had never planned to come.

While I sat here in our secret booth, thighs still faintly marked from your grip last week, p*ssy still tender from how thoroughly you had claimed me, you were out in the open with her.

I stared at the photograph until the pixels blurred. The candle between my fingers burned lower, wax dripping like slow, helpless tears down the holder. The ache in my chest spread downward—hot, hollow, throbbing with the cruel memory of every time you had filled me so completely I forgot the rest of the world existed.

The question that had been whispering at the edges of my mind finally broke through, sharp and merciless.

Who are you?

And why did I let myself fall so deeply for a man who only ever loved me like a secret?

The candle finally guttered out. Darkness settled around the booth like a lover’s goodbye—gentle, final, and devastating.

_You weren’t coming.

And for the first time, the thought of your hands on my body felt like both heaven and a wound that would never close.