Prologue
— So many things were revealed in me thanks to him.
— And he does not even suspect.
— He should not be aware of it.
PROLOGUE
Today, when I recollect what I was crying about a few years ago, I have a great intention to smile. However, not to spite somebody or because I got mad. I want to smile from that lightness that settled down in my soul. In addition, from the fact I learnt to turn into life a fashionable tendency — “to place priorities”.
However, I really learnt to place them. It is my personal merit.
My daughter is two years old. I still become sad sometimes without any particular reason. However, when she sees me with a sad smile, she starts to worry that it is her guilt. She is not aware yet that she is an angel. In addition, this angel basically is not able to cause any difficulties. In such moments, I pull myself together and forbid myself this terrible sadness without a reason. I keep in my mind that I do not have a right for it any more. A person may be sad when he sees a close friend off, when he misses someone unbearably dear, when ... so many real reasons for being sad. Sometimes it is even useful. In such a case, a person starts to value more everything he has. Nevertheless, it is necessary to forbid yourself to fall into despondency without any reason.
