The rose with its secrets

Summary

"Can love protect a secret that’s meant to burn?" Efsun I stand in the middle of this perfect, quiet nursery and I feel like a ghost in my own home. My makeup is ruined, my eyes are raw from crying, and my hands keep reaching for a stomach that will never grow again. The doctor’s words are a death sentence I have to hear every morning: “You will never get pregnant.” It’s a finality that breaks me over and over. Sometimes, I swear I hear a baby crying in the corner, a tiny, thin sound that pulls at my heart—but when I turn around, there’s nothing but shadows. It’s just my mind playing cruel tricks on me. And then I think of Bahar. I see her living the life that was supposed to be mine, holding a baby with such ease, as if the world just handed her everything while it took everything from me. Why does she get the heartbeat, while I only get the echoes? Arda It’s the silence that’s the loudest. I watch Efsun walk into that room and I see her spirit dying a little more every day. She’s mourning a child she never got to hold, and a future the doctors took away with a single sentence. I see her flinch when she hears the wind, thinking it’s a cry, and it destroys me that I can’t give her the one thing she wants. I’m holding a woman who is hollowed out by grief, watching her look at Bahar with a look that’s half-envy and half-death. I’d give my life to hear a real cry in this house, but instead, I just hold her while she weeps for a nursery that will always be empty.

Status
Ongoing
Chapters
1
Rating
n/a
Age Rating
18+

Disclaimer

Hello everyone, just a quick announcement before we begin. This book is inspired by the Turkish series O hayat, benim. “, which was created in 2014 by Pastel Film. I do not own the rights to the characters. They belong to Pastel Film and the original scriptwriters.

This story is deeply personal to me, born from ideas first developed in 2019. For years, I struggled with the decision of whether or not to write it, keeping my notes tucked away in a private book. After recovering them this year in 2026, I am finally ready to share this journey. This is a story of life, death, and secrets that burn within us — a project that was seven years in the making.