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Before meeting and dating Brendon, I was getting over a troubled, abusive realtionship. I did somethign that I knew was gonna protect not only me and my little flower, but also other possible victims and I turned myself in but made sure they had all the evidence, hospital records, and other things to prove my innocence and that everything was self defense.
When I got with Brendon, I told him how my ex did me and how I’d never let another man think that just casue they are a man they’d get away with abusing me, hitting me, or anythign casue i’m supposed to be the weaker sex.
He assured me that he’s not a woman better, that its nothing he is fully against and will never raise his hand to me in that type of manner, that if soem ass hole tried he’d be picking their self off the floor if not dealing with broken bones throughout their body.
I had mentioned my baby girl before stating she is someone that wholes my heart greatly and its not another man. casue I’m not doing that to him. but if things go great... or continues to then he’d meet said person.
he has shown me what its like to not be scared or live in fear. He’s shown me what its like to be loved, wanted, desired, and longed for. and in return I’ve show him love, respect, desire, and appreciation.
Now I’m gonna be up front and honest with him about my baby. I mean more than just the wholesomeone who holds my heart greatly.
So while a very dear and helpful friend is watching Leilani, I’m with my boyfriend and I’m going to be straight and honest with him.
I turned so I looked athim and he noticed the change in my body language so he looked at me.
“you okay?” he asked
“I have a kid who is my world, I love by on this world and will always love them. Yes I love you and want so much with you. but I will never. put you over them in this life or the next. you are my boyfriend and I love you greatly. but they will always and forever come first. when I told you the day we started seeing each other that I have someone who you’ll meet that holds my heart so greatly. its my baby. and I want you to meet them very soon. but you need to be okay with the fact there will be days, moments, and times we’ll be together and if I ever get a call or anything stating they are sick, needing, me or anything. I’ll drop what I’m doing and go to them. they will always come first. they are my main priority. and if you accept that then you’ll meet them. but if you decide that I’m not worth anything anymore since I have a kid and you want to run. tell me know. casue my baby will never be ignored by me for a fucking man.” I say
he looked at me like he was seeing heaven.
“I am excited to meet them, learn about them, and have things to do with them. help in any and all ways I can. & I expect you to drop everything and go to them when they need you. I will not run away just casue you are a mom. in fact just how you talked makes me love you more. actaully I got turned on with how you were speaking. I love how you have your kid as your number one priotry and will never put someone over them. I love you and I will stay with you. I’ll do everything and anything for you and them if you’ll let me.” he says
“you can meet them tomorrow if you want, since we both dont work then” I say
He smiled
“i’d love that.” he says
we sat there and I told him everything about my baby. and he was taking it all in and loving everything that I was telling him.
“They won’t be scared of me will they?”
“no she wont. infact she might think of you as a big teddy bear.”
“I’ve been called a shark but never a teddy bear. but for her and you I’ll be anything” he says
I smiled and kissed him before I realxed and continued telling him all about my baby girl.
