Cruel to save myself
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Cruel to save myself

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Story Notes

She was never meant to be his ending, but she’s determined to be his beginning. In a world where every action is watched by a cold system, Denisia fights to turn a marriage of convenience into an all-consuming, unbreakable love. Prepare for high-stakes tension, dark secrets, and a romance that defies the script. Are you ready to see if she survives his love?"

Summary

Denisia is a brilliant pharmacologist trapped in an arranged corporate marriage with Jeffrey Hills—a ruthless billionaire CEO known for his cold demeanor and a terrifying, unyielding physical addiction. Her quiet life completely shatters when she mistakenly tests an experimental, highly potent aphrodisiac on herself. The drug doesn't just ignite a fire in her veins; it acts as a bizarre catalyst, causing glowing, mechanical text boxes to materialize in the air around her. These floating system comments reveal a devastating truth: she is a character in a book, and she is destined to be replaced. According to the readers' comments, Jeffrey’s feral stamina and dangerous physical appetite will drive her straight into a hospital bed, forcing him to draft a divorce to protect her life—ultimately sending him into the arms of the original "female lead," Sophia. Driven by a sudden, fierce love for her husband and a refusal to be cast aside, Denisia decides to rewrite the plot. If Jeffrey wants to push her away to save her, she will have to risk everything to prove she can handle the monster behind his restraint. Armed with the real-time warnings of the floating system, Denisia sets out to seduce her dangerous husband, conquer his dark urges, and completely shatter the original storyline.Can a fragile human survive the relentless appetite of a billionaire sex addict?

Genre
Romance
Author
Ebi
Status
4mo ago
Chapters
10
Rating
5.0 (1 review)
Age Rating
18+

Chapter 1The Accidental Catalyst


The sleek, glass vial felt freezing against Denisia’s trembling fingers. As a brilliant pharmacologist, she had spent months at her private, off-site research laboratory—a secure facility located miles away from the city center—perfecting a highly potent, fast-acting aphrodisiac compound intended for medical research. Tonight was the final phase.

And she chose to test it on herself first.

*It’s just a micro-dose,* Denisia reasoned, swallowing hard as she measured a single drop of the clear liquid onto her tongue right before packing up her things to head home.

She expected a mild, traceable physiological reaction. What she didn't account for was how the drug would cause those bizarre, floating texts to multiply in front of her eyes.

She wasn't from another world; she was just a normal woman who had entered into an arranged corporate marriage with the ruthless billionaire CEO, Jeffrey Hills, two weeks ago. But right after their wedding, her reality had shattered when these glowing, mechanical comment screens suddenly began materializing in the air around her. She had never known her life was a story, but these floating text boxes treated her entire existence like a book for their entertainment.

And tonight, the moment the drug dissolved on her tongue, the floating comments went absolutely wild, flashing in real-time right before her eyes:

> 💬 **[User_9921]:** Oh my god, is she crazy?! She really just drank her own experimental aphrodisiac?

> 💬 **[NovelFanatic]:** Wait, if the drug kicks in now... isn't she heading back to the Hills mansion? Jeffrey is there tonight!

> 💬 **[TropeQueen]:** RIP Denisia's waistline. Jeffrey is a literal sex addict. His stamina is completely feral and intense. She's going to get broken in that bed if she isn't careful!

> 💬 **[PlotArmor00]:** If she doesn't take the initiative and seduce him tonight, Jeffrey is going to go to the female lead, Sophia. Go get your man, Denisia, even if you can't walk tomorrow!

>

Denisia stared at the floating, mechanical comments in absolute shock, her face flushing a deep crimson. *A sex addict? Feral stamina? Broken in the bed?*

Before she could even process the terrifying warnings, a wave of intense, blinding heat crashed through her core. The drug didn't just kick in—it exploded through her veins like liquid fire. Her knees went weak, her pulse spiking violently.

The floating screens confirmed her worst fears: if she didn't make the first move tonight, she would lose her husband to Sophia. Driven by the overwhelming urge of the compound and the fear of losing everything, she rushed home.

By the time she stepped into the massive, dark Hills mansion, she was completely consumed by desire and determination. She had to take the first step.

Slipping into a short, emerald-green silk nightgown that left her face flushed and her chest showing slightly, she gathered her courage and pushed open the heavy doors to Jeffrey's master suite.

He was sitting behind his mahogany desk, a glass of dark whiskey in his hand, his crisp black shirt undone by two buttons to reveal the hard expanse of his chest. His dark eyes instantly locked onto her trembling, scantily clad form.

"Denisia?" Jeffrey’s deep voice was dangerously low, a warning vibration in his throat as his eyes tracking her curves. "What are you doing here?"

"I... I can't sleep, Jeffrey," she breathed, her voice a soft, seductive purr. She crossed the room, her movements fluid and desperate, driven by the fire in her blood. She closed the distance, placing her small, burning hands directly onto his bare chest.

Jeffrey went completely rigid. He knew his own strength, and he had been actively trying to protect his delicate new wife from his darker, more voracious side.

"Denisia, you don't know what you're doing," Jeffrey growled, his hands gripping her wrists to push her back. "Go back to your room before I lose my control."

"No," she gasped, leaning in closer. "Don't push me away."

Tangling her fingers in his dark hair, she pulled him down into a breathless, demanding kiss. That was the breaking point. Jeffrey’s fragile restraint snapped completely.

With a low, feral growl, he gripped her waist and lifted her effortlessly, pinning her straight against the edge of the large executive desk. Papers scattered to the floor as his mouth claimed hers in a punishing, possessive rhythm.

Jeffrey's large hands slid down her thighs, gathering the silk of her emerald gown and tearing it upward. Kneeling before her on the edge of the desk, his dark eyes locked onto hers, he buried his face between her thighs. Denisia let out a sharp, breathless gasp, her fingers instantly tangling in his dark hair as he gave her head, his tongue moving with an agonizingly perfect, dominant rhythm that had her entire body arching off the desk.

Lifting her into his arms, he carried her to the massive bed, pinning her down into the heavy mattress. His shirt was completely gone now. Jeffrey gripped her hips, positioning himself, and drove deep inside her.

Denisia threw her head back, a loud, trembling moan ripping from her throat. Jeffrey kept going in and out of her, his pace relentless and deep, his legendary stamina matching the terrifying intensity of his desire. Every heavy thrust filled her completely, until the sheer pleasure became too much for her mind to handle. Her vision blurred, and her world went completely black as she passed out from the overwhelming sensation.

When she finally opened her eyes a short while later, the heavy storm seemed to have passed. Jeffrey was cradling her gently against his bare chest, his eyes filled with a rare, soft warmth. They shared a quiet, breathless laugh together, Denisia thinking she had finally survived his appetite.

But she was wrong.

The aphrodisiac drug hadn't fully left her system. Deep within her veins, the fire flared back to life, and Jeffrey felt the immediate shift in her body. His restraint shattered for a second time. He fell harder, flipping her over and pulling her into a chaotic, secondary round.

This time, the energy in the room was wilder, louder. Denisia was moaning loudly, the sound echoing off the high ceilings of the master suite, her voice trembling with raw, unfiltered pleasure. She couldn't control herself.

But right in the middle of the intense heat, the overwhelming combination of the drug and Jeffrey's relentless, feral stamina began to take its toll. Slowly, Denisia’s movements began to slow down. Her responses grew weaker, her body dropping lower and lower into the mattress. Her loud moans faded into soft, shallow breaths, and she stopped clinging to his shoulders, her arms falling limply to the side.

Jeffrey was so consumed by his raw, addictive drive that it took him a moment to realize the shift. But as he kept going, he suddenly noticed that she was no longer active. She wasn't moving with him, she wasn't making a sound, and her body felt completely heavy beneath his.

With a sharp jolt of adrenaline, Jeffrey stopped. He looked down, his dark eyes widening in horror as he realized Denisia had completely passed out cold.

"Denisia?" Jeffrey’s voice cracked, the haze of his intense appetite instantly evaporating into pure panic. He shook her shoulders gently, but her head only lolled uselessly to the side. Her skin was burning to the touch, yet her breathing was dangerously shallow.

Jeffrey didn't care about the late hour, his reputation, or the fact that he was the most powerful billionaire CEO in the city. He threw on a pair of dark trousers, wrapped Denisia’s fragile, unconscious body securely in a thick duvet, and scooped her into his arms.

He sprinted down the grand staircase of the Hills mansion, screaming for his driver to pull the car around. Within seconds, they were tearing through the dark, empty streets, speeding toward his private hospital's emergency ward.

The moment they arrived, the hospital staff scrambled into motion, recognizing the furious, terrified expression on their owner's face. Denisia was rushed behind the double doors of the emergency room, leaving Jeffrey pacing the sterile hallway alone, his hands trembling as he stared at the floor.

As he paced back and forth under the bright fluorescent lights, trying to process the panic roaring in his chest, Jeffrey suddenly froze. He looked down. To his utter disbelief and embarrassment, his body hadn't gotten the memo that the emergency was medical, not physical. Because of his unyielding addiction and how abruptly the encounter had been cut off, he was still rock hard, stretching the fabric of his dark trousers in a way that was impossible to hide.

Nearly two hours later, the double doors finally swung open. The chief medical doctor stepped out, rubbing his temples, exhausted and stressed. But the moment the doctor looked up to speak to the imposing billionaire, his eyes dropped right to Jeffrey’s trousers.

The doctor froze mid-step. He stared at the massive, undeniable tent in the CEO's pants, completely speechless. For a solid ten seconds, the doctor just blinked, his brain short-circuiting as he looked from Jeffrey's dead-serious, panicked face down to his lower half, and back up again. The nurses standing nearby awkwardly averted their eyes, entirely dumbfounded.

Finally, the doctor found his voice, clearing his throat aggressively as he muttered under his breath, keeping his voice low but completely fierce.

"What the fuck happened in there, Mr. Hills?" the doctor said, shaking his head in absolute disbelief. "You almost killed her! Her vitals dropped completely from sheer physical exhaustion, and her heart rate was dangerously erratic. And you..." The doctor gestured vaguely and speechlessly toward Jeffrey’s pants with his medical chart. "...you are still like this? Whatever the fuck you are doing behind closed doors, you need to stop. You almost ended her life tonight. You must let her rest, or the next time she is brought into this emergency ward, she might not wake up at all."

Jeffrey stood frozen, the doctor's blunt, dumbfounded words ringing loudly in his ears as the entire medical team stared at him like he was a literal monster. Through the glass window, his pale, sleeping wife rested peacefully, entirely unaware of the chaotic, hilarious embarrassment happening right outside her door.

Let Ebi know what you thought about this chapter!

LunaMoonGoddess1
LunaMoonGoddess1

Possible death from s@x. That's a new one for me! 🌶️

5 months
Deynerbrown7
Deynerbrown7

Great story

5 months

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