My Blackpool Overload
My first end of the year trip at college
on a windy Wednesday Twelfth of June Two Thousand and Nineteen
it was the trip to Blackpool day
looking forward to be going to the
Blackpool Pleasure Beach to go on rides
So I got up, had some breakfast and get dressed
into my North Face tracksuit
tying my hair up into a low ponytail
putting my black coat on
to set off for the day
Walking from my house
with the routes are like a maze
where the lovely, vibrant flowers
that has brought into the light in me
but the sky looks dull and depressing
the roads were busy like a traffic jam
with all people were rushing
through the horrendous traffic lights
to get their destination
When I arrived at college,
there were lots of people in a small canteen
not knowing which classroom they will be in
but eventually, I have got in class on time
there were a lot of unfamiliar faces
that I have met before
But the classroom was more like a garden
with lots of plants on the window sill
and some gorgeous posters hanging on the display board
You know everything around me appears to be very noisy
but there was this one female person named Abigail
who has a light blonde hair with a bit ginger and has pale white skin
described as a very affectionate young woman who is easy to talk to
but can become increasingly bossy towards anyone in college
like when I used to be when I am at school
Keeping on winding this one male person up
But she was with the teaching assistant
whilst everybody sitting around the table
When the teacher did the register
with our names being called,
we had been put into groups
before going on a coach
the coach is a massive transportation
with lots of seats compared to the public bus
or either a minibus
with the fan on the top of every single seats
and the blue lights glowing brightly
but it was a long journey to Blackpool
I sat beside the security guard
who has a short red hair, brown skin and wears glasses
But when all of us have eventually reached at our destination,
every single of use were cheering happily and loudly
and we were getting out of our seats and waited outside our coaches
before walking to the miserable beach
thinking I might be hopeful that I will be going to the
Pleasure beach where it has a lots of rides and cosplays everywhere
But it turned into a total disaster!!
Because I do not ask to go the beaches, arcades or everything
so my emotions has exploded into an utter meltdown
where my happiness has been faded away
By my prolonged sadness
As I do want to go on rides so badly
But I walked up the hills into the traffic lights
with my arms linked to the teacher’s arm
but it has a lot of people waiting for the green man
to cross safely
so no rollercoasters, no rides, and no joy
just a system that is completely short-circuited
but I didn’t realise about the gratitude
about going to the trip
because I feel like I am truly ungrateful about this
as I have never been to the seaside of Blackpool before
Walking through the beach with the groups of people
with the water waving angrily towards all of us from the distance
Making the sand wet and hard to touch
but it has the people’s footprints appearing in the sand
As we headed inside the cafe to eat our lunch,
my inability to control my emotions for short periods
can be very difficult
as my brain responds to my mind by the tears
dripping down my face
but I eventually wiped the tears
because I couldn’t understand why I am in the pleasure beach seaside
rather than going to the pleasure beach rides
where some people will earn the fun
whilst I don’t earn this kind of happiness
because I was told by the teaching assistant
that I have to pay for the waist band to go
on rides which I do not know about
And told me “Just eat your lunch”
giving me no sense of empathy whatsoever
until another female person asked me about my wellbeing
who has a light blonde hair and has a pale white skin
saying to me, “Are you alright?”
And I formulated my response to her question,
“No, I am not, Nakita!!” in the response
with the use of the flooded tears in my eyes
But was sat in the table alone crying my eyes out
because I cannot process the full intention as to why
can’t go on any rides
When we finished our lunch,
we were heading into the arcades
and we had the game of arcades
but I have no money to spend
until the kind offer comes from the teacher
where she gave me the fiver to have a go on the arcades
which she don’t really have to do
because I never knew I have to
bring some money for the trip
the noise inside the arcades does not usually
bother me as much as the rest
But the atmosphere was so much smaller
compared to the one in college
So when we finished the arcade,
we were heading to the seaside
with the stairs down the beige coloured sand
that turns into a light brown when it is wet
with the salty water hitting through
the sound of the white noise
but the water appears to be ripple
that is undulating and surging gently
with great level of power and force
As I feel the breeze sensation of the strong wind through my face,
the aggressive wind blew my hair away into my face
but appear smiling whenever I feel upset inside me
Once we have finished walking into the beach,
we were going to look at the shops before heading back to our coach
whilst we were walking up the stairs,
there were already have loads of people in the coach
but Abigail held my hand tightly
feeling the tactile sensation inside her
to communicate with me with the sense of touch
before heading to the seat
but the security guard named Neelam
sat right next to me in coach all along
but when the teacher comes up and check to see if
we have any seatbelts on, we had it on over our shoulder
But there is this one male person named Thomas refuses
to put his seatbelt on due to the discomfort around his neck
and was reluctant to put it on until the aggression was directed
at this one teacher where he has the level of force to aggressively
hit her on the arm before the teacher said to him angrily,
“EXCUSE ME!!”
before heading for a drive
Whilst we all waiting for the hours
to get to college,
all of us were singing and dancing the songs
all the way to college
With Abigail taking pictures of people in the coach
on the teacher’s iPad
but I knew from the very second, the pictures
were blurry and degrading
When I looked at the picture from 2019 until now,
there were Neelam and I were smiling
in the backseat of the coach
But when we have got to college,
we were rushing to get off the coach
until the teacher reminded them about getting off
one by one
I thought I might be coming home straight away
when I see my mum outside my college
but I wasn’t allowed to
But I feel like everything is just too confusing and overwhelming
As I feel like I do want to go home after a long day
with the burden emotions exploding inside my mind
But I went to the classroom to get name checked
As I cannot wait any longer
So I became frustrated and irritable about little things
because I do not know what is going on
But the another teacher asked me questions
I took my frustration on her
which I do feel bad about
because she was trying to help me
But when I became upset,
Her response was being said to me,
“Kelsey-Jo, I was only trying to help you”.
But Abigail sees me upset and said to me,
“I don’t like you when you are upset” before making me cry even more
before grabbing my hand tight and kiss my hand
to make me feel better
but I thought I might get a hug from her
because she gives me the best hugs ever
However, I wasn’t expecting for her to display empathy
towards me which she don’t usually show it inside her
But a teacher with glasses took me out to see
my mum and explain to her about my situation
before walking out of college
as you know I was in a foulest mood ever
because this was by far the worst day trip
in my lifetime
but I walked up the biggest hill that is like the rollercoaster
all the way home
And I am glad that I am at home again
sitting my spinning chair
Had my tea and go straight upstairs to my room
To go chill and sleep my day off
before having a day off
a day after my trip
