diary

8 september monday 19 32

We went for a movie night, me and my friends it was so fun omg there was literally snacks and i allost vomitted from that sweet stuff and clotted cream that clotted my guts and made me dizzy

10 october friday 20 49

I finally managed to go back to school!

Come to think fo it i have no idea what happened

My past 2 diary entries are gone

Listening to some songs

I cant believe it my fricking friends they betrayed me today. They are unfamiliar. Today they pushed me into the school pond. They mocked me and tried drowning me whats their problem??? My uniform was black with muck. My lungs are suffocated caught on string cant expand cant function bleeding out all bruised. Then they got a penknife and slashed my bag up. Cloth spurt out everywhere i cant tell anyone the teachers are blind the principal wishes to stay ignorant i dont get anybody nobody gets me.

13 october monday 22 14

Some radiohead songs just blasting from my head phones. His eccentric like me i guess

I read about this method where a warrior kills himself through splitting his stomach and spilling his own guts ooh thats cool i think its called sepukku or smth

My friends are still killing me

Ive decided to not go to school tmr

17 october friday 13 11

I havent went to school for the whole week its not too bad

18 october saturday 11 23

No oh no pls dont ill kill myself for this im not gonna hurt myself again the universe is bending the light is too strong the colours are crazy its a kaleidoscope one that blurs my vision i cannot see i cannot hear i cannot feel i cant see what im writing i can think i can think think think think think think thikn think tijkn

Did spell correht

The whispers are back

19 october sunday 12 11

Ok my visions back im sure thats just a temporary glitch no im not a robot i just dont know what other words to use

Why why why i dont know why

It sounded abit like “ hes heres tmr go bow to his majesty hes here if ur not there u vanish better go”

Im not going

22 october wednesday 19 21

I just came back from a short visit to the hospital oh the rush i think i fractured my ribs it doesnt hurt though they x ray did show and there was a protrusion and then there were purple spots on my skin the bloods not flowing theres some coagulation well idk i dont know but i know hes the reason i got run over by some bike

24 october friday 23 40

No i cant sleep its wrong its so wrong the feeling of like chains closing around my arms and legs its wrong its so wrong there is a funny flappy thing on my back like some skin is peeling off theres another message when i look at the mirror my hair has grown insanely fast its licking my shoulders its wrong for a boy its so wrong

26 october sunday 23 10

I see myself in the mirror i think i saw someone else instead some on joyful fun and energetic then my reflection appears again and its not him its me the hair is mopping my forehair in tangled strands boys dont have combs i try to comb with my hands

My fingers are stuck

I met my girlfriend

Im surprised shes even interested in me its her birthday today and im planning to give her some rat poison so she can scare away bad people there sure are lots of bad people out there Haha the way she screams at how the beef aint beefing and the kimchi grts stuck in her teeth and makes it look like her gum bleeds

Its really cute

Shes really cute

When she got the rat poison she didnt even hesitate to dunk in into bisuit and feed it to some stray dogs on our way home and see what happens

She sure does hate dogs and she had one

At least she had one

I didnt have anything

Ps: keep ur long hair it attracts her and the way she smoothens my hair with her purple comb is perfect

30 october thursday 11 32

No my face has lost its redness its white i look dead is this early pallor mortis???? She asked me out i wanted to say yes but no way i cant be like that infront of her i think the pirple spots are turning dark red and black and its painful and theres weird tentacle like things poking out of my back im trying to keep my hair shoulder length and abit messy she says it looks good on me that length i cut it with a penknife havent washed in days havent touched water in days im dehydrated i dont wanna do anything im sinking into the sofa

1 november saturday 12 38

So my parents say i have to go back to school im losing out on alot of things

3 november monday 14 23

I got excused from cca so im writing so early

Oh no everybody avoided me apparently were learning some atoms isotope stuff

Exams are later this year around end of november im not missing things

I got pushed around a bunch of times

Oh yes where did my other bestfriend go?

It feels weird with out him its been like that for about a year? No its a month he probably went back to malaysia

Teachers are worried no they are also avoiding me idk i dont know

I heard more whispers my brain is litteraly like its going through spasms

Its all about the guy who came and stuff and i have to go?

I found myself on my knees when the whispers stopped. My arms and legs deep in the mud

4 november tuesday 15 27

I got kicked everywhere ahh

Hahahaha idk i dont know i was laughing the whole time and blood was gushing out of my mouth the teacher was shocked its been forever last since she cared for me this is smth teachers cant turn a blind eye towards

Then they all ran away

Im on my back just laughing staining my shrt red

5 november wednesday 16 20

Im listening to more radiohead songs its starting to get boring

I met her again shes cute omg she is cute

We went to saizeriya thing

She eats some spinach chicken cheese and penne

Remember its spinach chicken cheese and penne

I got more whispers again im trying to ignore except that i cant

They tell me to hurt those who have hurt me because its no fair to be the victim forever u dont wait patience is not a virtue u do u dont care about what others think

I think ill try sepukku

6 november thursday 13 11

i got excused earlier from school cuz um you see some people were bullying me again hee

i have to hurt the people who hurt me

or they would do things to me

this time it would hurt

They told me

7 november friday 19 17

its almost eyes, i dont wanna do other things i need to revise

science lights light model

math angles adjacent corresponding interior angles angles on a line angles at a point sectors 2pir pir^2

english summary grammar vocab lists

chinese ciyu stuff compre compo help

i got punished by the dis. master today cuz he realised the thick hair but no matter how he cut it it grew back isntantly its incredible.

i dont realise how short it has become

one of the classmates held a party at her big house.

the whole class was invited except me

its alright i live nearby

its perfect…

8 november saturday 21 26

i saw a pot and there was a stiff body inside

i keep quiet about it

9 november sunday 23 45

idont know what happened

the whispers got louder and then i got stIcky things on my body its everywhere I dont know what happened

now the whispers are pushing me to lick that sticky things of my body its metallic im reluctant to taste but something pushes my head and shakes it so hard im afriad it comes off my neck so i taste it it tastes so g

10 november monday 05 07

Whats going on where am i i think its a police car what did i do

Lucky me the diarys with me i guess i fell asleep with it yesterday

10 november monday 05 20

Huh there was some interrogation idk i font know i didnt do anything

Im not gonna tell anybody about the whispers and the weird visions they dont deserve to know

10 november monday 07 16

Oops i think i sure am in big trouble

Im almost sure i was in a dream but no

Oh nonono

Today the police asked me questions and then i immediately screamed at them better listen to me or he will come kill you

11 november tuesday 08 12

Hmm the police didnt find anything suspicious accept that i was the only one who didnt die in the party hmm come to think of it

What party?

I didnt go to any

Recently

12 november wednesday 15 56

Im under surveillance i think they found another old man killing them

Its all over the news the whole class is dead and they didnt even talk about me well serves them right they were killing me

I cant be sad even if i want to.

13 november thursday 11 36

Yippie its my birthday today well thats all i can say

14 november friday 20 47

So apparently on like around 13 to 15 September there were multiple cases of culpable homicide

Iykyk and the killer the culprit the i dont know what to call it he/she/it idk i dont know but they? Um apparently ripped gray matter out of their victims brains like bro whats wrong with gray matter leave it that with the body

Like when they were found there was bits of white matter just splotched around the body and everyone had ptsd abd ig the police are doing a nationwide manhunt hmm they sure have loads of time

I wonder how many brains will be gone by the end of this heh

15 november saturday 21 21

there was some more sticky things today it was spattered everywhere on the walls peeling off paint giving the room a rubbery flacky texture i drew my fingers across the walls its weird its chalky its on that squelches under your fingerpads and rips skin from within my fingers cant come out im submerged into the walls its eating me up my lips smeared across my teeth lashing at the chunks the red oh the red and the psychedelic colours that envelopes around that dies down to grey i snared and pull the substance chokes my throat it shreds it my burning im paper im shredding to the cutter its in me its disgusting im it in it its me im it

16 november monday 20 28

im sure its sunday but my phone its monday, 16 november its not monday its sunday

its sunday its sunday i have to bring the trash out its piling up in the house no wait theres people outside lemme go get them no its the principal what no he should die no what am i saying no he should eat himself up yumyumyum take that u little shit eat yumyumyum eat eat eat.

17 november monday

Its out

The news

See for yourself

”Boy, 15 pleads guilty to the murder of 29 classmates, 2 other schoolmates and his school’s principal. He has been sentenced to lifetime imprisonment and weekly rehabilitation and therapy sessions with a professional psychologist. Apparently, he has no memory of killing anyone until the murder and cannibalism of his school’s principal. He allegedly went directly at the principal’s head and tore up his skull, eating up his brain’s grey matter. when he was brought in, he showed signs of schizophrenia and suffering from severe psychotic disorders. whats more, soiled rolled up diary entries were found chunked up his penis, he claimed that his penis protected secrets from the outside world.”

i dont know whats wrong with me and i dont remember anything. I cant even feel for myself.help. The news got it wrong since when did i claim that penis is a safe place??? Only my girlfriend says delusional things like this.

what did i do what did i do what did i do

In to prison i go