UNDESIRED

20/08/2020

Dear Diary,

Today, he forgot it was my birthday. Was he simply too busy or I just don't matter. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him, I'm sobbing my heart-out. How do I hate him, he that makes me feel complete? One glance from him and I fumble and bumble over my words. I'm so done with him. Why am I in so much pain diary, why can't I let him go yet I want him gone. How did I get here, how did we get here, if someone loves you they should remember your little dates, shouldn't they?

He thinks he's going to waltz back in and say a little hello and all will be forgiven and everything back to dandy. This time I choose me, not him, me. Until it sinks in, is my happiness dependent on him diary, why can't I be happy alone. I can't tell sissy about him, sissy will snitch and tell on me to Anna, and that's another disaster. Oh why, who to tell about my disappointment. I'll just tell Ken, he'll know what to tell me but do I trust him not to tell his other friends? It's a clusterfuck. Dear diary, I must end here, sissy is calling me to cut my cake, wipe my tears, put on a silly smile, all will be well. Sissy I'm coming.....