Chapter 1
From being conscious uptil now all seems meaningless amounting to nothingness. My soul aches at everything and everyone around me, worst of all even myself, utterly disgusted by it all. What's the point of this empty and meaningless life I have? The worth behind it? Should I live longer and encourage others too? To see what? To do what more of? Why do I feel isolated? Alone in this, so lost and conflicted in my soul about what really matters. I cried aloud in my distress yet none understand nor any who seems to care and I have went far and wide to my answer only feeling ever so empty to stumble on the fact that this is it to this meaningless life I was given, why? I wish I could say but no answer I find to this empty feeling in my soul. By night the Devil visited me and showed how I could Annihilate all living organising on this earth, how all that irritates me will be gone and the earth ever so .......confusing!! with everything and everyone including me even the ones I love will amount to nothingness; am not foolish enough to not ask what next but to that was a void of nothiness. Is this what I really wanted to use the influence and power I have and will be given to destroy the world and all within? Or acknowledge the fact that what I feel and seek is evil just pure evil? Yet this anger that's within me burns alive to all the follies I see and witness within this world and worst myself, empty and wasteful is this world that truly even if what I seek and will do is pure evil, let it be so for my eyes have had enough of seeing and my ears enough of hearing. This world shall be no more even at the cost of my own soul
