Prologue
“It’s easy to love someone when they’re happy. What’s hard is loving someone when they’re crying in the bathroom floor at 2AM because everything came crashing to them at once.”
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Park Soo Bin PoV
|FLASHBACK.|
After weeks of my older brother, practically forcing me to go and visit a doctor for the multiple, weird encounters I was facing, I finally decided that I would do it today.
As I drove to the the hospital, I couldn’t help but ponder about everything happening recently.
It’s probably because of all the stress I endure during exam time. It has to be.
Nothing is wrong with me, right?
With thoughts similar like these clouding my mind, I stepped outside my car when a wave of cold breeze hits my face, messing up my hair completely.
Ah, there goes my attempts of looking presentable.
As I stepped in, I realized that the hospital wasn’t very crowded, despite it being a Sunday. The grumpy lady in the reception told me to be seated as the doctor was a bit busy.
I waited for a good half an hour before I was called in for my check-up. I was getting more terrified by the second.
“Nothing should be wrong with me, nothing should be wrong with me.” was the only thing I was chanting as I went in to the small room, where doctor Seokjin was waiting for me. He noticed me walk in, and gave me a welcoming smile.
“Hello! Miss Park Soobin, right?”
“Y-yes. Hi.”
“Please be seated.” he said and pointed towards the chair.
“Hmm, so what seems to be the problem?” he questioned, looking at me directly in the eye, which made the whole situation a lot more intimidating.
“I’ve got 3-4 purplish bruises in my hands.” I explained, and pulled the sleeves in my hand for him to inspect.
He studied them carefully, before looking at me again.
“Have you been experiencing weight loss?”
“Yes, in the past month I lost about 4 kgs.” I replied, honestly.
“And, what about tiredness? Have you been feeling tired?”
“Ah, Yes. A lot. I thought it’s because I pulled all nighters to study.” I say nervously, causing him to chuckle
“However hard studies get, don’t pull all nighters, alright?” he joked, trying to lighten up the mood, and I just nodded, smiling faintly.
“I would like if you could run these tests and meet me once done.” he advises and jots a couple things on a brand new prescription and hands them down to me.
1) Blood chemistry and coagulation tests
2) Bone Marrow Test
3) Physical examination
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“Soo Bin, please be seated.” doctor Seokjin says once more, and I follow his orders.
“So, what’s the verdict, doc?” I pleaded, with a voice that sounded like it would break anytime.
“I’m going to be straightforward, you have Stage 3 Acute myeloid Leukemia, which is the fastest spreading kind of blood cancer. You can fill out this form and start chemotherapy as soon as possible. There are a lot of patients that opt out of chemotherapy to save themselves the pain and trauma but I really do recommend it.” he said, and the world around me felt like it stopped.
Cancer?
“Park Soo Bin-ah? Are you alright?”
He then brought his hands in front of my face, waving them in attempts to try and wake me up from the nightmare I was slipping into.
I looked at him with tears brimming from the corners of my eyes.
“It’s okay, we will try everything that is possible. I will do everything I can in my power to save you, Miss Soo Bin. Don’t loose hope. This is the main time to be strong.” he encouraged and gave me a reassured smile.
I was stoic, both physically and mentally as I exited the hospital.
Nothing is wrong with me, right?
Wrong.
