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I’m Rose, but not the perfect one I’m far from there. I’m 22 and live with my aunt, me and my little brother. I used to be a perfect girl with a perfect family. Until what happened that day. My father and mother had stopped loving each other for about a long time. That day there was a lot of screaming and yelling and throwing of things. I have that moment every little noise and moment recorded in my head without having the strength to erase it forever. After that day went pass my mother had to work extra she always cried and locked her self from the world. I got distance with my mother and the world too, but me and my mother were always strangers to each other even before the change.
After that day passed one day my mother couldn’t handle me and my brother anymore so she left us on the door steps of my aunt and left, never to come back. Ever since that day my aunt took us in and learned to love us even though I couldn’t feel it. I always grew up with having that non feeling in me even though back then I was loved still but somehow I just could not endure it. Love for me was always a mystery never to be solved.
Right now its the present and I am 22 living with my aunt Dem who is 33 and brother Charlie who is 13. We go to a arts and performance school, well he does a high school, and I to a college my last year.
Charlie : ROSE! we are going to be late for your graduation!
Rose : YH YH! coming.
I forgot to mention that was my last year and last day. My brother was excited to see his big sister graduate. He still needs three years to got to college.
Aunt Dem : you heard your brother Rose hurry up!
Rose : coming!
I started walking down the stairs with a dress that my grandmother Ally from LA sent me. she lived all the way over there since she was a actress.
Charlie : wow
Aunt Dem : you look beautiful just like me.
Rose : thanks aunt Dem ~.
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After the ceremony finished there was a ball and in there I bumped into my best friend who new everything about my life.
Minho : OMG! you look amazing Rose!
Rose : Thanks but not so loud please.
Minho : sorry. so let me guess that dress came from your rich celebrity grandmother right?
Rose : yes and how do you know?
Minho : first you don’t have the money to afford a dress like that and ever since what happened she started sending you stuff.
Rose : yh. well guess pettiness can turn you into a basket fill with gold. She just has pity. - said toningly
Minho : yh
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After the ball I went home and threw myself on my bed, and thought about what Minho said. Why do people start caring. I hate pity and to top all of it I hate attention. I wish I could erase everything that happened to me and Charlie. He went through a lot but managed to move on. Of course I could not I cant just ignore what happened because what happened changed me from happy, hope full, innocent to faded and distant and just alone and sad.
Why does the world always step over me I started loving my dad and he left then I made a new start and she left then I didn’t want to move on but everyone has, except me, what is wrong with me.
I should just go with the flow and except it like it is no one will ever accept me or love me for the past me and the confused depressed me I am now.
hope, and love where are you?
