Her Diary

On 9th March 2003, my mother died and after that my life had changed. I became lonesome and began living as if I was not a part of this planet. I lost my regular habits and interest in many of the activities. I stopped going out for playing with friends and began living away from the close people most of the time.The cause for all that was the sorrow and it also had affected my studies. But then after a short break I began attending my school again.

A month later a new girl came in my class. Her name was Hanako. She started talking to me from the very first day of her arrival. I don’t know what was going in her mind. However our friendship grew, but I never looked at her the way she looked at me. At that time I didn’t know whether I was doing good or bad with her.

But then after two months, all of a sudden she stopped coming to school.

Date - 24th June 2003

I was broken and highly depressed.

After the third period I moved out of my classroom and began going upstairs with a slow walk. As I reached the top floor I saw the roof door; it was hanging ajar and some sunlight was coming in through the gap. I pulled the door in lazy manner and was instantly washed with the strong beam of sunlight. My heart was very heavy and I was in different world; the world where there was no sign of happiness but full of sorrows. I strolled ahead slowly and linked with the beautiful surrounding of the nature. I walked close to the boundary and felt a gush of summer breeze that floated my tie in the air for a while.

In a far distance I could see many birds; they were soaring gently above the knolls, a beautiful green forest which ruled wide areas, sky toughing buildings and also a train travelling with full pace.

Hanako was dead. She had cancer but she never revealed that fact to anyone.

Each of the students of the class was stunned as our class teacher, Miss Ayaka spoke up that bad news. Miss Ayaka lived in Hanako’s locality so she was the first who had received that sad message.

All faces had turned down and the whole class had became silent; as silent as a graveyard. I saw Hanako’s friends, they began crying silently. The news of her death had affected many of us but it affected me the most.

I knew I was holding the ocean of tears back of my eyes. It was getting heavier minute by minute. A while later I lay myself against the wall and lost in thoughts.

She was very new and got very popular in the whole school very early; the reason for that was her calmness and good attitude. She was very nice. I didn’t know why but for some reason I think she was crazy about me. It seemed like she wanted to come more closer to me; wanted to spend time with me, but I always ignored her. But even after that she always used to smile and talk to me with cheeriness. I think I didn’t understand her well. Sometimes she would wait for me outside the school or at the bus stop after the dismissal and whenever rain falls she never lost a change to come by me holding her umbrella. She had great feelings for me.

Just then I lost the control upon my tears. I sat down and began crying.