Crushed Heart

BEFORE 100 DAYS:

“No,” Alaska shook her head, a tear slipping away from her eye, her heart was literally breaking into pieces, she could feel it, she found it hard to breathe, it felt as if the world has stopped, everything was completely frozen except for the damn boy standing in front of her.

“Baby girl, please.” His voice was a whisper, almost too low for her to listen, but she did anyway. He was begging her, in these eyes emotions that couldn’t be explained in any kind.

“I kept on forgiving you because you’re the only person left for me in this world. I trusted you with all my heart, I’m so pathetic, so pathetic. Wasn’t I good enough? Was I too ugly? Too slim? Too cliché? Too chubby? Too needy? Too bitchy?” She didn’t stop for a second, she didn’t let him answer, ” well, wake up, Cam, this is me, this is my personality. Take it or leave it.”

“Baby girl, I swear I’d never do that again, it was a moment if weakness, I promise I won’t ever cheat on you again.” His words were sincere, he held her hand in his, too scared to add a word. He was a piece of shit.

Alaska shook her head,” you say that every time, it’s the fourth time you’ve cheated on me. You said you wanted to go to your best friend’s party, I agreed, perhaps I should have been the cliché girlfriend and went with you. Is that what you want?”

At this point, she was sobbing, he was her only family, he knew it. Her heart was literally breaking. She could here it. She shouldn’t have forgave him the first time, her love to him was indescribable. He was her mother, father, brother and even sister. He was her best friend. She couldn’t lose him, he was her other part, without him she’d be useless, she’d be just a body without soul.

With him, she forgot about her problems, she forgot about her drunk mother, her father, a drug addict, who could care less about his own daughter, her brother who had left two years ago to achieve his own dreams. He left her behind. He never called, not once.

Cameron came to her life, he changed her from the depressed girl she was into a happy girl, like magic. Perhaps it was his personality, his charm, or even his stupidy. He was special, he was like magnet, attracts everything in his way.

He lifted her head, his thumb brushing over her cheek, “You know you mean the world to me, right? I was completely wasted when I cheated on you, I even moaned your name. The third time I was so angry, you were pushing me away, no matter what I did or said, you kept on ignoring me, if you haven’t told me the reason before I would have thought you stopped loving me.”

Cameron took a deep breath, he felt a sad pleasure in recalling the bad memories that kept on haunting him. These memories were really sickening. “And the second time it was a dare, but she didn’t stop kissing me, I swear I tried, I don’t remember what happened exactly, but ....” The sound of a heartbreak made him stop, he could feel it. He closed his eyes for a second, if he could reverse back the time, he would’ve done it a long time ago.

“I know, but I don’t think it’s healthy for me to be in this relationship anymore. I’m trying to be perfect for you, trying to escape my flaws just for you. I’m going to be selfish, I damn will.” Alaska ignored his captivating eyes that were escaping into her soul, like a demon, he was, she won’t look at him, she decided. This is too much for me to handle, aren’t my family problems enough?

“Does that mean....” Cameron’s eyes hardened as realisation hit him. I swear I won’t cheat again, please don’t leave me, I’m begging you, baby girl.

“Yes; Cameron, I’m breaking up with you.” This was the end of the story for people who don’t believe in happy ending, but for the other people, this was just the start. Their story hadn’t ended yet.

Upon the heart of Cameron, the words fell ‘I’m breaking up with you’, and as the last sound sunk to his soul, his heart crushed.

His boyish soul was too absorbed in the bright spectacle to be alive to nearer sights and sounds.

The darkness added to sound of his own heart breaking, his bright soul faded as every step she took, leaving him with his dark soul he never wished to get back.

Come back, please. I need you.