1. Introduction
Meeting that special person and getting to know them can be challenging. But we all go through it at some time in lives; usually more than once.
I wanted to give you the beginning of a story of one man who got it right. It’s interesting because his discovery of this person was a surprise that caught him off guard. But he cautiously approached and then won her.
This book offers part of that story as a prelude to a collection of my poems. I hope you enjoy my second book of life and poetry.
HOW DID IT START?
Jordan had never met an angel, but on this lonely day as he was going nowhere special it happened.
He didn’t mean to stare, but this woman forced him to give all his attention to the total package. She was breathtaking in her presence. Not just how she looked; she walked with a royal air and had an amused, carefree look on her face. She was obviously confident but not aloof.
Jordan heard her laugh and was sure that everyone within hearing was drawn to her like he was. He decided that she is the kind of woman who could certainly have anyone but who is seeking no one. On this day, she connected with those around her effortlessly, seemingly unaware that she was the star of today’s show. Jordan was witnessing total beauty!
Jordan was about to embark on an incredible journey of discovery, friendship, lust, and love. This is the story of how he met the magical lady named Angel.
Jordan first saw Angel at a conference during one of the breaks. He first watched her as everyone kept giving her compliments. He was struck by the fact that some compliments were about her looks, but most about her conversations and analysis of the conference presentations. She was not rude but seemed to move away from each person who complimented her looks, moving on to meet someone else or look at some other display. When she came close to where Jordan stood, he just said hello. The smile was the brightest he had ever seen.
The ensuing, friendly conversation got better with each word and each minute. When the break was over, the two exchanged business cards and went to the next session. As Jordan left the conference at the end of the day, someone tapped him on his shoulder.
In the pages that follow, experience what happened next through Jordan’s eyes and ears.
JORDAN AND ANGEL
Wow, it was her. She asked if I wanted to go for coffee. Of course, I accepted. This was the start of many great conversations. I started our communication by letting her know I am nosy and asked her if compliments made her uncomfortable. I admitted that I couldn’t help noticing that she would change locations if the compliment was about her appearance.
As days went by, my mind moved through a kind of confusion of being someone providing “good company” and someone “intruding” on her personal life without having the right to do so. But she never complained so I knew we were friends searching for that communicative place that felt comfortable.
Before long, I started to fall for her. But at that early stage, I could only say that I wanted to see her to disguise my desire to be more than her friend. I fought the urge to say that I needed her because that would be a message too full of fire for two friends.
Nevertheless, I was falling for her and I wanted her to be mine alone. I was cautious because I didn’t want to ruin this great gift of friendship. I made sure I was not demanding, desiring or confessing, because any of those emotions would be too strong, too soon. I did not want to send my feelings in words; I wanted to read her mind and her soul. I conveyed what I felt just now and then, usually by a soft touch of her elbow, a stroke of her hand. Just a hint of where I wanted to go is what I showed her. I was patient to hope she would catch on.
One day she asked me why I was so attentive and so tender with her. This was my opportunity. What did I say? I told her I didn’t want to ruin the friendship, but I wanted it to continue to grow. I told her I wanted to let her know what I was thinking, but I decided to give her time to think about it. So I asked if I could give her a letter with my thoughts. She agreed.
I had already crafted the words, so I wrote them down and gave her this note as we parted that day:
I want to be with you even if we only have a moment in time. I want to enjoy the warmth of your smile while I give you mine. I want the memory of our presence in that place to tingle in us for thousands of seconds in time; always staying in our minds. I want your favor; to shut out the world to focus on us. I want us to take the moment and seize it and enjoy this time and freeze it in a glorious memory. Please don’t send me away. I can’t promise you tomorrow, but I surrender to you all I have today.
In a few hours, she asked to meet. We met at the same coffee shop where we started. Angel looked at me with beautiful eyes and slowly smiled. She held my hand across the table and said, “Let’s take a chance on us.”
There are no words for what I felt but I was ready to be with this woman. In fact, the real intimacy started before I was fully ready. Each day I looked into those dark eyes and enjoyed Angel’s red, full lips. Her neck was as smooth as anything I have ever felt. In the first moments of every meeting with her I was captured; hopelessly entwined in her spell. I tried to resist a bit because I didn’t want to see too anxious; go too far. But the reality of our times together offered no way to slow down. Her personality and perfume captivated me and I was relaxed. She had gained control over my emotions.
We spent many special hours together, and each time she left I watched her walk away slowly. My eyes followed but my body was frozen. Frozen with the anxiety of knowing she could ask anything of me, and I could refuse nothing. Frozen with the idea that all decisions were hers to make, and all agreements would be mine to satisfy.
I couldn’t wait to sit with her, touch her, experience her. She moves gracefully in a way I never imagined. We have a special place where we spend time, and I spend my day thinking of her and waiting to go there. So, I go through each day, needing to see her and experience her mind and body. She is a compelling memory in my brain.
Angel is at the same time aggressive and shy. She is at the same time powerful and lovely. My fascination with this lovely lady grows. She is prettier each time I see her, and I enjoy walks in the park with her. Our relationship is really going well and becoming more intimate all the time.
Yes, we’re falling in love and getting more physical all the time. So many thoughts fill my head about what I want to say next. What I want to do next. I have explained to Angel that I want a lasting, loving relationship with her. She agrees.
I’m being cautious with Angel. Maybe now I don’t need to be, but I want to be. I could tell her how much her smooth skin feels and how it excites me, even though I never touched places I’ve dreamed of. I could tell her how firm her bottom is, even though I’ve never held it in my hands. I could tell her how marvelous her breasts feel in my hands, even though I’ve only felt them on my chest. So, I just tell her how she affects me when she hugs and kisses me. I just tell her how great it feels in her arms.
Most of all, I tell her that when we make love, she will control me in a way she can’t imagine. Because I have already lived that fantasy, and I’m ready for the experience.
But that’s another story….
WANDERING THOUGHTS…
Jordan’s good fortune of meeting someone like Angel sparked random thoughts of love and life with another person. This chapter contains a sampling of the author’s random thoughts using poetry as the vehicle.
WARMS MY HEART
The day I met you I felt the heat,
Being with you has been so sweet,
Amazed at how lovely from head to feet,
Every moment with you is a treat.
I spend my day thinking of you,
The flow of love in all you do,
Your touch is like the morning dew,
Sometimes I wonder if this can be true.
I long for more of this,
Hanging around for every kiss,
Any distraction I quickly dismiss,
Not one second with you would I care to miss.
I endure my days,
Needing you in so many ways,
Going through feelings like a maze,
I only hope with me you’ll stay.
ANSWERS
Let me be the answer to your questions,
Let me be the solution to your problems.
I can give you what you need,
And together we’ll succeed.
Let me be the up when you’re down,
Let me always be around.
I can feel you in the air I breathe,
Because you’re all I ever need.
Let your eyes lead our way,
Let your heart brighten each day.
The vision of you is so exciting,
A chance to be with you is so inviting.
Tell me what you want,
And I’ll deliver it to you.
Tell me where you want to go,
And I’ll gladly come with you.
Tell me how I make you feel,
And I’ll always belong to you.
Let our song always play,
Let each kiss start and end our best day.
There’s a chance for me and you,
I promise to always be true.
Let me share your wants and desires,
Let me experience your heart on fire.
Kiss me soft throughout my day,
And I promise I’ll never go away.
Let me take you higher and higher,
Let me walk with you and be inspired.
This love is for you and me,
Special, magical for all to see.
Tell me what you want,
And I’ll deliver it to you.
Tell me where you want to go,
And I’ll gladly come with you.
Tell me how I make you feel,
And I’ll always belong to you.
THE PERSON FOR YOU
The sound of a voice that matters to you.
The special look in their eyes that touches you.
The laugh filling the room that makes you laugh too.
They belong to the person who enriches you.
MY LOVE’S CREATION
My love for you creates a fire,
That only you can put out.
My love for you creates desire,
A kind only you and I know about.
My love for you creates happiness,
About this I want to shout.
My love for you creates longing,
Because it’s you I can’t do without.
MY DAY
My day begins when she rises
My heart starts when she speaks
I get so very happy when she touches me
My day of love is complete when she sleeps
