Drunk Girl: A Three Poem Narrative

Open:

Car at a park late at night

Drunk girl, no bra

Lying lackluster, feeling dead, being kissed

Being kissed

Lackluster

Feeling dead

No bra – is that his hand?

I don’t know what to do

I can’t move, I can’t move, I can’t move

Try to breathe more quietly

Don’t even dare to exist

Maybe he’ll get the hint

But he doesn’t,

So when car leaves the park,

Drunk girl with bra askew cries

Because she wasn’t able to move

Middle:

It happens again,

But this time drunk girl says no

She says no, she moves his hand off of her body

She moves his hand and he puts it back

She says, why are you doing that?

He says you moved towards me,

I thought you wanted it.

She screams no, no, no

But does she scream it out loud or only in her head?

He takes her hand and puts it on him

She closes her eyes, she can’t even look at what he makes her do

He moans

She cries no, no, no

Has he gone deaf?

With a final grunt he goes limp and she’s free,

Except she’s different now – she feels defiled

He takes her home and says to her, how could you make me do that?

He says, you make me feel so dirty! What is wrong with you?

She’s silent

She thinks maybe if she makes her self small enough,

She’ll cease to exist

Finality:

Drunk girl steals a bottle of whiskey

Drunk girl drinks the whole thing

Drunk girl texts him, she says come over

Does that make what happens next her fault?

She says come over, and he does

She’s had a whole bottle of whiskey, and he can smell it on her breath

He says, now why’d you go and do a thing like that?

She’s so drunk she doesn’t remember how to speak

He pulls her onto his lap

She can barely remember what happens next,

But she remembers what happens when it is done

He gets up to leave and she cries, she begs him

She says please stay, while she sobs on the floor

He opens the door, he walks away

Was this her fault?

Was it rape at all? She said come over,

So he came

She’d had a whole bottle of whiskey, and he could smell it on her breath

She could hardly even speak, and he kissed her anyway