Officially Broken

He was right... it never will belong to me. Who am I to keep this?

Just when I was gonna give the necklace to Sarah she snatched it from my hand and she looked happy. I turned around and walked to Chloe’s room.

“Come In”, she said once I knocked on the door.

“Oh my, It’s you well looks like I’m not bored anymore...come in”, she said with a smirk.

*~*

I walked in and sat on her chair that was by the far window. It has been a long day, actually scratch that it has been a long week. I don’t know why Connor is behaving this way.

I just thought that maybe, just maybe we might get along after the whole birthday fiasco.

I brought my knees up and put my head on my knees.

“Why don’t you just end the marriage life would be a lot easier”, Chloe said.

“I’m tired of explaining. I’ll tell you why but you’ll just think I have some alternative motive or something. So there is no point”, I told her.

It was true no matter how many time I tell them they won’t listen to me.

“Try me”, she said softly.

Is she being nice or is she faking?

“Well, it’s been a month and I have been trying to convince my grandpa. No matter what I do he finds a way to stop it. I even told him I have a boyfriend and all and he scared him off”, I told her and sighed.

“Why is that I have to try only can’t Connor try as well. Tell them he has a relationship with Sarah?“, I asked her.

“He can’t grandpa is using something against in which he can’t say no. So he has no choice”, she said.

“Our lives are messed up I wish it went back to the way it was before”, I said in a whisper.

“Would you really want to go back to that life?“, she said.

“Of course it was peaceful”, I told her.

“You never felt lonely?“, she asked.

“I wasn’t lonely before yea in some ways I was but I had Sarah and Kylie. Now I lost the both of them because of this whole mess”, I told her.

Why am I telling her everything?

“You really care about them don’t you”, she said while looking away.

“Of course I do they are like my sister’s I wouldn’t want anything to hurt them”, I said.

“Why are you being nice all of a sudden?“, I asked.

I was curious as to why she is being so nice to me right now.

“I’m not, I’m just trying to understand the situation. Everyone says you are two-faced and some say that you are not. I don’t know who to believe so I rather make my own judgment,” Chloe said.

“What do you think-“,

“I don’t like you”, she said.

“Oh”, with that she got her earbuds on and I just sat there and looked at the view.

It’s was beautiful I have been here for a while now.

I feel as if someone was staring at me and indeed Chloe was staring at me.

“Why-“, but someone barged into the room

It was Connor.

He grabbed me by the arm and took me to his room.

“What am I supposed to do abo-“, he cut me off by hugging me.

I could feel the warmth through that hug. He wrapped his arms around my waist and brought me closer.

“Hug me”, he said fast but harshly.

I quickly wrapped my arms around his neck and he pulled me closer. He put his face in the crook of my neck. I couldn’t help but blush at that move.

I have never been this close to a guy before and I am having a weird feeling in my stomach. I hid my face in the crook of his neck, and I don’t want to seem weird or anything.

The way he wrapped his arms around me possessively made me feel happy and safe. But I know that this doesn’t mean anything he is just doing this because- wait why is he hugging me?

Just when I was about to pull away he held tighter by the waist.

“Stop moving”, he said harshly.

His fingers were digging deep into my shirt. It hurt so bad why was he doing this to me.

I could feel my eyes watering up a bit it hurt so much.

“Connor what are you doi- oh sorry I didn’t mean to disturb you two but we are about to have dinner”, she said

“We will come down in a minute”, he said In a deep voice. Damn, his voice is attractive but then he then let me go.

I look at the door and she wasn’t there anymore. Why did he hug me?

Why was he digging his nails though?

“Are you coming?“, he said harshly.

Why is he being so rude? He walked away and I went as well.

I stopped and pulled up my shirt and looked in the mirror and there were bruises there.

Why did he do that?

While I walked down to the kitchen my sides hurt so badly why did he hurt me?

I walked over to the dining table and sat in the only seat that was available and it was right next to Connor.

As I sat down they were all into there deep conversations and began eating.

I reach over to get the jug but my sides were hurting. It was hard to get the jug of water because it was a bit farther away.

I felt someone reaching for it and it was Connor he brought it closer. I thought that he would give it to me but he poured it for himself.

Then he put it even farther away from my reach so I got up and walked over and kinda bent over the table to get the water.

“Audrey, what happened? How’d you get those bruises?“, shit, I knew I should have kept my jacket on.

“Probably from my jeans”, I told her.

Then I smiled to reassure her that I am fine.

I look over at Connor he looked...guilty? Well, he is a confusing person he was being nice and now he’s just...

I walked back to my seat and drank water only. I don’t really have an appetite because the last time we ate they said things.

Once I was done drinking I got up ready to leave because it would be awkward. Just sitting there doing nothing.

Just when I was about to get up Connor grabbed my arm and pulled me back down.

“Aren’t you gonna eat?“, he asked.

“I’m fine”, I said. Just when I was about to go again he pulled me down again. He then was putting food on my plate.

Does he really care? Why is he like this? I don’t understand

“Don’t think I am putting in food for you because ‘I care about you’. You are such a hypocrite you know that. After that day I then realized what Sarah was talking about,” he said and chuckled deeply.

Oh......that’s what he thinks about me. What day was he talking about? What day?

Just when I began to eat it was hard. The comments about me were coming back.

The voices... I tell myself to forget about it and move on but it’s just hard. I can’t forget....

I tried to eat steak and it’s my favorite but I just can’t help but think about it.

“Just eat don’t think too much”, he said. I listened to him and began eating.

“You know what since your not gonna eat I’m gonna feed you myself”, he said with a smile.

My heart fluttered just then, he grabbed my plate and cut the steak and fed me. He rose his eyebrows at me and giving me the look ‘are you gonna open it or else I’ll shove it in your mouth’

I opened my mouth and ate it. Why does he care? Does he even care? Why does he want me to eat? What is he doing?

I couldn’t help but smile because no one has fed me like this. I don’t know if I should be offended or happy.

Offended because he is treating me as if I am a kid. Happy because he cares about me or so I think.

He continued to feed me and I couldn’t be happier. The food tasted better when he fed me. I wish he could do this again in the future when I live with him.

Wait....what the hell am I thinking he isn’t yours, he is Sarah’s boyfriend. I can not think that way but why did I? Do I have feelings for him?

I don’t think I do, maybe, I don’t know either way I can’t think that.

That is because I know that this is all fake and I can’t get too attached. I get attached to anyone easily.

I have to remind myself about this constantly because I know I will get attached. I don’t know.... maybe because I don’t want that person to leave me.

Like Aaron for instance. We became good friends over these past few weeks. This is the first time that I have made after many years and like me for well.....me.

I opened my mouth once more but something flashed. I look to see that Connor’s mom took a picture of us.

“This is so cute I hope my grandchildren will as well”, she said with a smile.

I choked. What she said made me choke on the food that I was eating, It’s stuck... shit.

Connor got water and helped me drink the water.

While I was drinking it I couldn’t help but look at him. His eyes showed that he was concerned, well I think?

Why would he be concerned?

I stopped drinking the water and looked away. I wiped my mouth with a napkin and then someone’s palm caressed my cheek and it was Connor.

I look up at him in the eyes and then he put a strand of hair behind my ear.

“Goddamn, you’re so beautiful”, he said.

I looked down and blushed.

He called me beautiful. Does he really think I am beautiful?

“I am glad you two are getting along Connor”, his grandpa said.

Connor looks at me and looked confused.

“Remember, it’s only for show”, he muttered.

What does he mean by that is it all fake? Is it all an act.

I couldn’t help but feel hurt but I don’t understand why am I hurt?

My heart felt as if someone stomped on it multiple times.

I can’t think like that... isn’t that like cheating my best friend? Why would I ever think that? I need to stop it isn’t right it’s like I am cheating in some way.

I can never think of him like that ever.

“It’s getting late mother I think we should go”, I told her. It’s 10 o’clock I didn’t even realize it was 10 o’clock we came here like 10 hrs ago.

“No, you all should stay”, she said.

Oh shit.

“Yes we should”, my grandpa said and laughed.

Why thank you, this will be fun.