Never Been Kissed

"That will be six-fifty." I say ignoring my Best friend beside me and continuing to take my customer order. "Have a nice day!" Once the customer is our of view I turn to my kimmy .

"Kim you can't come to my job, talking to me about my personal life I could get into trouble with the boss." I say wiping the counter tops. She shrugs and bumps into me playfully.

"Thea, my brother is definitely not going to fire you." Kim tells me in a duh tone. I sigh.

"Well never know so just don't ok." She nods understandably and jumps over the counter next to me. "So when are you off?" I shrug then turn towards my clockout sheet.

Thursday ~ 7am- 1:30pm

I glance at the clock behind me which reads 1:20. I sigh in relief. "I get off actually in ten minutes. Why?" I ask her. She grins excitedly.

"So there's this party- .She begins but I cut her off. "No no." I say shaking my head disagreeing. "Ohh why not! Thea everyone is going to be there and Practically everyone loves you." She says.

I shake my head. "You can go without me Alright I think I may just stay home and watch movies with Nutella jar." I say suddenly wanted to leave right now and do exactly that.

"That sounds so boring." She says. I Gasps dramatically. She laughs. "Thea is this about you being insecure again with your appearance because I've told you you're beautiful girl I wish I had long hair like you and not short shoulder length hair." Kim says sadly flipping her hair.

"That's not it!" I denied. Knowing that's exactly why I don't want to go. I never will truly love myself for me. Everyone sees this perfect figure of myself but when I look in the mirror all I see if a sad not perfect girl. Hell I haven't even had my first kiss because of my insecurities and I'm 18.

I just want to be able to love myself as everyone else does.

"You sure?" I nodded. "Well then come then prove to me that's not why you don't wanna go." She says. I roll my eyes and agree.

"Yes! Great you won't regret it."

Maybe I'm going to regret this.