Prologue
I was always told
"Shut your mouth"
"You deserve nothing so be grateful for what I give you"
"You are ugly"
"Worthless little girl"
"Stupid"
"Dirty"
"Witch"
"You bring only illuck wherever you go"
"You are a nuisance to my eye"
"I wish you died instead of her"
"Slave"
"I will choke you to death"
"Why can't you just be obedient like other slaves"
"Quit your acting. You will die only when I decide you will."
"Your dirty blood is on my hands now"
"Filthy bitch"
To these words all I ever did was smile and say
"Thank you"
Not because I was stronger than them but because I was destroyed by those little words. I knew too well how worthless I was and anyone who showed the slightess amount of care and respecrt seemed out of this world to me. I heard the words
"You are beautiful"
"You are so smart you should use it"
"You are such a virtuous woman"
"Hey Smile more often cause you make the world a better place for me each time you smile Cara mía"
"Hey stop crying my love, you are worth every happiness in this world"
"Baby free yourself and blow of my mind with your spirit"
So rarely that they seemed like my little glimpse of hope. I never understood why my mother kept me. All I ever received were scars and humiliations and I was always ready to bear with my pain and avoid dreams till, I met him. I had to be strong just to be able to be with him.
