loneliness

When I think of death I can not sleep ... I suddenly feel that my heart rejects the idea completely and does the opposite of what I want ... and starts to beat quickly ... He also resists the idea of ​​his death and grief ... to come back to live again ... But knowing that No matter what he tries, he will not be able to achieve your difficult ambition ... he is the true happiness ... the true smile ... the innocent mind .... this is me

This is me ....I am a regular girl at the age of sixteen, I study at the high school and have friends around me ... and most of what joins them is my smile, which they say is true and the innocuous fills my face.....But I can't tell them the truth that I can't laugh from the bottom of my heart and that all these smiles were a simple joke to attract attention.............

I have a friend and found out that I love her .. She was good .. but she changed and she doesn't smile as before.. she is always ignore me.. but I remember she told me once if i love her and I said Yes of course . ...I do not know what happened to her, but she looks at me with terrifying looks as she wants to kill me ... She hates me and she hates me so much ... K She broke my Pens and did not want me hug and did not talk to me sometimes ... I decided to bother her to see her smile again ... This hurts ..but I did not give up and I do not want to lose a wonderful friend......He continued to harass her and escape as she continued to follow me and beat me This has always led to my back pain ... but I will not give up before I see her smile again