Insanity

“AHHH” I yelled out the interior. I heard rushing foot straps then five locks being unlocked “Akira, it everything ok? Did you have another nightmare? Do you want a cup of water?” asked a nurse with a concerned tone. Panting I slowly sat up to face Bell the nervous. And facing her with a small smile answers “mhm” I nodded my head. She did not say anything else but exit my room and go to the kitchen and get me a ‘glass’ of water. While she was out of the room I laid back down on the bed, I looked at the ceiling without blinking and thought about my friend that is in my head. Well, I wasn’t a big talker in the mental hospital. I was rather quiet. Even during the day when it was time for us people to have lunch, everyone stays away from me, And nobody talked to me, and I’m glad about that because I had time to be alone. You might be asking why is everyone staying away from me and why nobody talks to me? The explanation to that is that I’m a maniac, I ‘accidentally killed my parents’ and another person, well that is what the judge said. But my friends told me that will help me find my love and my happiness, and look now I’m in a mental hospital. Sometime later my thoughts were interrupted by the same footsteps but more calm ones unlocking my door. Bell opened the door and placed the ‘paper’ cup on my table not that far away from me, but still far away enough that I had to get out of bed. I looked a bell one last time giving her that look that said that I did not need anything else and she could go. So she went out and locked the five locks on my door. I stood up out of my bed and walk to the table where the ‘paper’ cup stood. “Even the nurses are scared of me!” I said quite loudly that the nurses that were in the hall heard me. Then after I finished that sentence I laughed like a maniac. I finished the ‘paper’ cup of water and sat down on the bed. You might be thinking why do I put an accent on paper and glass because when I just came to this mental hospital I was crazy but not as crazy I was given a glass cup. I smashed it against the hard marble floor and started to play in the shattered glass. But when I said I killed my parents, they abused me and in my school, I was 17 years old and I was in 11 grade. Kids from the 12th grade bullied me and it was painful. I was beaten up every day one day I was beaten up so badly that blacked out, I had to go to the hospital. When I woke up I did not see anybody at first. But then I looked closely I saw a blurry human being it was sitting still and did not move so I have ignored. My parents did not visit me while I was in the hospital. “ hello Akira” said the doctor entering my room in the Hospital, he asked me weird questions such as “do you see any blurry human sitting anywhere in this room?” as always I said no. and the other situation about the other person that I killed was when I still talked and was friendly and not as crazy as right, I was at lunch, with my group of friends talking and laughing. When I saw my bullies coming to me and my friends. My friends got frightened and ran away, I wanted to just run but when I was just about to run off, one of the guys held onto my forearm and pulled me back. He shoved me onto the floor and the guy surrounded me and started to hit me everywhere but mostly my head. I was painful I was screaming for help. But only 15 minutes late the staff came to me and saved me, by that time I blacked out and guys were still hitting me harshly. When I woke up I was lying tied up to the bed and weirdly not full of bruises. I thought I would be covered in bruises from the fight. I tried to move and get out but when I started to move furiously there was an alarm that went off, and 3 policemen ran in with the guns facing me and then 4 nurses and 2 doctors came in with emotionless faces. I stopped moving because of how confused I was. “ why am I tired” I asked with a voice crack. “Like you don’t remember?” said one of the police said. “You really don’t remember huh?” scoffed the doctors while lifting off his eyebrows. He told me that the next day after i got beaten up i ran out of the clinic and ran toward one of the dudes with a knife in my hand. Honestly, I was proud of myself. After i thought of that thought i smile at myself and started to laugh like a maniac. Since that day I have been locked up in a white padded room with two small windows, a table, and a bed. I was not allowed to go out because I scared everyone. My doctor bearly visited me because once I attack him because he was getting on my nerves by asking me how I feel. HOW DO YOU THINK YOU WOULD FEEL IF YOU WERE TREATED LIKE A CHILD? Well, that is how I feel. But I don’t mind the fact that the voices stopped talking to me but now I see them but sometimes they just disappeared and I haven’t seen the blurry human-being for quite a while. The last time I saw him said that he will see me soon. I was confused with what he said. Weeks passed, I was still here I haven’t talked to anybody for a while now, when the nurse comes to give me the food, they either look at me while I try to get something out of them and they respond with a judgemental glare or either they don’t look at me at all. Slowly i was losing my backup sanity. Yes, I said back-up sanity. Because I lost my sanity but not all of it because if I did, I would probably start to attack the nurse when they would be bring me the food. One more month passed and still no interaction with the humans on the other side of the door. All day long I just sit in the corner either with a creepy grin or a frown, nothing else, I have not many emotions left since I have depression. And I have a problem with me. The voices in my head keep talking sh** to me how I suck and how horrible I am. I sometimes yell at them trying to shut them up. Usually, when that happens they nurse or some passing human being walking by would look into my window and then just walk away. Later that day I was sitting in the corner and then the nurse came in with a really ugly face disturbing my thinking. She was looking at me like i was some type of an animal that did not deserve to live. And yes i totally agree with her. She came into the room and closed the door behind her and then she turned to me. She put the food down on the table but still was walking towards me. Right now she was standing in front of me, looking down at me with a judging glare, she looked annoyed. I did nothing to her and she looks mad and angry. I just sat in front of her looking up to her like a little puppy but little did i know what would happen next. The nurse bent down to face me at my eye level. She then took her hand and swung it really fast, she was about to hit me when i quickly took her hand before it made contact with my cheek. I looked at her with a mad and frowny face. I made my grip around the nurse hand tighter that when I did it she wiped. The pride and the selfishness in the nurse’s face were gone now and was filled with the terrier. She tried to get out of my grip and stand back up and make a run towards the door, but only succeeded only halfway, she got out of my grip, but since I was on the floor and when she tried to run. I had the advantage to grab her feet and make her trip. So it was done. She was laying down her stomach that was on the floor and I slowly climbed on her so I could just show her what I’m capable of. I was mad because she tried to hit my beautiful face. How could she. I was sitting in her back, and then stood up and flipped her onto her back and sat back down on her stomach. Her hands were in front of her, she was keeping the distance between me and her. Her face explains it all, she was scared as much as other people did, it kinda disappointed me that i couldn’t find someone insane as me that would like me as a friend. But still, remember what the blurry human shadow said: “ I will see me soon”. Honestly was patiently waiting, but i couldn’t just sit in the room and just like rot. While i was deeply thinking in my head, the nurse tried to escape from under me. She escaped but i got distracted when she kicked me in the stomach while she was still laying in the floor trying to stand up. I closed my eyes remembering that time i got beaten up while i was in school. I instantly turned to her and grabbed her leg. When i did she screamed, she turned to the door with the little window, and stretched out her right hand out and yelled “HELP ME” he voice faded away. I looked up and saw some nurses and my doctor looking sadly at the nurse. I did not care about their started and continued what i was doing. I was on top of her again. She punched me, throwing me off her. I landed not that far away from her. I stood up and looked to my left, there were my lunch and a silver spoon. I grabbed the spoon. While i was getting up and grabbing the spoon the nurse ran towards the door and tried to open it. But it was locked from the inside. She was yelling to the people on the other side of the door. She was pulling the doorknob. Nd banging the door. But then she quickly turned, her back against the door. facing me, I was right behind her. i slowly took one step after another, she pressed herself more against the door. I swing my hand that was holding the spoon with and stabbed it through her next. The spoon hit loudly the door and I let go of the spoon handle and just walked off into my room. I lay down on my bed and closed my eyes. I heard the 5 locks unlock, I still keep my eyes closed. I heard people whisper and then drag something or should I say the nurse away. The next day I woke up, “ugh” I said while moving from an uncomfortable position. But I tried to move to a better position I realized that every time I tried to move into another position it felt the same. Then I realized that the bed felt different. I quickly opened my eyes from a weird feeling under me. I sat up, looking around myself. I found myself in a new room. The same thing with the padded walls and a small bedroom. But notable and no window. Just the light flickering and me sitting in the corner on the floor. “We have been waiting for you to wake up.” said a familiar voice. I looked toward the direction from where the voice was coming from. It was the inspector that put me into this hell, well actually i really enjoyed myself in here. “What do you want from me,” I said with a smile on my face. “Still the same smile, miss Akira” i giggle at his words. But then my face quickly turned into a serious face. “But really... what do you want from me?” i asked with a concerned voice. “Well do you know where you are?” I shook my head, the inspector continued“you are on the very top of this hospital” “mental… hospital” i interrupted. “Yes” he paused “mental hospital. We keep our most dangerous or should i say insane patients here.” he stopped and looked into my face “you will only get one meal a day. There won’t be any user to bring it to you, because we don’t want more losses. There is a little hole on the bottom of the door where the food will be put and slipped under the door. There will be NO interactions with the outside door ever again in your life. If do anything stupid you will be sent onto an island for insane prisoners, and there will be only insane people. The food will be provided there and brought by helicopter, from another island that is only one mile away. I suggest you keep quiet and not cause any trouble. From not on there will be a signal for you to get food because you will be blindfolded and chained up to the wall.” he finished his sentence and from what he said did not even matter to me. I tried to act normal and that I did not care, so when the inspector came close to me I could attack him. The inspector came close to me. “be careful Sir” said one of the inspector’s bodyguards. He then just looked at the bodyguard and nodded his head. He came closer and closer to me. He kneeled in front of me so he could tie the blindfold around my head. His hand took out the blindfold. Then put it onto my eyes. I then swing my head in the inspectors head direction and hit his head. The blindfold was already tight on my eyes, so i did not see how the inspector fell on the floor. I heard the inspector groan because of the pain. He then said “Ah… I will not send you to the island right now, just because you are new to this system, but this the last chance, and you will be sent there.” his voice sounded mad. He then stood up. And walked away with his shoes clicking the floor.I did not see his face but i wish i could. After the inspector felt the bodyguards left me without any word. Not even a goodbye. The day went by fast, it was nice and quiet, nobody came in. it felt like it was getting late I just decided to go to sleep, so I moved to a wall and put my back against it, and rested my head on it. But there was a person next door that started to hit the wall from the inside. I tried to ignore the sound but the person kept hitting the wall and it was getting on my nerves. I hit my head against the wall, the sound stop for a second… but still continued. “Hey!” i yelled out for the person to hear. “What?” said a deep male voice. “Can you please stop” i said in a rude voice “well...” there was a pause “talk to me for couple minutes and then i will stop. But don’t expect me to stop talking to you tomorrow and for the rest of the time you are here.” i thought about it. “Sure,” i said “ i haven’t talked to anyone for a long time.” i said calming down. “So why are you here?” he asked, “well shouldn’t you be asking my name first?” “well… what is your name miss?” he asked “ my name is Akira, Akira Akerman. What is your name Mister?”i asked “my name is Min Yoongi” he said “that is a nice name” i said “and what is your reason for being here?” i asked “ well i don’t think i have any… the mental hospital thinks i’m crazy”he explained “well i am crazy and i love it. I the reason i ended up was that i hear things and see things that aren’t there. And because i’m here i became more mentally ill and i have kill like 5 people.” i said proudly. “Oh… guess what Akira, we have the same amount of deaths. I have killed 5 people too” he said. I felt him smiling when he said that. I’m glad i made a friend here. “Yoongi?” i said “yeah?” “how old are you?” i asked curiously “I’m 20, what about you” “i’m 18” i answered. After i finished my sentence i was about to close my eyes but got interrupted by the sound of the alert that let us know the lunch was ready. I stood up, dragging the chains that was on my ankle, i took the paper plate that was filled with food. And yes there was not silver where. I went back to the wall and sat down. “Yoongi?” i asked “yeah.” he said with a big sigh “was you life happy before you came here?” “it was nice” there was a long pause. “I had a nice family… i had a younger sister her name was Ikki. she was a small girl that just started kindergarten. And i was the oldest out of my my siblings. But one night i went to my friends house for a sleepover. And little did i know there was a serial killer going around and he murdered my whole family. I came back next morning seeing everyone was dead and blood everywhere.” he paused again and i heard him sob. “Yoongi” i said turning my body toward the wall “you don’t have to continue if you don’t want.” “thank you, Akira but I want to tell you this… so let’s continue. I started to look around to find if anyone was alive. I assumed that Ikki was still alive to i went to her room… but i regret that. I came in and saw her body all cut up, torn apart and her face… her face was covered in tears, and her face expression was so sad and it looked like she was still alive when the murderer… you know cut her apart. And from that day I started to hallucinate and other things. I lost my mind. And then later oni killed a couple of people and here I am, here sitting with you. In a mental hospital. In the most secure place for maniacs.” he finished “I’m sorry yoongi that you had to recall that event that happens in your life.” I said “its ok Akri” and again there was a long pause of silence. After that, I stood up from the wall and lay down on my favorite spot and slept. An hour or maybe a day later, I don’t know I woke up from my long nap to the sound of knocking on my door. It stopped, and I sat up, still sitting leaning against the wall. I put my hand around my knees just to stretch out my spine. The door opened after a couple of seconds due to the locks on the door. And there stood a nurse, with a wide smile. In Front of her, there was another chair with two wheelchairs, that was with locks. “Hello there Akira, my name is Emma. I and the nurse next to me will be taking you and your neighbor onto walks.” she said. I didn’t answer her, but I nodded my head. She grabbed my elbow lightly, and locked me up and put me into the wheelchair. then the nurse that stood next to Emma locked my hands and lightened a belt around my waist so I couldn’t stand up. “Amy, please take patient 124 to the OT and wait there.” said Emma “ok I will,” said Amy starting to push me to the OT?? Well while I’m being pushed to the OT, here’s some more info about me, I’m also known as patient 124. Amy did not make a sound while we were strolling down the long halls that we full of rooms that had many locks on their doors, but not as much as my door had. finally, we were next to the reception table to make sure Amy was allowed to be with me. And while we were waiting for the receptionist to let us out I looked to the other side of the hall and saw the cafe. Where we were standing there was couple of doors that were side open and i saw my old friends, sitting there with the popular girls. They saw me looking at them, they looked at me with pity. I did not smile nor did i frown i just kept a poker face. Then the wheelchair started to move again. I was pushed to the door and saw the sunlight for the first time in 3 years, I closed my eye because the sun was too bright. Later on, Emma came out with another patient, I did not know who he was but was for some reason familiar. neither did he, his face showed his confusion. Then Emma saw the connected stare that I and this male patient had and decided to break it “Akira” she said the males patient face was even more confused “ A-Akira?” said the male patient while turning his head towards me.. “y-yoongi??” I said.