Diffrence

This isn’t any ordinary love story let’s start off with how it happened

I was sitting in the front row of the class in music. I really hated this class I really wished I never wanted this class, it was like god hates me but that isn’t true. I have never been an fan of religion but my mother loves it, it is like we have to go to church every sunday and sometimes on thursdays. I am more of a emo. I hate people and I chose not to talk to anyone but my best friend Annalicia (Anna), my family members, and my sacred dog that I might’ve turned immortal or I think I kind of have an black magic book no big deal back to what I was saying, because I don’t like people since he hurt me. He played me said to “trust him” I shouldn’t have it was horrible when I found out... To start off I’m Deirdre Thana. It was just an coincidence my name means Sorrowful Death. It was great how my parents are just like that. I decided to dye my hair at twelve because I was bullied for having brown hair. So I dyed it purple and started to fight I fought every chance I got. I always where a hoodie and baggy jeans with Vans. My best friend she never left me she has blue hair and she wears the same thing as me we were called the opposite twins because she was white and I’m brown.

The bell rang at 7:30 I walk in and sit in the front which is just peachy but even if I did argue there was no chance that I would be able to move even though I wanted to because people suck sometimes. I sit next to this really awkward / cool person I really don’t know why he’s cool that always with me. His name was Alec Hill he had a regular haircut it was no emo or ivy league one. He was tall maybe 5’9 and he has a dark mocha skin with black hair. Every girl fell at his feet it was like he had looks. To me he is just straight out ugly because he has an ugly personality that just makes him ugly and a imbecil. I swear one day Im going to make him fall at my feet because e has that bad boy aura that neer quits he always argues and flirts. Last time he flirted with me was wha his nose was broken and that was after he called me beautiful.

It was Wednesday 7:24, I was with my bestfriend Anna when Leyla and her “minions’ show up and started to say in her high pitch voice that was hella annoying. “This is our spot not yours, so leave before I cut your friends hair and make her a ugly fat pig like you.” She and her minions laughed until i got up and went into her face so close she could feel my breath and said “i dare you to touch her and I will break your fingers one by one until you pass out and die, got it?” She whimpered out “O-O-Okay Dierdre im s-s-sorry...” Just like that she left and didn’t bother us for the rest of our peacful time. Anna started to talk about one of her crushes when I say him looking at me it was weird since he knew I hated being staring at. We made eye contact for a few minutes until the bell snapped me back to reality and I quickly made it to the stupid choir/music class that I absolutely loathe. Until I remembered he was in here, and he made eye contact with me im definently getting into a fight with one of his many “girlfriends” because he stared at me. Alec came in strutting like he won the lottery looking at me i couldn’t help but roll my eyes. The bell rang again signaling that if we got in after that bell you would be tardy. I just sat there in this uncomfortable chair that I couldn’t take so I brought 2 jackets plus my hoodie so I could have somewhat of a back pillow. The teacher made us do stretches and I couldn’t understand why. then he whispered to me “Hey... cutie.” I stood up in the middle of the class when the teacher was playing the piano. The teacher Mr.Sandro stopped playing the piano when I slapped Alec across the face. The teacher hesitated to do something til I gleared at him and he said “Diedre go outside with Alec.” This was my chance to tell him to stop or I would beat him so bad he would be in china.

We were outside in less than a minute. I opened my mouth to speak then he stopped me and said “Why won’t you accept that you like me?” “I won’t accept you because I will forever hate you so don’t expect me to start falling for you, anyways why would you want to date someone who would ruin your everything?” “What will you ruin!” “I would ruin you and Layla’s relationship, your reputation, and your innocence...” “One, I hate Layla. Two, My reputation is just as ugly as you say I am. Lastly, how will you take away my innocence?” ” My darkest secret is im in a gang... I joined when I was 13 because I needed protection from someone...” “What gang?” “Nope. Nope. Nope!” “Ok, fine. Can you please pretend to be my girlfriend because the other girls are getting clingy and I need someone to help me scare them away.” “Why would I help you?” “I will get your family and you arrested, dont you remember i’m rich?” “FINE, whatever... I’ll see you at lunch.” Before he got a chance to answer me I walked back into the classroom and sat in the back of the class with no arguments from the teacher because he definently is scared of me. The bell rang and off to math. That’s even worse because I hate math and I would rather kiss a pig. The math class was really boring with the old teacher saying we shouldn’t talk. Im in all the “needs help” classes. We all know thats code for bad kids. Alessandro my guy friend sits next to me in math and he always keeps me up to date with things especially when it is about tha gang we are in. Last night we had to deal out “pancake mix”. Alessandro and me had to go back last night because one of our guys got caught by Los Angeles Police Department. LAPD for short. He was weak anyway whenever we got into a fight with one of our rivals he would hide out in the warehouse instead of help us im glad that wuss is gone. He was trialed with murder. He got caught dumping the body I killed it was quite funny when I found out but if I laughed I would’ve got tortured because that was the gang leader’s son and he was very precious instead of regular like all of us. The bell rang again and here I come science woo! The teacher was a young, very girly teacher. She wore way too much makeup when it came to her face. One time I purposely tripped her and she got the floor dirty with all of her makeup it was hilarious because she looked like a hot mess. The bell rang signaling for my next period to start, P.E. I can’t wait I never did anything in P.E and I got in trouble so many times that they gave up on me and said “You can do what you want but you will have an F in this class.” I just stood there and said “K, cool.” The class had to do some weird testing for the state. The real question is why would they want to know our weight if we could’ve just weighed ourselves? All day was the same question running through my mind “Why me?” He would have chosen anyone else but it was me he chosen why? It may be stupid but why did I feel I needed him to be with me instead of all those prissy pink princess who always wore makeup. I just wished that I didn’t exist sometimes, sometimes it was hard being me, I was expected to do everything in order so I finally got rid of the stupid bull act and decided to go my own way of things! Today was horrible, I’m at church again and it is going crazy lately. The priest or whatever he is called, he was talking about jesus and stuff and how forgiveness works. The priest is white with blondish hair and he was really young for his age and he always talk about how he like the lord but when no-one is looking he flirts with me even though i’m 16 YEARS OF AGE! It’s even worse he is 34 and he is a pervert guess who is getting murdered tonight! Him it’s him obviously. We made it back home at 9;00 P.M my sister was making it back to her room to go to sleep. On the other hand I had to clean my room or I was not going to sleep. I finished the dishes and cleaning the bathroom in record time because my gang and I was gonna train for a gang fight in a few days they declared war and we are going to give it to them. Alessandro and I are both the best fighter so sometimes the gang depends on us and it’s quiet funny because I can’t handle them sometimes they are a little bit crazy sometimes but they are my family...Not even my real family knows me and that is fine by me because I don’t need them. I bet I could ask them if they could give me consent to move out and they would say yes and I would go live with Alessandro. It was about nine-thirty and I was about to leave when i heard tapping at my window. I looked but nothing was their so i just straight up left. I don’t care if someone was their I needed to be somewhere and I wasn’t ready to face anyone until I’m done training with Alessandro and his boyfriend Jace. I finished locking up the house when I saw Alessandro down the street in his red jeep. I was walking across the street when Alessandro pulled up to me and rolled down his window and was saying “What took you so long Jace and I where waiting until he decided he would wait at our gym.” It always takes long to get to the gym it’s kinda funny when Alessandro get road rage and I love him for that because he won’t take crap from anybody but me because he knows I could beat him any day. My favorite song came on the jeep then randomly I started singing the words.

“Been two years, our memories are blurred

Hadn’t heard your voice, no, not a word

But still they, they talk about the things we were

They talk about us

But I don’t know the things that you have heard”

Alessandro straight up was saying “You’re really good D, I wish people could hear your voice they would be so impressed I’m happy that we are best friends because I don’t know what I could do without you.” “Thanks Ro!” We Made It to the gym and Jace was Already Training With a Practice Dummy.

We finished practicing and I went home to my god forsaken family and decided that this was not for me anymore, I have tried to run away a few times but they gave me a last warning saying I would be put under probation because of recent activities and the runaways. I fall asleep to my favorite song by Halsey called Colors. I felt warm and fuzzy and I slowly drifted to sleep.