Love Scene

He couldn't help but smile when the court rewards him with life sentence for his actions. The judge can only draw his inference that he's not right in his mind and even reconsidering to gave him the death sentence. Up until now, he still remembered every thrusts of knife he landed on his wife, the blood he used to warm his cold arm and her lifeless eyes full of unanswered questions. His love for his wife is a rare and genuine one, he loves her very much that he was very afraid of losing her. His secluded mind grew the thought that have been expanding little by little each day into a severe cancer of mind rooting inside his brain. He was being obsessed and sometimes possessed by his own compulsion to seek an assurance to preserve their love forever. Devil took his mind and fed him with the weirdest idea, it occured repeatedly again and again, arguing with his common sense and twisted his belief. His idea is to sent her first to the heaven, a place where there'll be no more death for the second time, that's where his heart being persuaded to preserve his love free from any danger from any temptation of their love. And how delightful he has become when he realized he can be the agent to deliver her on the ride to paradise; she could wait for him there, bathed in hallowed presence of angels while he sacrifices himself to live patiently until his own time come. But he can't kill himself, the voice told him clearly that he needs to endure the pain of two lives, he must enjoy the suffering of mortality he took from his wife, he must act as her saviour for sending her to heaven and paid her ticket in advance with his tortured life without any tears or regrets.

His grin represent the pleasure in every pain hurting his sanity. He never wear off his smile from his appearance since the murder committed; the crooked ambition for his reward that awaiting him was never failed to shape his joyful illusion. Several week after his life sentence, a guest arrived at jailhouse, she's a friend of his wife. Tears ran and dried on her cheeks repeatedly with consecutive questions of the man's undisclosed reason that killed her best friend. He remains silent and keep his smile displayed until she runs out of her patience. She take out her phone, show him the last message his wife sent to her several days before her death. A single drop of tear suddenly slide over his grinning cheek. The message written as it is :

"The test results is positive, oh my God, I'll become a mother in nine months, oh please don't tell anybody, I want this as a surprise on our first anniversary".

Her hand is shaking wildly, she couldn't resist the burst of tears behind her eyes and so she left him with anger clouding her face, leaving him with reid brimmed eyes and distorted world stirring up his brain, tore apart the unnatural expression on his face. Their happiness trashed, his sacrifices are futile, love becoming deep hatred as the betrayal break through his head. His heart shocked to the instant death of heart attack as he recalled the old memories echoing from his doctor's lips, "you have a condition called azoospermia."