Prologue
The view was breathtaking as I stood on the railing.
Maybe it was because I was going to die, but I don’t think I would be that lucky think that God would allow a person like me to see something this beautiful before my last breath. I thought about my family and tears began to fall from my eyes again.
I’m sorry, I thought, but this is the only way for me to see you guys again.
I let go and it was nice to feel free. As if I could fly away from all the guilt keeping me captive.
As I was falling, I thought about everything I’ve done wrong.
If I hadn’t gotten drunk that night, my parents wouldn’t have died in that crash looking for me. If I hadn’t said yes that night, my friend wouldn’t have gotten raped behind that bar that I convinced her to go to. I haven’t seen her since that night because I’m such a coward and can’t face the shame and guilt.
Worst of all, if I hadn’t been selfish, my sister would still be alive.
I closed my eyes as I hit the cold surface and the water enveloped me.
Am I dead yet?
I opened my eyes to see a white ceiling.
Where am I?
“Are you awake yet?” a voice asked.
