The nerd

Jessica

Omg I can’t believe it’s my senior year. I finally get to go back to school. Really I’m talking with myself again. I’m sorry, I haven’t proberly introduced myself. I am Jessica and I am the schools nerd little did y’all know it’s an under cover. I had my parents but because of my fault my mother died in a car accident. I can remember it like it was just yesterday. I never talk about it due to the fact that I still can not get over it.

I live in Georgia and it is the middle of August. Getting of track I am 17 years old and I turn 18 on December. I go to justice high school and I am sadly bullied by the most popular people. Nobody knew how much I would actually hurt and it mostly hurts that my best friend (Jennifer) the girl I grew up with was the worst person ever she tried becoming my friend just to hurt me. Then where can I forget the bad boy of school would always try hurting me. Like every other night I couldn’t sleep what so ever it was berly 6:30.I still had an hour and a half to get ready. I would wear baggy sweats and a baggy shirt.

Every since my mother died my father became an alcoholic and would beat me because I was the reason she died oh how much he hated me. Could I blame him? No why because I was the reason as to why my mother was gone it was my fault she was dead. I wish I would have never gone to that stupid party I wish I would have never try proving myself to my so called friends. They bullied me called me a fuck up and a messed up girl that I had never been through so much.

I hated the fact that no one was there for me when my mother was gone all Igor was my dad beatings. I had it in me to fight my dad. I was never even a daddy girl and no one really knew I was a gang leader. Yeah y’all heard me right I’m a gang leader I just haven’t done anything about my dad because why would i if I could take it. Yeah I hated myself and yes I could stand up to my bullies but it would cause me to end up in jail or could end up setting a trap for myself for the people who want me gone.

As much as I hate walking to school when I had my baby blue aka my mustang. I had to keep the nerd act up just for one more year. The day my mother died it was all because of another gang called rivers. I know who would call themselfs the river but oh well what could I say. On the other hang my gang the scorpions was the top gang in Georgia. My parents would always wonder why I would go out. Maybe just maybe I would be able to tell you all how my mother died when I would get over it. People at my school showed so much hatred to me they would throw everything at me they wanted me gone they wanted me to leave. Before I could go in to school my phone ringed. I look at the caller ID and it is no one other than John my right hand. “Yes?” “Hey Jessica, I have some good news.” “Yeah spit it out hurry I need to get to class and you know how many nosey people are here.” “Well the rivers are planning something big from what our insider had told me.” “ Is that the only stupid reason as to why you called me?!” “Ummmmm Sorry ma’am that’s all he figured.” “Ok you want to know what bye I need to go to school.” I decided to hang up how does he dare call me when I am at school I just can not let no one find out.

As I entered school I went to my locker got all the things I would need for class so I could go to class. I check my paper and i had English first oh how I hate it. Can I just go home and skip? But no I can’t because my father would beat me. Jennifer as always came in her shirt that could berly cover her boobs and ass ewwww this is like the worst thing ever.

“Oh hello Jessica. How lovely for you to come to school? How is your mother? Oh wait you don’t have her no more haha haha.”

“What do you want Jennifer I need to get to class”

“ honey don’t you remember it is so easy for me to take you out?”

“I don’t want no more arguments I’m just trying to get to class please.”

“No nerdy Jessica you can’t get to class remember that night you tried acting all popular and your mother died?” I was so close to snapping if I would have would she have died? I’m tired of never been able to stand up for myself I miss the old Jennifer. Like always her nasty voice brought me back to life.

“Osh you really are the worst daughter the worst person ever.”

“ Jennifer what have I ever done to you. Can you just let me go?” All these students and no one helps me oh god I need to leave get away as soon as possible from her before I snap. The bell ringed time to go to class just great. I ran off before she could say anything else. Could my day get any worse