Vocabulary

When you’re young and you march into your new primary school and start to compare yourself to your other primary school friends you look at how fast they read, write and shout out their timetables. How fast they can answer the question before the teacher can finish their sentence.

With me, it took time to figure out my weaknesses and how I was compared to the others. Back then the only thing I really cared about was ‘’Wham!’’, ‘’Pepsi’’ and ‘’Shirley’’.

I would write amazing stories in my head and not be able to spell it out on paper my vocabulary was limited as I only could use the shortest words that would come to mind. My Grammar was a minefield. ‘’there’’, ‘’they're’’, ‘’there’’, I always used the same one in every story, each time. Once a week a spelling or times tables test would happen. We would all run and get cushions and sit on the floor by the teacher’s chair. I would push my feet across the floor, to slide to the back of the class, as I would get nervous and shake, the fear of my mind blocked at the first question. I would look at the floor not to be noticed, as the brainy kids like the Gareth’s and Lee’s would spout out their timetables and spelling like robots. I found my humor got me my friends and my personality got me my best friend Carla, who like me also struggled with Maths and English. Carla lived opposite me and was the youngest as she had two older sisters. We would walk to school together and play in the playground all the time. She was very protective of me as I was of her. She was my first best friend.

Through primary, we grew up together sharing the love of Madonna and Cindy dolls.

Around year six I remember falling very ill with whooping cough, so bad that I was off school for around six months and not leaving the house or having friends around because it was so bad. My mom would boil the kettle and steam me constantly to allow moister in my lungs, to help me stop coughing Whooping Cough now I know I couldn’t even have put them letters tighter in my head to spell that. But This eventually affected my learning, being off school and struggling as I was. I would read so many books every day, even my dad’s books which were normally sci-fi, books or world war story’s.

So I could read all the words thrown at me, but to think back and remember the letters I could not spell or write them. Why was this such a mental block for me?

I blame my stupid memory, I never notice it so much, as I do now I become more aware of it now and it frightens me. I finally went back to school and my teachers believe, I was too far behind the standards of the rest of my class.

They needed to talk to my parents. We had a bit of excitement as a famous book illustration had come to school to offer our school a prize, to write a short story. Whoever won, would have the very own illustration of their character...

I wrote so many ideas that in my head, I was buzzing with characters, scenes, and responses for the characters. The school offered all their students the chance to enter, So I entered my own story about a squirrel.

We all gathered in assembly for school and my name was called out ... Karen Cooper,

you have won for the primary section you have won, I slowly raised my head up in shock, Really? I won a prize. I walked up to see my story and character brought to life, The squirrel drawing was amazing strokes up and down his painted body, swirls of blue water his home and around his head were swirls of the sky... Trees like tall dark towers over him and Tommy the squirrel happy little face smiling at me. It was amazing! I’m not stupid, I can do these things.

Then my teacher sat me down and explained that my grammar and spelling was bad, but your story was so amazing, we proofread and edited your grammar and handed in the story.

They went on to say because my grammar and spelling were so bad, they must put me back a year. I was devastated, my friends were all off to secondary school without me!

What did I do? I won a competition; how could this be.

I cried for a few days and finally started back with my new year, new people and none of them were my friends. So here I was again year six and sat on a table with children at the same level as me in spelling and maths. Opposite us was the higher group, who were like talented intelligent kids and in the middle was the middle group who could just cope with everything.

The top class did not have to stay, during breaks to finish work like us.

I often thought if I could just be like them so knowledgeable and alert to questions,

I could be free of this weight around my shoulders of insecurity and low self a-steam and be more like them. Now in the news, I remember my dad telling me,” there are more sightings Karen’’, I was excited, I knew then that this was all fiction, people made up stories of space ship sightings and things flying across the skies to be on the local news. People acting strangely when the news lady would question what did you see?

And they would act weirdly and say, I don’t remember anything but lights, flashing lights. but I know it happened. Well, my last year at primary went so fast and before I knew it, we were all for secondary, now did I mention I was the smallest person of my year, even though I will be taken back a year. I haven’t seen my best friend much; she now moves on without me and made new friends. I miss her but knew we had grown apart and she was a much more confident person then I was.

Year eleven was a minefield of emotions and learning and feeling constantly behind, except in art and drama, I felt that I shined In art, I felt such a relief, that I was good at something like painting, drawing was my thing, my special thing. Drama, I was always in plays in drama, it was my escape from my academic reality. I was still unaware of any issues or problems of my learning a capability, as I had no one to point them out to me. I finally found my grove with friends at secondary school and found myself a bit more excepted, as there were many types of kids at secondary, even kids not as clever as me and I thought I was bad. By my second year at secondary school there became an increase of more sightings of flashing lights and objects. The fact that it was in the UK that was more unusual as they always seem to be in America, This Is when I discovered that if I wore tinted yellow glasses, my eyes would adjust better to writing and reading I would still mix up letters when writing ,but after checking it I would be able to change and respell the words.

Then the day it happened it change everything, the day the world changed, the day something changed in me when the news became reality and everyone, everyone watched!

I was sitting in the dining hall as most of the pupils and teachers began running to the windows and screaming. ‘What’s happing’ I thought to myself was it another year eleven fight, I still had my dad’s night driving glasses on, as we had a long English test and I was still getting over the trauma of not knowing most of the questions,

while I ate my donut and sank my teeth into the jam, then I suddenly noticed all the year seven kids dropping like flies. I saw a light flash through the dining hall and bounce of the dinner hall shutters.

‘’What was that?’’ the Teachers were running through the hall grabbing kids, shouting “get to the staircases?” ‘’What the Hell was going on?’’ I ran like all the other kids, who towered over me and also started falling to the ground when I look back at them as I ran, I lifted my glasses up and saw their eyes were bright blue and glazed.

I was in shock and adrenaline was pumping through my body,

I saw Carla out of the corner of my eye, and I dashed towards her ‘’Karen, what’s happening, what’s going on?’’

I told her, “I saw a flash of light, like the one that had been described in the news!”

We need to hide somewhere out from the lights beaming out of the windows.

Me and my friend Carla saw the fire exits in the staircase and ran to a metal panel door,

which must have been a water pipes room, so we just squeezed our self through, and stayed there for what seemed like hours. It must have been at least six or seven o’clock before we even tried to venture out of the control panel room,

But we could not see anyone. Now I still had my dad’s night glasses on, as I was too scared to even think about taking them off and just got accustomed to the light with them on.

We started walking down the staircase and noticed there was nobody around.

No teachers. No students.

‘’Where was everyone’’ I looked out the glass panel of the fire door and thought they must all be in the school hall, probably worried sick about us. So, me and Carla started walked down the corridor and slowly opened the door to the great hall that teachers used for an assembly room, but No one. I told Carla we should try and get home, check on our families, we were both scared so we grabbed our jackets and started to head home, not really accepting what was happening , now it was winter so it started to get dark at six o’clock and the street lights would start to come on.. we scuffled fast,as we were so scared. when I stopped in my tracks, Carla whispered what’s wrong. Right at the end of the path were two dark figures, very tall and thin like skinny twigs if you like, with arms and legs.

I had to blink a few times. to adjust my eyes the distance, then I could hear them,

they were communicating, and I could understand it?

‘’I COULD UNDERSTAND IT?’’

Even though I knew, I shouldn’t be able too, it was like my ears remembering an old voice, the kind you Remember when you see a video of a grandparent who passed away and you hear the tone of voice and the accent again,

like a warm fuzzy feeling.

I must of look horrified as Carla pushed me to the ground, can you hear something,

”I Cannot see anything Karen. ”

‘’Is there someone or something there, ‘’

‘’I said Carla don’t make a noise, they are here.’’

We back off round the other side of the street and tried to get home a different way, we were so scared, but something was haunting me, something had awoken, and it was bubbling up inside of me and it scared the hell out of me.

We finally got to our houses, mine was first and we were defiantly were not splitting up

So we went to my house together, I took out my key from my coat and broke open my door. My heartfelt as if it was a bomb about to blow up!

Carla squealed OMG, what, my neighbors then usher us to come into the doorway,

‘’Karen’’ don’t open your door, come here quickly.

I wanted to see my mom and dad, but I ire-they quietly back to Dan and beryl and they slowly shut the door. They pressed their fingers to their lips and we were both quite,

The room was covered in kitchen foil, which was not the quietest to walk on, but they cover the kitchen foil in tea towels and bath towels and took us upstairs were the bedroom was covered in egg boxes, As they shut the door I felt my heart sink as my parent had always warned me not to speak to strangers, And if they were going to ever do something this was it..

‘’Karen your mom and dad, were taken on vans and trucks with the rest of the street?’’

‘’Were’’ I said

‘’I’m not sure ” said beryl’s

” as it all happened so quickly?’’ Beryl said.

Dan was looking out small parts of the kitchen foil around the windows and slowly putting back with sellotape.

‘’What happened ‘’I said

Beryl’s began telling us, that dan had been prepping the house the last couple of months with ideals that something was not right and he had to cover the inside of the house with kitchen foil and egg boxes in the main bedroom to reduce the sound. That he couldn’t quite explain why, but as there both retired, she let him carry on as long as she could watch her episodes of neighbors during the day. This afternoon, lights were everywhere and everyone must have been in their windows except us, As dan had covered them up, and when we went to check to see if milkman had come, they notice all the adults in rows lining them self-up into the street and just waiting and then loads buses and trucks arriving with people walking calmly on like Robots, not looking around at each other just sat there staring at the floor?

We tried not to see too much as we were scared, we get seen, so we came in and locked the doors and windows

And seen no one but you too since? My hands were shaking as beryls gave us both flask tea, we drank from metal cups it tasted so bitter, but it was wet and hot. A comfort from all the madness that was happing in my head. The thought crosses my mind

”’ What do we do?’’ Dan turn to us and said ‘’we wait ‘’

‘’sleep hear tonight girls’’ we don’t know what we are dealing with?

Beryl gave us ham and tomatoes sauce sandwich’s and we both scoffed them down with more flask tea. I thanked them for helping us and we got comfortable with a duvet and started to drift off to sleep.

Colours of paint and swirls of powder blues and reds and greens,

strokes up and down and letter-like figures coming to life drawing in my head,

swirls of water, swirls of the sky... I see them dropping from the sky’s like giant graphite pencils

Storming from the sky and stabbing into the ground like knives...

Cold and damp I felt with letters of fire crushing into my brain.

”Karen“ whispered Carla

I must have been dreaming, it felt so real, I felt lost in the moment...

‘’Sorry was I snoring, ‘’I said

No, you were moving your arms around like you were drawing something.

We suddenly heard screaming in the distance and then the house shook, Dan and beryl ran to the windows.

‘’What’s happing Dan? The sky is so dark I can just see things moving,

but not sure what they are?

I tried to look out the window through the ripped foil.

My hand just kept the foil ripping as my stomach sank into the floor.

My jaw locks with fear as I observe a black graphite looking shard plummet to the ground

Then another rumble across the floor the impact of the object hitting the ground and the aftershocks of it...

Pieces emerging from the shard-like block, which reminded me of a Rubix cube, twisting and turning into different levels.

Lights strobing out into hues of red and green and blue stream across the sky...

Just like my dream, then a large beating noise like a cry. Blasted across the sky.

Booming and blasting out windows like a ripple across the land...

‘’Karen get out of the window’’

Boom, boom, BOOM,

The window exploded and luckily the foil stops it going every were.

We all dipped down in time.

We crouch down on our hands and knees and got to the landing.

We need to move but I’m not sure we’re.

‘’No, we need to go to it. I said

‘’Are you mad’ ’said Dan.

‘’We need to run and hide?’’ said Dan

There something pulling me towards it! I Cannot explain why? I was drawn to it.

Carla said, “what is”

‘’Them they need us to come?’’ I said

They need us to finish the drawing.

Through Carla said ‘’you’re not making any sense, I’m definitely not going ‘’

I was taken aback, ’you don’t feel the importance of us getting to it?’’

No said ‘’Carla we need to run.’’

Dan started running around with carrier bags and blankets water bottles and put on warm clothes jackets and shoes.

Beryl threw Carla and me jumper’s scarfs and hats and layered them self’s up.

‘’So, what’s it to be ladies’’ said Dan

I looked at Carla she said ‘’Sorry Karen’’ and help carried more bags to the car.

I took a deep breath and said ‘’could I take a bottle and some food.’’

Dan said ‘’you sure you’re just a child, you won’t make it on your own.’’

I have to I car to explain but they need me.

‘’Who your parents’’ Dan said

‘’No the Source ‘’I said?

There was another vibration and the ground shook, I pick up a dirty old rucksack grab some food and water and ran towards the garages and took shelter of an open garage and watch the car with all three of them speed off.

I felt alone but I had an instinct to follow and it was making me feel queasy

So I started my journey on my own.

I felt so tired walking by myself, overcast by flats and tall dark buildings towering over me.

I could feel myself getting tired, I never needed to tell myself to get ready to find somewhere to sleep.

There was a row of dirty open doors of different types of garages, after walking for a whole day, I knew, I needed to rest.

I walked into the first empty storage unit, wow! it smelt like the boys' locker rooms.

So I went to the next storage unit, it had a mattress and some blankets. I looked around and I saw loads of cardboard boxes stacked up against the wall and what seemed to be a bunch of burnt-out used sticks propped up against each other ready to be lit again .so, was somebody else sleeping here?

I heard a scuffle and what seems like a cry, I looked further back and I could see a young boy maybe six or seven years old , hiding in the corner.

”don't come any closer” he said.

I'm so sorry I was just looking for some were to rest” I shouted.

” my mom will be back soon,” he said sniffling

”can I just lie here and rest awhile as I'm struggling to find somewhere to sleep,” I said

”Erm, ok as soon as my mom back, you have to go, she tells me never to talk to strangers.”

”I understand, my mom says the same but they're gone and I'm trying to find where they went!”

”how long has she been gone.” I questioned

He looks at me and began to cry. ”two days now”

”Oh ” I said

”That's long, is she normally that long” I question.

”No, I ran , I ran as fast as my mom told me , ”run ”she said to run”

”He collapses to the floor , crying ”

”I ran to the floor and hugged him..”

”I have been by my self for two days” ” I miss my mom”

”What happened,” I said

me and my mom were out shopping when all of a sudden the lights we're flashing in the sky? Mom's face looks so weird, her face change and her eyes went a funny blue colour. Then she starts to walk over to a crowd of people and Queue up with other adults and I tried to stop her , I chucked my water from my water bottle in her face and she looks at me and said ”when I tell you, son, you run and you don't look back, ” ” I didn't want to leave her, because it was so scary.” said the boy

Then there were buses and trucks we're turning up and all the adults were walking on, as they got on they were stopped and shown symbols, shapes on a screen and shook their heads and then went on the bus, My mom calmly looked at me and said ” I'm locked in, but you now need to run? ”Run Jamie run.”

So I ran to these garages, as everyone in the houses has been taken and most of the kids were taken too, every one gone?

”What shapes were they showing,” I said

”I don't know I did not see it,” said the boy.

But I never saw them before, maybe algebra as that's really hard?

I said let's wait for her and I can rest and if he needed me to set the fire to keep us warm and safe in the night.

Jamie fell asleep and I driffted off,

Colours of paint and swirls of powder blues and reds and greens,

strokes up and down and letter-like figures coming to life drawing in my head,

swirls of water, swirls of sky... I see them dropping from the sky’s like giant graphite pencils

Storming from the sky and stabbing into the ground like knifes...

Cold and damp I felt with letters of fire crushing into my brain.

GET UP?

A young girl with dirt across her face with big brown eyes staring at me, ” get up ” she said

“Sorry,” I said

”Look lady there coming you and the kid need to leave,” said a young girl

I looked at the boy shaking with fear and this girl who looked about my age. We started to run across the back of the target towards tall white flats filled with dark square windows with no light on in any window.

As we ran ,I felt my stomach whirl around and a sound piece me to my core and make me stop in my tracks

The girl grab jamie and ran to the entrance of the flat.I felt like my body was lock into some strange invisible force.

And then I felt my body rumble with excitement all these patterns in my head, swirls of powder blues and reds and greens, it was a warm and fuzzy feeling. Boom! I was out, out cold.

I woke up to find a cold slab of stone like concrete underneath me which began to swarm around me,

From lie flat, it raised me up and North into a chair like a statue. What was this why was I not scared?

Then the room lit up with swirls of water or steam I could not tell,

From the ground rose sharp looking columns with what look like iPad screens forming on the front

Symbols flashing on the flat screens look like capitals BD BC DB AA at first I was trying to recognise them, is it a word,

I still had my tinted glasses on, should I take them off and see it better, as I took them off the light was too overpowering and made my eyes water. Then a voice started repeating itself over and over, I concentrated so hard, what was it saying.

It sounded like French then Italian, I don't know these languages, then out of all this noise,

”Do You Understand Me?” a vibrating gravely voice said

”yes,” I said

everything stopped lights, sound, water or steam just stopped”

The seat boosted me up to the top of the room and opening in the ceiling was my seat went through to a new room that looks like the inside of the inflatable bouncy castle but full of sand moving into structures, like pyramid and triangles.

then the voice said ” what is your name female”

I looked around this Bazaar room scanning for some hideous creature to come out and scare the hell out of me.

”Karen” ”my name is Karen Cooper”

” Karen, do you know why you're here?” they or it said.

” I scared to ask? ”I muttered,

” don't be scared, we all once lived together in harmony, but you forgot us and changed, Why?”

” Erm, I don't under stand, you once lived with us? Who? We're?

The screens I saw early started to rise and move to the centre, creating one giant Tv screen

Backwards letters starting flashing on the screen all swirling around the screen and sticking out like a 3D film.Then pictures of the pyramids and cat-like creatures were walking out the screen and walking around me. buildings and plans for building, bigger buildings and objects to get closer to the sun?

”what is this” and who are you” I shouted

As the sounds of the screen were so strong ,my brain was bursting with so much information.

”we are you, we are your past your future your journey.” it said sternly.

We can no longer appear to you all,as you all changed so much, that you would not recognise us.

”You and a few others can understand us and translate for us ,as are time on your planet has been forgotten”

You are different from others? You have kept your freedom from restraint and not conformed to, we approve of this.

Your people call it Dyslexia, but we call it homebound, the true meaning of our race.

I tried not to speak straight away and think about the next question I was about to say?

”what do you want from me?

The chair began to vibrate, and sand started building up out the side of the chair it then became transparent and it covers my head and I felt it near my ear, and cover my body like a see through plastic suit that sparkle and glimmer as I struggled. It told me to be still and I prayed ,I would see my family again.

The walls turned into reflective surfaces like shiny mirrors and then it stood me up like a robotic suit and move me to the front of the mirror.

”were going to give you movements to learn and practise female,”

”My name is Karen!” I said

”Please, Karen this is for your future, all our future.”

As I learnt the awkward movement I sense an urgency to learn this quickly and thinking there was a lot more happening to me just learning this dance. after a timeless session of learning, they let me rest and said I could join the others?

”What others” We found a few more like you, Karen,”

The wall spread apart, like doors opened out of the mirror into a long hall with a long desk and dining chairs, with food and drinks. I ran to the table and grabbed bread and meat and just layers them up the wrong way round and just eat it, no plates or culinary , but who needed it, then another opening, and others walked in adults, kids ,all walked to the tables looking at each other, some crying, some with no emotion, I then spotted the young girl from the garages.

”Hey,” I said

”hi” she said

”what's your name,” I asked

”Teagan, my name Teagan”

”what happened to you, where the boy?

They caught us, the boy found his mom and went with her? Haven’t seen them since.’’

I looked up and there was a face I recognise instantly ,Carla was staring all around the room.

”CARLA” I shouted

Carla looked at me and started crying and ran over, she look tired and confused.

”what are they doing to us , are they gonna turn us into aliens and be taken away.

Everyone looked exhausted and eat what they could, as none of us knew when we eat again.

I started feeling sleepy, and others started to sleep on the floors, I felt tired I been working out this dance a long time

And feeling a little drowsy, I lay on the warm floor and felt my self drift off.

Colours of paint and swirls of powder blues and reds and greens,

strokes up and down and letter-like figures coming to life drawing in my head,

Be all you can be Karen, be all you can be....

swirls of water, swirls of sky... I felt water trickling around me, warm fluid swishing around me.

I felt like I was floating down a river with the sun beating on my face.

Then i juddered,I looked up and the room was flooded every one on top floating around asleep,

Then archways open up and twig like figures with large hooks started hooking people up around there heads

Delicately pulling them of into dark tunnels ,

What was this,I felt my head being moved and be pushed into a another room, it was another room full of reflective surfaces and I saw flashes images of my family ,mom and dad.

Mom and dad were safe I could feel it ,letters started flashing on the walls .

The water went as fast as it came,sand was on the floor warm and tickled your toes I heard Madonna in my head again but loud and a lot more base in my head,The moves I been taught match the music I was flying around the room to

Papa don’t Preach! when I hit the beat the movement would turn into a sound that a letter would form on the mirror image walls..

What is this, I felt like the girl in the red slippers I read as I child, my body was just in a world of its own,

Six moves I did and six letters stayed on the wall. Then it stoped the music stopped and I felt tiered but happy

“phase one completed” a voice said

I watched as the chair returned it was waiting for me to sit, I sat on it and it made me sleep straight away, but it turned into a fitness appliance or I think it did, I fell asleep,but it was working all my muscles moving them and stretching them and making them work out.

My mind started to wonder and I could hear faded music in the background, I could feel my self flying in my dream it felt so real and my clothes were flapping from the swoops of fast flying what was I doing, I was circling the world it was evolving city’s rising and sunsets and sunrises coming and going I felt like Superman.

But then a sharp stop and I started being pulled back wards city’s shrinking and become more vast lands of sand and just water, was I going mad in this in my head.

‘If I ran away would I have the strength to go far’’ I felt the emotional and pain of leaving this place,

The land of sand had pyramids sand structures holding them up, with thousands of people building and making large bricks and structures, what was it for, I knew pyramids, I seen them in books , they look exciting , but they were so high and they had mirror like surfaces again on each side of pyramid reflecting the sun. All the reflections around it,I felt like I was flying closer and suddenly just halted, I felt the dance or combination of moves were needed.

The six steps I learnt .

I dance them with the noise they made around the pyramid,I could see my reflection in the surface of the pyramid ,first it was me in the suit, then it change to me without the suit,then it was me as a young girl, in my primary days.

I could then see others around the pyramid, all doing the same as me,but with a force now that was getting stronger

Letters started forming on the pyramids, they were like thudding heartbeats once they were done and beamed on the pyramids on shone like beacons out towards the sky.

Then it stops like being rudely awaken in a dream, I was still in the chair,

‘Phase two complete” voice said.

I awoke to find my self groggy and hungry, but scared to eat? Was it drugged , I was starving and went to stand and saw the muscles in my calf’s, wow. My arms felt tight and strong, I felt different? What had happened why I was asleep.

Doorways open again and the table and food was there, I looked around others were as cautiously looking at the food.

At lot less people were in the room, l could see Carla ,she looked strong and different.

‘’Karen , did you get the six moves” Carla said ,as she grab a stack of food and just eat.

“ did you see the structures, the pyramids? Amazing right? Said Carla

Did you see others around the pyramid ‘’ I asked

‘’No ,just me, it’s me they need’’ said Carla

‘’How do you work that out ,when there a room full of people’’ I said

‘’There weeding out the week ones,then it be just me,maybe you,who knows?’’ Carla looked pleased with her self.

‘’I think they need more then one’’ I suggested

Then I heard a young boy, ‘’Karen’’ ‘’Karen’’ it’s me,I saw the young lad from the garages,Jamie

‘’Were your mom I asked

‘’She over there eating’’said Jamie

‘’She very important ,she can unlock things’’ he said

‘’But can she dance ‘’said Carla

Jamie scowled at Carla ‘’my mom to intellectual to dance ‘’ he yelled

‘’She here to help them calculate how to get us back home stupid’’ Jamie walked off

‘’Calculate,don’t they need movements to unlock something’’ I questioned

‘’He’s a kid,haven’t got a clue’’ Carla said

Then I heard her slur slightly ‘’Carla stay close ok ‘’ I lent over to explain

I was back in the chair, the suit was all around my body, like water moving to different areas like waves.

I heard the voice.

”karen we been training you for a moment, and you feel quite confused.

The walls went dark and a flash of square light hit the wall and then like a projected a image from my head boom across to the screen.I ts was me when I was five or six playing with carla in my front garden, we loved to make up stories and games.i would have to pretend when carla went for dinner that my imaginary friend would keep me company, I made her live between my house and dan and berlys house, apannle of work that separated the houses would be her door,She had no name, but we would play until Carla returned.

Then the image froze and my suit began to shudder is something wrong.

My suit churned into so many different colours it was like a chameleon flashing and vibrating it started to move

Float up and then towards the screen, suddenly the screen was like water and my hand went through and then sucked the rest of me in.

I was in the garden, with little me, my pigtails bouncing around the garden, my voice as a child I did it remember that.

I touch the cardigan I wore and it flapped out, I step back and I felt my breathing fasten up.

”you have to teach her the moves Karen”

”but she can't see me” ”how”