Mental breakdown continues
As a child i could Run away
As a child I could run away Easy
As a child Couldn't lead the way Out
But The mind says you will be okay keep moving forward
As my parents guide me through the steps
They laughed and said these words
Where you gonna live ?
How you gonna survive?
I said in my mind as a child There is no way out but Wait
Until I am 18 to leave and escape my way out
As even though running away inst enough to satisfied my needs
I made a plan while growing up saying I will make the time
to escape, when i can choose the time I can leave,
As a child i was locked up in a cave wanting friends,
but I can not leave this miserable life i had
Even though i didn't have a gut to leave at age 4-7
I am a survivor and a fighter with this Anxiety disorder
As i will continue life My disorder Will continue to Heal
Struggling after days, Night and Life growing
Its hard to deal with at time when you need someone by you're side there is a time where there is a LIFE THREATENING
but i manage to Controlled the symptoms of Anxiety disorder
in order to Live with out a father or mother to understand my sympathy of the past.
I will not rest until the Lights are turned off and find my Passion of faith inside my soul while crying out loud
I tend to cry because i held these tears all through these years.
I will not rest until the Day my parents Will say
Honey i will love u no matter what happens sorry
I wasn't the best parent But we all have are ups and downs
I will try my best to be the parent you deserved.
Lets forget the past and forget and move on
I always tell my self to the parents we can not move on from the past that you caused the trauma u made me will never be erased it will be LIFETIME
If i cant have a parent
Then the parent cant have me when needed
Every time i try to call out for help or want them to visit
The answer i get is A FLAT NO
AT Times i see you talking to the other kids you
you visit them I try to not SHED my tears while
listening you talking about rough there going through
I maybe your child i have feelings and sympathy
If i was a mistake child at least try to make it like you cared
I left for a reason,
I felt cluttered,
I Felt unloved,
I Felt dishonored,
Life is short,
life is tough,
but I managed to shed the tears away.
