EXCUSE

His hair is so beautifully brushed back, and his face shines. I feel how he wants to come to me. The whiteness of his clothes and the pleasant smell,which diverge around us surprise me.

I look around and see people walking around. They are such joyful, and on their face I feel indifference to all the rest. Everywhere is clean and f there is fresh air. It looks like the world sinless people, and for some reason in the depths of my souls darkens and I feel heavy in my chest, as if my chest is full stones.

Hastily waving my long eyelashes I looked around again. And my gaze stops on a tree with fruits. I look closely at this tree for a while, next which he stands, but it seems to me that I’m fixating on him already for hours. my brain is inhibited, I just see, and I become worse. And suddenly I turn on, and see that bananas grow on a tree. From this I become terribly scary. " On the tree bananas grow? "- I mentally ask myself a question, but I can not withdraw their out of my mouth. then I understand that I am in the world of inanimate: " Am i dead? Can not be! No, this is not a reality. This is probably some kind of vision, just a vision. "- told myself to calm down. And then a moment later my mind returns to him. A slight smile comes back to me, I feel calm, slow overflowing my soul of it.

I so want to hug and say how much I missed him and talk heart to heart. I want to tell him how I graduated from school with a red diploma, and how I beat the tournament swimming and everything else.

When I try to approach him, I feel that my legs are not are moving. I am trying to raise my right hand, but I don’t feel it. I try the left, does not work. I decide to call him, because he does not notice me. I'm trying to pronounce his name, but I just can't pry even the sound of my lips. I am getting nervous and afraid again because of what is happening. I look down at the ground. I want to cry. Suddenly I hear the voice of the steps. I look up and see how he goes in my direction. I calm down. The closer he comes to the darker his face becomes. He is getting closer and closer. He comes closer to me and his face becomes dimmer every time. when he is on the verge of extinction, I hear a very loud ringing. So ringing that can blow the brain into small pieces. he disappeared like ashes in front of my eyes.

When I open my eyes, I see a burning lamp on the ceiling and hear the alarm bell and I understand that all this was just a nightmare.

to be continued...