SUBSIDING BESIDE

Everyone would have thought of having a Time machine, going back to time and fix our Past. Well, apparently .. yes, and that would be really awesome if we could change the past . These past memories and experiences lay a different path in our lives a different way of living . Past is where the mistakes we all have committed can't be undone . That's sounds True to me . Ahh.. Time machine movies were real though, I rather would do that ... Yes , I clearly remember . I was on the third bench of the third row. Behind me , "The backbenchers", who always talk of hitting some random guy or teasing a girl . Haa... No one used to care them. Each bench had atleast a number of three , Not for my case , sitting next to me was a fat mongol faced bulk monster , i call him "Fatso" . Sorry , He is Arshad . umm.. "Arshad khan" and he is not a terrorist . He is huge and tough from outside but he was opposite on the inside , Tender and kind fellow. The first benchers were fully onto the books everytime i see 'em . Arshad closing near to me and said , Five minutes more . Our Social science teacher was on leave for two f**n days , it was the best day of our lives . The whole class was chaotic for nearly half 'n hour.All of a sudden , a loud thud made me turn my head to Arshad . He was already lookin at me "creepingly".

He said , what's the matter Riyan ?

I said with a pretty bold smile , its nothing .

He knew what i ment , It was like an electromagnetic connection between both of us . Since he was the only best bud to me ... The bell rang and the class was as usual chaotic . It was break time . I and Arshad went to For relieving ourselves from 45 minutes of stored higly explosive urination tank to get unloaded ..

I said , "ohhh man"..(me expressing a feeling of being Relaxed )

He said , you have to admit this "its the best feeling in the world".

I nodding my head three times .

We went back to our class after washing our hands and sat in our bench . Many were just waiting for arshad to open his lunch box , As soon as he opens it within a matter of seconds . The homemade Rotis with stuffed veggies inside were gone, Boom... It was a common practise in the classrooms . Arshad would wouldn't yell at 'em nor he rage on 'em

I said , Take my lunch bro .

Arshad half smilingly said , you are the best man.

He took my lunch box and started eating . We had a humble lunch and washed our hands . Yeah.. We indians eat food with our hands . The best part is after the lunch we lick our finger where our tongue goes in search for the remining foodies stuck in our fingers. Mmm...Finger lickin good. Well the bell rang and we all were back to classes . while we entered the class , everyone's face was noticeably different perhaps , not the first benchers they were geeks . Its Games period . Soon everyone went to the ground and in the middle of the ground we all saw a rigid,young, five foot tall ,well , A short self build muscular guy with a track suit . He was our physical Examiner or Trainer whateva . Sir Sebastian , unlike every P.E he used to examine our nails , if they are cut properly or not .

He would examine each one of them individually as some bite their nails from behind terrifically and there is this one particular guy who used to bring a nail cutter in his pocket . After the inspection he would throw a football far from his position and the girls used to watch us play football and cheer up.. Technically , "cheer girls". The game eventually starts where the back benchers would be on a same team and the other side me arshad and a couple of nice buddies form another .

Unlike every other P.E (i.e Physical examiner) he would just sit with girls ,chatting with 'em ... The game Football's main ideology is to score goal against the opposing team , rather not in our case , Pranaya beautiful young 14 years old girl . Since then we all were of same age between 14 to 15 years old 7th grade eager to jump for title of teenager in their life . So the game , she used to cheer for the one who scores a shot . It was not the goal that we accounted for it was her . Cheering the names from her mouth was a big achievement . Sounds silly but yeah back then it was awesome . Totally....

The period got over and we all went to washroom to wash our face . For about 45 minutes of playing in the scorched sun ,! the result would obviously be sweaty, stinky and tanned skin .I hate getting tanned b'cause I'm a brown . we entered the class room and i was drinking water swiftly a hand gently patted me two times . I turned it was her "pranaya". She gave quick smile and handed over a book which had my name on it . Damn it was my notebook.

She said , ma'm asked you to fill up the index page of your notebook .

Hold on , filling up index page , Stupid..

I said , ok fine , can you give your notebook .

She said , you can ask someone else .

I didn't expect that

I said , ok fine .

And she is gone . Finally everything was at a loss for me .

Arshad said , you got her bro??

I said , What do you mean ?

Arshad said , The notebook ! What were you thinking.

I said , Nothing , I 'm bad at this , i can't convince her for a book

Arshad said , I know that from the begining , you liked her .(after a pause) you need to find some other ways to lend her book.

Me drinking the water and gulped into my oesophagus with a series of sound being produced . I took a deep breath and

I said , Watch me ..

I went straight to her desk and stood in front of her . She was writing on something fastly and i can see her pearly hand written words on the book .

Arg.! I said , can i borrow your english notebook for writing out the index work.

She looked at me annoyingly and said , its in my bag take it .

I said , okay..

I didn't expect this to be this easy, Her bag was by side the of her legs within a reach . I took all her notebook one by one out until i found the English notebook .

She said , would you keep all the notebooks you took out of my bag ?

I said , yeah , fine .

She silently kept on writing fast and i wondered what she was writing .

I said , Thanks for the book .

She said , you are welcome

I took to steps upfront as arshad was looking at me and mimicking something i didn't understand and went to my desk and sat down with a relief .

Arshad said , Riyan! you just took a book and thanked her

I said , yeah, pretty much .

Arshad said , come on man , you like her and you should tell her what you feel !!

I said , No way fatso, you saw her annoyed by me and by the way im lil scared to tell her .

Arshad smilingly patted my shoulder with his big arms and said , Riyan you try somehow to impress her apart from you are one of them among the whole boys trying to pick her up man.

He was true about that and i was little scared to tell her that i liked her .

Me trying to distract myself and started writing the index . The teacher was writing down some grammer topics on the board . But no one cared for her . Everyone was busy in doing their own work , Even pranaya .

Arshad said, you know what , To make a girl like you is to win her heart .

I turned my head towards him and i was literally confused

I said , now you are really talking like an adult fatso And who told you this ?

Arshad said , My dad he told me

I said , cool dad, but how to make her like me ?

Arshad said , Praise her

I said , praise what ?

Arshad said , you dumb , praise about her beautiful hair , her face and so on

I said , will it work on her ?

Arshad said , damn sure it will , you girls expect this from you and the fun fact is that they never tell you .

I said ,Arshad , you are a genius fatso

He smiles crookedly to me as i finished my index page of my notebook and i went back to pranaya to give her book

I said , Thanks and your hand writing is beautiful like you .

I know how tough it was to approach a girl and give her a compliment even it was tougher for 14 year old boy give a complimentlike that .

She looked at me and gave that pretty smile said , Thank you .

That smile had my hormones pumping my blood for the first time i smiled and approached my desk and arshad shook me and asked what happened . I was shy i think and my eager hormones crying out loud "you did it ".

It was the last period and the math teacher quickly came in and she yelled at us to take our note and she started scribbling on the blackboard . math class was the period where every mankind who go to sleep instantly except for some geeks . Yeah it was so tiresome that have of the class seems to be dead (tired and Lifeless). Within a few second , a young middleaged women wore a blue with floral pattern saree and a science book in her hand came in quickly and panting heavy breath she called my name Riyan . She is my mom, Neetha Nadersha . I got out of my bench and with few steps she said pack your books and take your bag .

I was wondering what's happening all of the sudden and confused a bit . I took my bag and parted good bye to arshad and i saw pranaya and she smiled at me . Ok !that was a good sign as i got out my mom stuffed her big science book into my bag and

she said "we gotta go riyan ".

I didn't know why she was saying that and i said ok lets go home . We took a tuk-tuk from our school to our home which was nearby as soon as we reached home and my little sister Rithika opened the door and she was early today and

she said, we are going to Silvassa !!(Dadra and nagar Haveli) a union territory of india . I'm good at geography though .

I said , are we going to tour ? And why all of the sudden ?

She said , are you nuts !! Dads got transfer from here .

I was like this can't be true and all in a heist .. An emotion building up inside me

I said with confidence , you are kidding right ??

Mom said , she is not dear i have got your transfer certificate from the school .

Dad yelling at mom from the kitchen we don't have time for this pack up all this utensils into the box .

I just had an emotional breakdown and tears filling my eyes almost ran down to my cheek dripping down on the floor . This can't be true no no nope ...

I said , i don't wanna go from here and who told you to do this ?

Mom noticing my tears and said , why are you crying child ?

Dad came from the kitchen and hugged me and said, dont you say that dear .

He groomed my head with his caring hand and said , daddy's got a new job there and we will get a new house that will be bigger than this .

I said weeping , what about my friends ?

Mom interrupted and said , dont worry dear , you will find new friends there .

Crying harder i said, i didn't say goodbye to everone that i love

Hell yeah , it was pranaya in my mind it was all good untill i came home and most importantly she smiled at for the first time and what about Arshad ? He would be lonely without me and there would be no friend to talk to and the nerdy first benchers would miss me i think and the back bencher would find a empty seat from tomorrow.

Alot of thoughts running through my head most importantly pranaya

I said , you are ruining my life

Mom said , don't you say that riyan . she carefully patted me with affection and said, everthing is for mere good my son .

I went to the bathroom running and closed the door and wept for almost 30 minutes thinking about losing the most beautiful girl in my class to those scumbags back benchers . I was literally thinking about the most beautiful chick in my class in the worst place i could , sitting in a toilet .

Dad knocked the door and insisted me to open the door.

I said , please leave me alone .

It is so hard for a 14 year old young boy who finally made a bold step to talk to his crush and that all got wasted within a day . "Why me god?why me?" .

I remember when i said this word because i have said it 100 times sitting on the bathroom crying for 30 whole minutes .