Chapter I: Two Ways
– We should walk our separate ways.
Those were the few words that made his whole world crumble to millions of piece. Was she serious? Did she mean it? It’s been years, things were going on just fine. She had to be joking. He frowned a little, shaking his head, sure that it was another one of her jokes. It wouldn’t be the first time she did something like that.
– It’s not funny the second time.
– I’m not joking.
His heart started beating faster, as if trying to get out of his chest. His stomach was twisting and turning, making him almost throw up and the tears that were trying to get to him weren’t helping too much either. She was breaking up with him. After all the time spent together, after his fans accepted her, she was leaving. He shook his head, reaching out to take her hand, but she pulled back before he even had the chance.
– Why? he asked in a low voice, trying his best to stay strong. What did I do?
– Nothing, it’s not your fault, she answered showing him a small smile. It’s on me, really.
As much as he was trying to say something, the words were stuck in his throat. It felt as if the moment he would try speaking, all his emotions would come rushing in, ruining him right there and there were too many people around. She slowly got up, taking her backpack with her and leaving the café as she felt tears rushing to her face as well. She couldn’t explain to him why she had to leave and he couldn’t understand what he did wrong for her to leave. All he could do was watch her get away from him until she completely disappeared.
He decided to not linger around anymore either, not knowing when he might break down and it wasn’t the place for that. He wasn’t even sure where he could have a moment of peace, thinking of taking a walk, but he just never knew who could see him. If he went back to the dorm, he might as well end up crying any moment and he didn’t feel like telling what just happened to him. It was like being trapped.
After all, all he could do was slowly walk towards the dorm and go straight in his room, hoping that no one will come to see how he’s doing. He only wished he knew what happened to them, to their relationship.
Alexis was her name and they knew each other since they were children. They’ve been there for each other in any situation, good or bad, and promised to be there until the end. Now, with their relationship being done, he didn’t even knew if they were at least friends anymore. She just left before he could ask for any kind of explanation, not looking back at least once. From his point of view, she looked confidence in her decision and it was slowly killing him.
The timing couldn’t be any worse either. Monsta X just returned from their world tour a week ago and during the whole tour he only saw Alexis once, in Chicago, when she traveled with work, but also to see them in concert and spend a little time with her lover. Since he was back home, that was their second meeting and he was welcomed with a break up.
Was it the world tour? Has he been away for too long in all that time? Did he become distant during that time? He couldn’t help but wonder. But… Alexis said she understands, that she will wait. Then what has happened? He simply couldn’t tell, there were so many things going on in his mind, he simply felt sick.
Upon returning to the dorm, he avoided everyone and went straight in his room, even locking the door behind him. He didn’t want anyone to walk in his room, he just wanted to be alone for a short time. He even felt like eating alone and that wasn’t his style at all.
On the other side, her side, she’s been crying ever since she left Hoseok alone, the only thought in her mind being to hurry home.
Hurry, hurry, hurry.
It was the right decision to take, those were the words keeping her mind a little calmer. Even if it wouldn’t have been there, she would have still left later and it was going to be worse. She was cursing a lot of decisions she made among her life, thinking about how things would have been if she didn’t do some things.
She dropped on the couch the moment she got inside her apartment, taking the results from the doctor from the table where she left them just a day ago, reading them over and over again, but everything was right on the files and she had to accept what was going on.
She was going to leave.
