Be strong

They said that i am weak and not manly at all. I couldnt understand what they mean So i tried to be stronger.... Manlier but i didnt know what i was doing wrong... And by god i really tried to be stronger but i was confused... Did strong man means to not react to the pain if your heart is broken and smile bright? Because thats what i did... No Matter how torn Apart i was i kept smiling For the sake of my loved ones but Still i wasnt strong... Then i wondered does strong means to not cry when your flesh is cut and your guts are falling out of your body? Because so i did.. I didnt say a Word and smiled While i was bleeding For the sake of being strong but Still i was a weakling... So what does strong means? To fight no Matter how Hard you get punched? Now they say that i have become a senseless monster.

I wondered alone searching For strong opponents traveled the seas and the land but after i realised that i had nothing to fight For and i lost my Will... I Dont want to be strong if i end up being alone... What were my options?

Split my soul to two pieces?

All i ever wanted was to protect something but how could i do it if i was weak? Is it weakness to need someone in your life?

And if it is how can you be manly when you are alone?

And when i Will find that someone it Will be my weakness once again..

What it means being strong after all?