7 years earlier
I wake I wake up it's my mom's room, she's in her room doing pictures and things around the total mass I'm not sure where to look first so I concentrate on her " mom what's wrong" she doesn't even try to answer me as she continues to scream, a bunch of the bathroom and grab a cup of water in her medicine and I'm walking back into her room she finally looks at me and looks terrified and angry like I'm the one who did this, I smile and walk closer to her letting her know everything will be okay " mom I have your medicine, can you take these please" I beg but all she does is turn around and stare at me not even answering so I walk up to her and open her her mouth, sitting the pills on her tongue I told her head back and pour the water inside making her drink it. Finally when she's settled down some and quiet I get her back in bed and turn the lights off. Once back in my room I Collapse on the bed and cry until I fall into a deep sleep, I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this but I know I can't give up on her she's all I've got left, it's been that way ever since my dad left when I was 12, I think it was just too much for him and he had to leave but ever since then I've been the one taking care of her, don't get me wrong I love my Mom we are very close and we do everything together but at 24 years old I feel like it's time for me to start living my life, I don't go out after school because my mom can't be alone and with two weeks until graduation I'm dreading it a little more each day because I know when school is finish I'm no longer able to Escape. the next morning I wake up and going to the bathroom to take a shower before making my mom's breakfast, I grab my phone and hook it up to the speakers I installed. I turn the hot water on on the steam fill up the bathroom before I step inside letting the hot water Cascade all over me to release the tension in my sore muscles when some finish I get dressed in shorts and a tank top and make my way in the kitchen to make moms breakfast, I go to the fridge and take out everything that I need it's always the same thing one piece of toast, one egg over hard and one sausage cut in half with a large glass of orange juice, placing the food on her tray I make my way to her room " mom are you up? I made your favorite" no answer so I quietly open up her door to see that she is still asleep so I leave the tray on the table by her bed and give her a kiss goodbye before I head off to school. Olivia my best friend since the third grade is waiting outside for me so she can ride with me to school " goodness sera you look like s***, did you get any sleep last night?" I just shake my head and get inside the car I really just can't talk about it right now I know if I do I will start crying and I just can't have that before school
