Prologue
At the beginning, everything is better. You have the ability to dream of a beautiful future and imagine that happiness will still occur. I wish I could go back to the beginning, when my innocence was not destroyed and I still believed that we were good. The present is not like the beginning. In the present, there is only the harsh reality. When everything good has already occurred and so did the bad that you did not expect. It might seem presumptuous of me to state that my life was perfect, but it really was. I had everything I could have wanted. You see, my goddess gifted me with my soul mate at a very young age. I had already met my destined partner for life and we still had an entire life to live together. I imagined us to have a beautiful life together. Yet, like I said, the beginning is always better. The me who had those dreams no longer exists, but that is what abandonment can do to you, especially when you are abandoned by the person that is the other half of your very own soul.
I was born with a prophesy and I was destined for greatness. I think what that prophecy really meant was that I was destined for great pain and a life of great suffering. I wonder if this is what the goddess really had intended for me when I was born. Was this the life I was really meant to live? If so, why bless me with such great power, if I had no reason to use it? If I had no purpose to exist? No people to protect? I wish I could go back to the beginning and stay there forever. To be perfectly honest, her and I sitting in that meadow is the one time I felt pure joy. The kind of joy one can only feel when their whole soul is at peace. I am not surprised I felt that with her, for, without her, my soul is not whole. I do not regret the life I lived. Yet, perhaps in another life, everything would be different. In another life, who knows what would have happened?
