act i - the introduction
September 18th 2014,
My brooding yet loving brother,
We haven't spoken in so long yet we're in the same lonely eerie mansion. You always are too busy with your 'friends' to bother with me anymore. It's like she didn't go but i did instead, I know you're not over her being gone but I wish you'd notice i'm mourning, that i need you more than ever and that i'm your damn little sister.
But we don't get what we want? Like how both of us wanted no prayed that she'll stay that the gods won't take her away from us.
I miss you so much, big bro. I miss being with you, like us against the world and no obstacles can break the bond we shared at one point. The hollow, dark hole erupting in my heart is growing per second as if I lost you too that it'd shatter.
I hear the booming music, the parties you hold almost every other week at the mansion. You don't notice me, you notice the girls on each of your arms and the 'friends' that are drunkenly fooling around on the tabletops. You seem happy with them, different even.
You changed drastically while I wallowed in my own self loathe and grief. You climbed to the top of the social hierarchy while I stayed at the bottom.
The taunting voices of my peers, the punches thrown at my face and body are reminders that I'm just a nobody. You remain oblivious to all the signs of mistreatment I receive almost on a daily.
It reminds me of him, the monster that lurks in my night terrors and plaguing my mind of how worthless yet weak I am.
It reminds me I can never escape him, no matter how much effort is given.
I wish I can just spill all the endless torment that is my mind to you. But the fear of you not listening nor believing overrides the desire to tell you or anybody for that matter.
This is why I will tell you my reality in my perspective because you deserve to know and see that you're not the only one. You deserve the truth because I love you and care about you endlessly.
Buckle up for a rollercoaster called our lives, big bro.
