Looking Back in Time
Well, this is hard in theory for I have always thought that the past was just that, the past..boy was I wrong. Looking back in retrospect I realize that there were so many factors affecting my being, from childhood to now, circumstances in life showed me to block any and all realistic experiences and twist them in my mind in such a manner that they would satisfy my way of looking at them. Way back then life was simpler, purer but still full of challenges and uncertainties, I had solid, so I thought, people to look up to and mimic... I am not sure but my behavior throughout my adult life matches the exact definition of bipolarism... My grandiose episodes have taken me to extremes and the lost of relationships, businesses, peace of mind and my sanity....
I am writing my thoughts in hopes that maybe someone will identify with me and also that those who read this will really look deep inside themselves and avoid making the mistakes I have throughout my life. For me is not easy to accept my weaknesses for I have always found a way to work “fool” my way around them, I now realize how sad and most of all unnecessary my behavior has been and how many problems and life deceptions this behavior has caused me.
