Love

We’re at an award show right now.

We have to wait and my eyes wander around the hall. I see many different groups, for example, EXO or GOT7. And of course, BTS, in the group where my crush is: Suga.

I seem to have been staring at him for a long time because Jihoon answers next to me. “Why don’t you just go to him?”

“You know that I can’t do that. Besides, he doesn’t want to have anything to do with me anyway.” I sighed. “You can’t know that. Just go to him.” He smiles at me. I look at him in a slight panic, yet I gather my courage and go to Yoongi.

How could I best start a conversation? What can we talk about? That I have feelings for him? No, he is probably not gay...rather the opposite. At least I appreciate him like that.

I am already very close to his group, only now I notice what I do here. I turn around as I want to go back, but I see how Jihoon smiles encouragingly and forms something with his mouth, something like: ‘You can do it’ I mold back: ‘I don’t think so’ He looked at me sadly. So, I couldn’t see him, it breaks my heart when he is sad and so I am on my way back to Yoongi.

I’m standing in front of the whole group now.

It feels like I’ve run a 1,000-meter marathon so fast my heart moves in that moment.

Everyone looks at me, apparently, they are waiting for me to say something. I also wanted to say something but the leader came to me.

“You are Hoshi from Seventeen, right?” He shouts a little louder because the hall is very loud. “Yeah, that’s right.” I yell back. “You’re really good.” He smiles at me and says: “Are not you the main dancer?” “Yes.” I answer shyly.

I find this conversation a bit uncomfortable because Yoongi is staring at me all the time.

Hoseok then asks: “Could you audition something? If you’re good, I’d like to practice with you when we both have time, of course.”

Now my heart is beating even more. I can’t do freestyle dancing in my condition, I’m too nervous for that. I wanted to say that I don’t want or have to go to my group again (which of course would be the excuse) but just as I open my mouth a song starts where I get the choreography really good. My gaze wanders to Jihoon’s place. He is still sitting there and seems to be watching me all the time. He probably saw that I didn’t feel well, so he gave me one of his beautiful smiles. With new courage that Jihoon gave me, now I start to dance.

Done with the dancing all members clapped and I bow. I’ll look around and smile at everyone. It strikes me that everyone smiles at me just as Jungkook and V because they were very busy. “You are really good! So, if you are interested, my offer is still available. I think Jimin would join in?” Hoseok says, looking at the blonde next to him in the last sentence. “Yeah, sure.” The addressee said. Now both are looking at me, they are probably waiting for my answer. I need more training anyway and as far as I know, they are even better than me thus: “Yes, if it doesn’t cause you any trouble.”

“No, of course not.” Hoseok says friendly.

“Okay, when do you have time?“Both look at each other, Jimin then says: “Tomorrow? at 15 o’clock. Is that okay?”

“Yes. At the Bighit Entertament?” I asked.

Hoseok answers: “Yes~”

“Well, then we’ll see each other tomorrow.” I say goodbye, bow once more turns around and head for Jihoon.

“Wait, Hoshi!”

I look around and see Hoseok running to me. “Can I have your number?”

“Oh, sure.”

He gives me his phone; I enter my number and then give it back to him.

“Thanks, see you tomorrow!”

I just want to go further than he stops me again. “Yoongi will come tomorrow too. Maybe Tae and Kookie too.” With these words, he waves again and then runs back to his group.

What?! Yoongi will come too? As far as I know, he doesn’t like movement. Why is he joining us? But maybe we can get closer?

This thought makes me happy and so I sat down in my seat next to Jihoon. “And? How was it?” He asks me happy as I have a grin on my face. “Quite well! Thanks, Jihoon!” I jump on top of him to give him a fat hug. “You don’t have to thank me, Hyung.” He laughs and returns the hug. We break away from the hug and I look Jihoon in the face.

He is slightly red.

The longer we look at each other, the redder he gets.

“H-Hyung... I-I h-have do tell you som-” Jihoon would be uninterrupted.

“Seventeen!” Exclaims a loud female voice.

We won!

Everyone jumps up and walks on stage, including me. Hoonie was apparently upset because he took my hand. I look at him questioningly but he just keeps going. He is slightly red in the face. With this red glow on his face, he looks even sweeter. At the top of the stage, we bow to each other. I look around the room again. My eyes stopped at Yoongi.

He looks so good...

S. Coups holds his speech and accepts our prize. We thank our fans and the people who made this possible. Bow once again to our farewell and then go down off the stage to sit back in our seats. On the way to the Dorm, my thoughts are only with Yoongi. I am looking forward to tomorrow, although I am afraid that I will be bad, but I will do my best.

Arriving in my room to share with Woozi, The8 and Jun, I lie down in my bed and fall asleep.

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